Once Driller Always a Driller...hector

This quote cracks me up for some reason. Today I woke up feeling good. I have had long days of work and meeting up with the people reading the bible and the AA book. I also had to write out the stuff I am scared of. So here is some of the random shit that triggers my fears

When people are reading a book out loud in a class or a meeting and they need me to read. I am afraid I won't know my place and I will have to ask someone and everyone will think I am some kind of moron.

Scared of Heights
Girls named sarah that don't put the H at the end is scary.
Scared of working in a cubicle the rest of my life
scared of propellers of any kind.
Scared of dropping babies or puppies (cats seem to do fine when I drop them)
Ray Lewis of the baltimore ravens scares me.
Scared of falling off the escilator on Kauffman staduim. This escalator is 30 stories up and it always has drunk people falling into me. It's always windy. and it's a fucking escalator! Thats more than enough for me to be scared.
Strangly enough I used to be scared of death, but now I know that it mostly out of my hands...which brings me to this. I had a dream about Long John silvers yesterday. Man I want a hushpuppy.

I hope you know this will go down on your perm record

Violent Femmes on the cd player today. Ummm I really think they suck, but I listen to them anyway because it's easy to sing along. Crabtree is going to 30 seconds to mars. Which Jared Leto is the lead singer. Jared Leto was so dreamy in "my so called life" Sooo Dreamy. I have been writing punch lines without a story to go with them. So here is one

The fact that she was humming on my balls like a World War I Bi-Plane wasn't disburbing, but the fact that she was wearing a scarf and goggles like the red baron was.

The commercial on the radio for 7 up with David Spade in it is mildly Entertaining. Listened to the beastie boys today. They are old as hell. Someone is eating BBQ around me.

More will be told

There was this lady who I met back in april, I thought she blabbed way too much. Over the last couple weeks of trying to serve instead of being served more has been told to me. It has been pretty fun, instead of listening to this lady and blab I have learned and been entertained. The gist of it is she has had a pretty wild life and like most people she has been through more than I will ever understand. I can't believe how people go through so much on one side of their life, but still are able to aquire lots of power, then loose it, then gain it back. The moral is put yourself in someone elses shoes if for nothing else it helps you get out of yours for awhile.
I know how in depth after doing inventory of the problems I have, that the smallest things do hurt people. I try to keep my side of the street and not call people short or shit like that, because I know it stays with people sometimes forever. Is it big deal? No, but it keeps myself from being free. I know even when a bully pulls off my pants at a christmas party, I later or before that I did something to get back at him. Like make jokes that he wouldn't understand.

I can have everyone like me exept for one person, and I must make that person like me. I am working on making that better by putting a higher power #1 instead of that person. Most the time it is a chick, but it can be anyone.