Tuesday

Thanks to the storms I will be working lots of hours this week. It gives me a chance to make some money and to really grow and improve my work ethic. Today was a long day. I was able to get over to Lawrence to watch KU play. I am not even a KU fan, but it is the closest thing I have to the NBA near here so I will watch them. Bill Self walked right past me and for the 5 seconds I saw him I estimate that he earned 3 thousand dollars. Ben Mclamore and a Radical Dunk. I think this team will win another big 12 championship and maybe get to the sweet 16. They are pretty good, but I think this year the sum of the parts is greater than the whole, where last year the whole was greater than the some of the parts. Ok I have no idea what I am saying. Withey, Releford, Kevin Young will all be good players. I always have a journal rocking through the day and there was a GIANT STAR next to 2 pm. At 2 pm today I wanted to quit, I was out of gas, I went and stretched and laid on the floor and I knew that I could only do two things pray and get myself to think right. So I started to think to myself "I CAN DO THIS, I CAN GET THROUGH THIS DAY" I thought that over and over and stretched some more and got the day done. So anyway I have realized that I really have no control over so many things over my life. I can however talk to myself and think good thoughts. For my good thoughts I had enough energy to get to Lawrence and witness some basketball.

Sunday and Monday

Sunday was ok. I thought I did pretty good for the energy I had. I was able to watch most of nascar. Jimmy Johnson won. The Giants won the world series and the Chiefs won the world series of sucking. The late game for MLS was pretty good. Galaxy VS. Seattle. KU baseball plays Emporia tomorrow and I am going to try to go to that. I thought I did everything I could to try to keep in contact with a lady I met on Saturday. She laughed at what I wrote on facebook, so I will keep in touch with her, but I don't expect much. Seems like the same thing happened to one of my friends. So it was a pretty good set of days. I love to listen to motivational speakers. They really give me ideas on how to push myself and my spirituality to the next level. When I have any amount of time I try to ask myself "How do I make myself better?" An easy answer to that is to pray, since there is nothing bigger than God. I listened to lots of Napolean Hill today. He was the man when it came to using your brain to be wealthy. The fact is that I wake up in Johnson County every day. I am very wealthy compared to the rest of the world. The most important thing I have is a good library, good mentors, and the internet. The rest of the week I am just going to try to do more of the same. Bring some energy, passion, and to grow.

Red Hot Chili Peppers

Friday was pretty chill. I played some nba2k12 and my player is getting better. He still sucks right now. He will get better or I will delete him. Saturday was the Red Hot Chili Peppers concert. They exceeded my expectations. The stage they brought had plenty of moving parts and wild ass animations. Bryce, Sheree, and Ben with me. So it was nice to have some family time. They sounded awesome as well. Sprint Center offered me the finest meats and cheeses. So it was a good time and I was glad I went. They were one of my favorite bands growing up and I figured they may come out and be weak, old and feeble. They were non of the above and it was time well spent.

Focus and Finish

I went out to Livestrong Yesterday and bid farewell to the regular season. I didn't say long because I was tired and it takes awhile to get out there and back. SKC played well passing the ball with ease. Nags got knocked out early and Jacob Peterson came in and promptly scored. I thought SKC looked dominant all game. Peterson Joseph made a start and he is the only guy on this team that can create 1V1 I don't think he will play in the playoffs. So SKC finishes first in the Eastern Conference. Top of the Table. They have no playmakers so they may get beat in the playoffs but it is all good. Next year the play in Concacaf, US OPEN TOURNAMENT, and MLS. So the Sporting Train keeps rollin'

Regular Season Farewell

Tonight is the last regular season game for Sporting KC. It has been a great year. A US CUP title. A chance to win the eastern conference. They now play in concacaf. There were a few dog days in there in the middle, but they made it to 60 points and are champions. Next year SKC will probably lose Roger Espinoza because he has played awesome in the olympics and for his home team. Sad to see him go but our midfield will be O.K. I don't expect them to repeat this kind of year next year, but I hope they can keep Livestrong Sporting Park rocking. The playoffs are a crapshoot, I think they have as good of a chance as any, but their lack of a true playmaker at forward will probably cost them. The Red Bulls have Henry and when they play like crap he can still find a way to get a goal. So anyway good season Sporting KC thank you for the hard works folks over there, and thanks for me for working hard and spending a bunch of money on this team.

Monday

Monday was one of the worst days I have had for awhile. I felt like crap and I was sore from what I think was two days ago. I was sore from walking like 10 miles on Saturday and carrying ice on Sunday. I made it though after some ice packs, trying to stay positive, and by bitching and moaning to myself. Tuesday has already started out better. I am less sore and I am in a better mood. The Giants win yesterday was epic and fun. I hope either the Giants or the Tigers win the world series. Sporting KC plays on Wednesday wrapping up a long and wonderful year. Go Sporting. Today I am just trying to take care of myself so I can keep going towards my goals. I hope to eat decently and continue to walk and I know it will pay dividends in the future. The Chiefs start Brady Quinn and now it looks like we won't be getting that #1 overall draft pick because we are going to win 5 games now. Yuck.

The Weekend

This weekend I would rank as a Solid B. I would rank Saturday as an A and Sunday as a C if I was giving a grade. Friday was just a throw away day although I did participate in some conversation with friends. Saturday was just a day I wanted to make sure I had fun during. I workout, work, and stress enough, I wanted to let my hair down alittle bit because Nascar and my dad don't come around very much. The day started with me going to tanners to get some wings. I love their wings and I am now going to get them more often even if they are pricey. I also got a BBQ sandwich. So my day started out a bit expensive as those 3 things were 24 dollars. I then went and got "The Byrdman" I saw "The V-Foundation" and "The Victorian" for a couple minutes and I took 2 cookies and got out of that place fast so I could get to Nascar Nationwide. I got to Nationwide and there wasn't too much craziness going on in the parking grass area, I then met up with my dad. We listened to a couple songs by some country singer and we headed in. I was bummed to only see the Nationwide race but I did see Tony Stewart and Jeff Gordon do a couple laps. The Nationwide race was very entertaining and had plenty of action. It was a wild finish as Ricky Stenhouse Jr was the only ass pony to carry enough gas to the finish. Byrd and I then went to watch Sporting KC. They tied but I had fun. Sarah, Laura, Molly and a sneak showing of Soony Saad was there. That day was awesome and I was going to push my luck and try to go to westport or something, but I decided to get my rest instead. Sunday was the picnic. It was ok, it just feels like work. Raymond is an awesome guy and it is awesome that we have a cool sober get together once a year. I did my part and we had a good time. It is important to me to do service work like cooking for events or doing whatever. I have two hands and two legs and I need to give to society because it is the right thing to do. I have been building my work ethic up over time and one of these days I will blog about building Character. I am lucky to have character people in my life with of course Jesus, my dad, Raymond, Bob, and so on and so forth. So anyway a fun weekend all and all and of course I am glad I am a white male with enough money to afford to do fun things.

Thursday Morning

Wednesday was pretty good. I hung out with Raymond. We talked more about focusing on other people and being of service. That will help take some of the stress off of me during the days. Overall I have felt really good, I am working towards my goals and it is already paying dividends. I try to eat right and go for walks and I feel like I have decent energy. A good example I feel of how working out helps with energy was when I went to "The Elder Statesmans" wedding. I went down there and I made sure to keep up my walking schedule. I came back and I still had enough energy for me and "The V-Foundation" to go to the Sporting KC game. I feel it is so important that you focus on results of your work so you generate emotions that tie to the work. I call this anchoring. Instead of tying "Oh damnit here we go with this walking bullshit" I try to anchor the feeling of "Oh Damnit here we go with this Sporting KC bullshit!" One of my goals is to give back to the world. I am trying to find a balance between giving and having guilt or remorse for giving. I am not going to lie. I give because it feels good , I can give myself video games SKC tickets Chiefs tickets, but nothing feels as good as giving to random people. That is not me being an awesome person, it just provides me another reason to get through my day. My favorite to give to is various alcohol/drug places. One thing I am semi excited about is I bought NBA2k12. It is last years version, but I am excited non-the-less. Race weekend is this weekend and I am not excited yet, but I am sure by time the engines get fired up I will be fired up.

USMNT WINS

Livestrong was rocking and the USA played awesome yesterday. I couldn't be there but I did host Kris Von G his Fiance Laura and Molly. We had a great time and even played X-Box afterwards. In my personal life still trying to raise my work ethic and be a better person. Most people seem to like and respect me and the fact I have people that come over to watch soccer seems to support that. It could be the fact I have a 40 inch Magnavox with subwoolfer attachment so I can here Graham Zusi's Bomb Thumper corner kicks in stereo.

Monday night

Monday was a Monday indeed. Just working to put some money in my pocket so I can spend it on wings and diet coke. I am looking forward to the US NATIONAL TEAM playing tonight. They will be playing at livestrong. Zusi will score a goal sending the home faithful into a frenzy. I saw my nerd girl yesterday at black dog, I am making progress. What I have in mind today is to have the mindset to work hard and stay positive. Work is the key to success. I saw Adam and Kris out yesterday, but I was pretty much fried for the day. So I only hung out for about an hour. It was a good start to the week overall. I will still be looking for ways to have more fun and to get better at life.

Monday Morning

After a night at the Black Dog I woke up Monday in a decent mood. I just took a shower and now I am blogging. I want to continue to get better at the things I do today. I can look for ways to make things better and make myself and the people around me happier. In sports news the US MENS NATIONAL SOCCER team plays on Tuesday. I an excited to see how that shakes out. Zuuuuuuusi. So one day at time for me this week and I am going to remain focused so I can have the best life I can.

Black Dog and other randoms

On Sunday after I watched the chiefs getting their ass kicked I made it home. I was tired and I laid down. My apt was a mess because I hadn't cleaned it. I ususally work really hard to clean it before people come over on Sunday, but I decided I needed to hang out with my dad so we can make fun of the Chiefs losing this weekend. I had fun at tanners, their 50 cent wings were awesome. They had these wings that were called grilled which tasted like churches chicken fried then cooked on a grill for a second or two. Damn they were good. Anyway I went out to black dog that night and there was a girl there that always plays some sort of board game there. She has video game tatoos all over and she is my speed. Anyway it was bugging me that she is always playing this game where I can't get her number, luckily I got tired of the whole situation and I just asked her to exchange her numbers. She seems very wierd and time will tell if she will even hang out with me, but it felt good to take action moving forward from the one girl I am trying move on from. Overall I don't think there was one more thing this weekend that I could have done to make myself better. As long as I continue to ask the question "How can I make myself better?" then following through with action when the answer comes...I think I can make my life better and better. I am already overwelmed sometimes at my friends, family, and life in general. I am still moving towards buying a house/or living in house. I also want to make 100,000 dollars and of course I want a lady that likes to play video games and do nerdy stuff with me. So it feels good to get my goals out again on my blog so I can be honest about if I am working towards a life I love or just not doing crap.

Sunday

Yesterday I spent the night with two lovely ladies from the Bronx. They were busting my balls (Bowals bronx impersonation) all night. They were off the chain. I don't know if they were funny, or the fact they were so rude and different shocked me into laughing, it was a good day though. Sunday I woke up and went for a walk then drove to Platte City to watch the Chiefs get destroyed by the Buccs. The Chiefs as a franchise are aweful. Yay! The US MENS national team is in town and I look forward to them playing on Tuesday. Right now I am enjoying The 49ers and the Giants. The Giants are winning. The baseball playoffs have been intense as of late. I guess I am forced to hope that Detriot wins because Detroit is a town of great failure and disease.

Just a side note about Detriot. The Original script for RoboCop said they needed to build a city where it looked like a nuclear bomb went off and there was crime and disease all over the place. So instead of building the set for that they just decided to shoot the film in Detriot. So all is well as RoboCop went on to win 14 Academy awards including best picture.

Friday Saturday morning

Friday was ok. I watched boardwalk empire. That show is great. Saturday I worked very hard to move my friend JP. We worked HARD. I am watching Mizzou right now. They are not playing well. Tonight my friend KVG speaks infront of people and tomorrow I am going to tanners to watch the Chiefs win.

Friday and this weekend

This weekend is kind of a cluster. I am planning on hanging out with Raymond tonight then maybe work out. Tomorrow I am helping my friend move then my friend is speaking at 8 pm. Sunday is grab bag. I don't know what is going on.

The Rocking Chair Test

When I am old in rocking chair am I going to regret something I did or didn't do. Like today I went to the dentist. He recommended a bunch of horse shit that I do. I bought his mouthwash for my gums for 20 bucks and awhile back I bought a brand of electric toothbrush he recommended. When doing the rocking chair test I can say most people wish they took care of their teeth better. So to sum it up I am doing what I can to keep my teeth and my body in good health so I never say "damn I wish I took better care of my self" The toothbrush the dentist recommended does work well. I bought one for my mom because I think it helps keep teeth white with less effort. So take care of your teeth and body people. So you will enjoy your days in your rocking chair.

So as you can tell I went to the dentist today. I also went for a walk. I tried to eat healthy but I snuck in some tostidos. What can I say. I love junk food. I watched some baseball. The baseball seemed exciting but it couldn't hold my interest much. Chiefs this weekend! Brady Quinn is going to have a couple touchdowns as the chiefs march back to 8-8.

Wednesday

Wednesday was more of the same deffered gratification I am used too. Work now recieve pleasure at a later date. I felt pretty good most of the day though. I just have to pray and do the next right thing and everything turns out ok. I wish I was enjoying baseball and football more right now but with the Royals and The Chiefs sucking it is a downer. I am looking forward to some hoops action soon. Raul Ibanez just hit a homerun to tie the game. He pinched hit for A-Rod. That is weird to say the least. The US MENS SOCCER team will be playing at Livestrong on Tuesday. I probably won't go, but I will be watching it on T.V. It will be fun to see Graham Zusi in the Stars and Stripes uniform. I think the Chiefs will win this weekend. Unfortunately Pioli thinks that Cassel is awesome, but the entire world sees that he can't even pass the ball 10 yards. That is probably the first thing I would look for in a quarterback...is his ability to pass the ball. The shitty thing about The Chiefs is they turn the ball over a ton AND they play conservitive. Leave it to a Kansas City team to do something that takes sucking to a whole new level. The NFL is set up to bring everyone back to 8-8 so I am sure the Chiefs will win some games down the stretch. Brady Quinn looked ok with the two passes he threw so maybe we can get a couple wins and make a playoff push. The defense has looked pretty good so far. Kendrick Lewis is coming as well as Glenn Dorsey. So we shall see my friends.


edit Ibanez just hit another homerun

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Tuesday. I went to work. I have been busting my ass going through tons of pain and growing. It is paying off a bit as my boss said I did a good job on Monday. My work ethic is getting better as I am getting used to filling my entire day with productive things. I know now that I need to do a better job of stopping bad habits. Anyway I got off work and my eyes felt like they were going to bleed. JJ and I went to Starbucks just to do something different. It was actually a nice change of pace. I then had some food and went for a walk. I have to be honest and be for real for a second. I had positive thoughts all day but I felt like shit. I know I am on my way to a great life, but right now it just seems like everything is so far off. I did like the way I treated people and I liked the fact I went for walk to try to change my state of mind. So tomorrow is a new day. It will probably full of Gods grace as ususal. I am just thankful I made it to work and made it home and that I didn't screw anything up too bad today. I will do a quick gratitude list though to make sure I finish on what I have in my life. My jeep is sweet, my parents are awesome, sister is good, V-Foundation, Byrdman are good. A roof over my head, salads, and toilet paper. I guess my life is actually pretty good.

Monday

I am asking myself some questions this morning. Because questions are powerful. Your brain answers them when you ask them.

How can I make this week better than the last?
Am I going towards my goals?
What have you done for other people today?
How many snack cakes do you intend to eat?
How am I going to get in better shape today?

I am going to laugh more and grow this week. Yes I am going towards my goals. I will hold doors for people and be positive. I will live with passion. I will eat 2 snack cakes. I will go for walks and try to lift weights when I can. I also plan to have fun playing some x-box either tonight or tomorrow. I noticed how much it changed my state of mind from blah to oh ok I am having fun.

Sunday

We are one game closer to never seeing Matt Cassel again. Sporting KC got 1 point. The Royals didn't lose...so pretty good day of Sports. This weekend was pretty good. Adam, JJ, Kris Von German, Molly, Laura all came over to watch sports. They brought me food which was nice of them. They show lots of respect and love for me. I have to say most the people I know are respectful of me these days. I guess it is maturaty, but I just don't get made fun of like I did as a kid. So that is good. I am pretty warn out as I am writing this. This week is going to be another week of learning and work. That is ok with me right now. I would rather be learning and growing and making some dollars than be a broke ass. My goals this week is to treat every moment as valuable.

Saturday morning

I woke up today and bought cans of chili and I also bought white people to go along with them. I am excited to watch the games this weekend. The Chiefs are playing tomorrow then Sporting Kansas City at 3pm. It should be an awesome weekend if you love sports. There is also baseball on so I may catch some of that.

Tom Brady and Ray Lewis

As I was struggling the other day I heard something interesting. Tony Robbins said one of his tapes that he was talking to a baseball player. He asked this hitter what energy level from 1-10 did he have to be at to get a hit off of Dwight Gooden. The first thought that came to mind was how high off of coke is Dwight Gooden at the time? Jokes aside he makes a good point. Athletes and nascar drivers have to be at elite focus during their jobs. So it got me thinking about how Ray Lewis gets fired up, Drew Brees gets fired up, and Tom Brady. I can learn about these athlets how to get fired up for my day and mid day. I can also learn that being successful is not an hour long process. It is play after play moment after moment deal. I can just imagine the long hours of film Tom Brady puts in, or the long hours on the free throw line Michael Jordon spent, I know that these players go through boring times but they are able to stay focuses and grow until they lift superbowls and knock up victoria secret models. I probably should mention Tiger Woods worth ethic here. His tireless hours of chasing perkins waitresses also really motivates me to put in more hours perfecting my craft.

Friday

Friday started out weird. I woke up around 4:40 am and I decided to take a shower because I felt good. I took a shower and did some reading and I feel asleep very hard like until 7. The kind of sleep that people dream about...wait... that is really odd thing to say. Anyway I woke up and at work at this point they pretty much just have the boss 2 feet from me making sure I bust my ass all day. Which that is fine. In fact it is more than fine. I need my work ethic raised to something fierce. I have have always had so-so work ethic. I could hold jobs, but I never really tried to take myself to the next level. Well now I got plenty of chances to go through pain and learn and grow. It feels like shit, but when I write these blogs I can see I am getting better at certain things. After work some people went out, I swung by and they were leaving. It was all good. I came home and went for a walk. I also got a NEW SKC scarf. It has the world Glory on the scarf so I am definately going to "Cloak myself in glory"

Thursday

Thursday I woke up and had some time to listen to motivation mp3s. I really was pretty good today. Good energy and good attitude. I didn't feel good at times but I was able to change my state of mind with some excersises. I like to try to think about how intense a football player has to be during a game. On a scale of 1-10 Ray Lewis doesn't go into a game with a 1 or 2 on the intensity scale, he goes in there balls out. So when I feel like crap I can atleast try to think of people with energy and I can stretch out suck it up and get through the day. I met up with Adam after work. We are excited for the Chiefs this weekend. We are going to get to 8-8. You heard it hear first. Byrdman texted me and we stayed positive. Positive things happen to positive people. You visualize yourself doing right you do right. So that is all I got for right now.

Why am I excited today?

Why am I excited today? Maybe because I have all the motivation videos and inspiration mp3's a man could ever want? I love being able to change what my mind is focused on and place them on growing or the things that are good in my life. I love being able to change my focus from the bullshit of life and really shed light on the fact that I am healthy and I am teach-able. If I am teach-able and remain willing to learn, then I can do whatever I want. The possibilites are endless. That makes me excited. I am also excited to see Danica Patrick and her boobies fly around a race-track at a fast pace. I am also excited to see The Chiefs for the rest of the year. I am excited and proud at what Sporting Kansas City has done this year. Kansas basketball and Mizzou basketball will start soon. So there are too many things actually to focus on. Oh I forgot. What makes me excited the most? ExciteBike! vrroooom. So you see that if you are able to focus on things that excite you, things will never be dull.

Giving my thoughts to things that deserve it.

Girls be girls ya know? One girl I like is dating someone...that is obviously better for her (and me). Instead of feeling sorry for myself I respect myself to write a blog about good things in my life. My friend Von German..is getting married. He asked me to be in his wedding, he has shown lots of guts over the last couple of months. I am pretty proud of him. My friend J.J. is working again and he is going through pain to get success. My friend JP is getting better all the time. I just see so much beauty in the things and the gifts the people around me bring. I am pretty maxed out right now as far as what I can do today. I worked like a honey badger, pushed myself after that, then worked out, then met up with JP. I really do have a full and happy life. Lately I have been really focused on working hard, working out hard, and then when I am tired listening to Anthony Robbins or something positive. I wish it was always like this because I get tons of stuff, but for right now I just going to enjoy it.

Tuesday

I played video games yesterday in the first time in a long time. I finally set aside some goof off time where I wasn't working/planning a chiefs party planning a sporting kc adventure. The video games went well and it feeled good to play.

Monday

My Monday was ok. I was busy as hell. I am still growing and I am not a finished product. I did some good things today. Pretty much everyone I know is going to throw a picnic at Shawnee Mission Park in october and it is cool to see everyone pitch in and help set up a good time. I like to help out with the needy and homeless because well...they need help. Bryce loves this show "My Cat from Hell" Actually Kris Von German likes that show as well. It stars Jackson Galaxy and he soothes these cats. The Cats go from being wild as shit to purrrrfect companions to humans. I better go to bed. I am going to throw out some random quotes and cliches that help me get through the day.

At The End of pain is success.

"Some of you are spoiled, you always have had someone bail you out. I dare you to take alittle pain...at the end is success"

"Do it now, do it right"