Sunday night

Sunday Day I was a bit tired. I did get outside and tried to enjoy the day as best as I could. I then went to black dog with Jason and Kris. I then got a good mix of coffee and friends with me and I really had a good time. I really get into goofy moods when the time is right. It felt good to have a couple hours to goof off. I don't have a serious life on the outside, but I take my work, my growth, and every day tasks pretty serious. I was pretty serious about putting an effort into atleast getting my card for her birthday. I was serious about getting my sporting kc tickets printed off. I was serious about enjoying the sporting kc game as well. There is enough time to worry about dumb crap that if I can catch myself worrying I will try to stop myself and say "This is your time to feel good and enjoy yourself." That is what I am doing now. I love to blog and try to see where I can get better where I can enjoy myself more, and one thing that comes to mind is worry about the future or worry about the past. I am learning to cultivate the skill of enjoying the present. It is truly a gift. My dad said he is going to the Sporting KC game on Friday. That is good news because I think D.C. United is a good team and I think Sporting KC is a good team so it will be a good one. I have money to pay the rent for April and that makes me smile. The little things in life really are the best.

getting out of my comfort zone.

Much like correct spelling and good grammer meeting new people is not my thing. I did a good job at the cauldron city tailgate to meet uncle fuzz, Bernadette, and to talked to Bryce L and chat with others. I am giving myself credit for at least putting an effort into meeting new people.

Sporting KC vs Impact

When Sporting KC is on with all their parts going they look awesome. Bieler and Zusi picked up the goals in the win on Saturday. Bieler had 6 or 7 shots that were very close. The back line of Besler-Collin-Sinovic looked solid Nielson had another clean sheet. The only bad thing is now teams won't try to run with the big dogs when they play at Sporting Park because the Impact flat out got their ass kicked.

things I have done

This is a list of things I have gotten done the last couple days. Got Birthday card for my mom, went out to eat with my family for my moms birthday, deposited checks, took back video games to the library, got some laundry done, bought a new printer while giving up hope on my old printer. Walked a couple miles went to best buy to get a new ink cartridge.

I am glad this week is over

I am glad this week is over. It just has been rough trying to get to work knowing that my department is not going to be there anymore. I am still trying to be of service, not argue, and do my best. I know I only have so much time on this earth and I just want to be the best Ray possible. My boss is cool. My mom's birthday is today, we went out to eat at Red Lobster. The Red Lobster we went to was very classy although our server was crying because she found out her grandpa had a stroke. My mom, Ben, Sheree, Cortland and my dad hung out and watched KU blow a victory. I said that this was a Sweet 16 team and I was right. This week has dragged on and I am a bit down, but I know that I will feel better once I am able to get out and enjoy some sun and especially get some time away from work this Sunday. I am still praying every day and taking action to grow as a person. I did go for a walk today so that felt good. My energy has been sucky lately, but I know if I keep working out and eating right my energy will be good. Happy Easter.


Good news...Printers are 40 dollars at Wal-Mart...bad news...my printer stopped working. Good news printers are cheap...bad news...they are cheap at wal-mart.

Basic adult things but nice to go back to them.

Don't Judge people. Find out everything about a situation. You break a bond when you attack. Don't assume that someone's intent is to screw you over. Take the attitude that "People are doing the best they can with the resources they are given"

Thursday

Thursday...ate too much..used the carbs to go to the gym and do bench/flys/and triceps. Bench press with the straight bar is dangerous, but I did it anyway. I will probably do free weight dumb bells next time. I was able to do a bit of cycling and some walking. Overall the day was kind of crappy but I keep on working towards my dreams by lifting weights and by working. Effort!

ups and downs

Life is full of ups and downs. It is a bit refreshing to have people talk about the down parts of life because most people are pretty much nice, but never get down to the bare bones arrrrrg portion of life. People are are dynamic and ever changing. Who you are today is not who you are tomorrow (If you are a growing type of person) I have no idea what I am trying to say right now.I will stop beating around the bush. I hang out with younger guys and it is refreshing when they talk about how a girl can like them one day and hate them the next ignore them the next and then like them again. I have gone through that the last couple years and I have been looking for someone to ask me how I survived the rollercoaster and I have been looking how to become more steady emotionally when girls are acting off the chain.


Royals are kicking ass today I really like the look of Sal Perez. He looks to be the best catcher in the history of baseball. in F1 news Kimi Rikkiton won the first race and Sebastion Vettle the second race. F1 is weird as the teams are worth a billion dollars (Hi Ferrari) so they have orders not to race team mates so they don't crash each other. This weekend the Red Bull car of Sebastion Vettle decided to ignore those orders and pass his team mate Mark Weber for the win. What a jerk. Dale Earnhardt JR is leading the Points in Nascar and Mark Henrich is leading in Indycar.

Besler and Zusi come back from International duty to play for Sporting KC this weekend. I hope they score a goal. I have been watching soccer and for three straight games I haven't seen a goal. The Mexico USA game was very interesting though. Jayhawks play Friday and it is my moms birthday. My mom is a funny, loving, succesful teacher. Good for her being alive and being funny still!

Humbling myself. I try to mindfully humble myself. I have to work like the rest of the humans I know...I have to do my part. With that comes some peace and rewards.


Granite City has off the chain shrimp tacos.

pushing through

It seems I have one day a week when I have no energy. I have no problems working and being of service when I have energy. Today it was a challenge up until 2:45 to get anything done. I am sure I will feel better later. Sucks but I can't do anything put keep working and time will help it get better. Mountain dew didn't even help much today... That's how tired I was. Oh well. I will appreciate it when my energy is better.

us soccer team

The US did a good job getting a point on the road. Zusi and Besler played well. There was an Omar bravo sighting for Mexico. There were other former wizards on the field. Eddie Johnson and Herclus Gonzalez. I did back and biceps in the weight room yesterday. I didn't feel good but I got my lift anyways. My parents were out at granite city and I had shrip tacos. There were very good. Granate city has always been good to me. I took a look around at brooks brothers but didn't see anything I needed.

California nascar

I was able to see the end of the NASCAR race. It was wild and wooley. Legano sounded scared in the post race cause Tony Stewart was going to rough him up. I think Legano was scared for his life and Denny Hamlin's line because they were bumping at 200 mph. It was a crazy race and California usually sucks. #88 turned in a nice second place finish.

Rany is being dumb

Rany suggested that since the Yankees signed Vernan Wells...that if The Royals wouldn't have traded Wil Meyers that the Royals would have dumped Francour onto the Yankees. Rany is sooo butthurt over the Wil Myers trade. Let it go brother..The Royals are going to be good this year. Enjoy it! The Royals were on TV tonight and it was a pat-on-the-back-athon..but enjoyable. #5 did an interview. Woooo.


Today was ok. I got my walk in and did work. I ate way too many jellybeans and cake but I was dead ass tired at like 4 pm. So I got through that and did some lifting. I still think I can get to 180 it will just take more days were I can have energy to eat well and not days like today where I need sugar just to keep from falling asleep. Whatever happens I am glad I am healthy enough to work out and attempt to get my weight down. Sporting KC plays against the IMPACT this weekend, KU plays Friday, and The Royals will be opening up the season soon. Tiger is #1 in the world again. Heat have won 100000 games in a row. I was able to goof around and play some Tiger Woods...this was a bit of a grind but now that I am into the PGA TOUR mode it is fun. I also played an old NCAA basketball game and they really had Allan Field house looking good in the game.

Saturday night

I am fortunate to have a jeep and fortunate enough to be able to afford a pass at 24 hour fitness. Both of these helped my day go really well this day. I also decided to get off my butt and hang out with friends. JT-Adam-Suzzanne (JT's Squeeze) and JJ all went out to watch KU win against North Carolina. The game was dangerous at first but Bill Self is John Wooden with a hairpiece so KU won. I also managed not to eat there (it was all fried stuff) I came home ate a piece of chicken and some bananas. I did do some jumping jacks as well. After a rough start to the day it ended up pretty good.

guess i will go to the gym

Got up on Sunday felt a bit crappy cleaned my fridge. I played tiger woods then went to build muscle at the gym. It was chest and triceps today with some walking. It was not easy, but what do you know building muscle and getting your ass to the gym day in and day out is not easy. I was way too caffinated in the morimning. I have come to the conclusion that I would rather be caffinated and uncomfortable than being comfy and lazy.

Saturday Night

Saturday night Kris Von German came over and we watched some hoops. I am glad he came over, I really strive to have the attitude what is mine is yours. I got his wedding invite..wow stuff is getting real for some of my friends. I felt pretty good all day. I was able to go for a walk, I cleaned, and I cleaned some of the crap out of my jeep. My Jeep actually was clean for last week. On Game Day's I always clean my Jeep. I even played guitar tonight which I haven't done for awhile. I really miss being in that garage band and exploring guitar and drums, but I made my choice to put my effort into the gym, work, and personal development. I am looking to go to a Royals game April 28th. I am trying to make a better effort to get out to the ball park and get people to go with me. It is fun to get people out to sporting events. Weird enough I feel people grow and work together when we are all out together. I am a growth junky. I want to see people see and experience lots of things. I want people and myself to get out of our comfort zones. I got out of my comfort zone talking to this girl Cori the other day. I should have asked for her number but our conversation was going so good that I didn't want to end it with rejection. Crappy thinking on my part. This summer I will be out more talking to girls and guys and networking. Playing in this big old playground I like to call Kansas City.

Just noticed

My rib feels better.

Sporting KC today

Sporting KC plays today. No Zusi or Besler. Not sure what to expect. I hope the new guys can step up. I hope Chance Meyers is back. I predict the score to be 2-1 Sporting KC. I didn't fill out a bracket this year because it just wasn't worth it. I would rather spend what precious energy I have working on self-development or my job.


#Royals option 2B Johnny Giavotella to AAA Omaha. This sucks...I thought he could be a Mark Lemke type of player.

Friday and Saturday

Friday was the end of a long week with a pretty big work load. I got off work and I had a bit of energy so I went to the gym and got a workout in. I worked out my biceps and my back. My goal is to build muscle to get my sitting/resting calorie burning up so I can get around 180 pounds. I got the workout in and I thought about doing one more set on my biceps but I am very mindful of not injurying myself. I can't build muscle if I am injured. So I have to try to get that balance of working but being mindful of not going too far. After I worked out I invited "Race Car Girl" To the Pinback show. This was a long shot because she is cute and what cute girl doesn't have plans on Friday? Evidently she doesn't. So she tells me she is going and I keep my expectations very low. Whatever happens in life it is my job to work with it, to grow, to have fun, and to just be thankful I am playing in this world. So she is late, which is fine...Pinback was awesome. They played for 1 hour and 45 minutes and they sounded great. I didn't know some of their songs which is weird because I really think I have searched for deep tracks from their collection. Anyway the show was really good. Race Car Girlie grew as a person because she had never seen Pinback and she said she like them more than she thought she would. Jayhawks won. USA SOCCER TEAM WON. So the odds of the night going like that were very slim and I am thankful for it, but of course there was the rub. Race Car Girlie was talking to me about dudes and her life like I was her girlfriend. So I am taking her actions as meaning I am friend-zoned and also she mentioned that I shouldn't date her and she was making no effort to appeal to me. So I am friendzoned, but the level of frustration I am feeling is probably 2 out of 10..about the situation. I will continue to take action to become a person of value that people want to be around. I will continue to watch what I eat, to work out, to help people, to be mindful about where I have been and where I am going. On a good note I woke up Saturday and I really felt good. I went for a small walk and I am ready to have fun this weekend.

Friday

KSU lost. I did back and biceps in the gym. It felt good. Playing not to lose is the worst thing ever.

Random Royal things

Billy Butler will hit 30 homeruns this year. You know who is under rated? Greg Holland....he is going to be a good possibly great closer.

KU is going to make the 16 and no further

Some hot team that presses a ton.

Upright rows

I was able to do some upright rows tonight and some shoulder lifts. I was able to go for a walk as well. I ate way too much after I got done working out and I got some heartburn acid reflux...so that sucked..but whatever. I am getting out and atleast lifting and going for walks. I am completing walks in crappy weather as well. It snowed today and that really sucked. I also forgot my charger in St. Joseph and I was able to buy a new charger and it isn't working well. KU plays this weekend. Pinback is playing tomorrow at the Riot Room. They are one of my favorite bands. People are rude.

Wednesday

Yesterday was stressful and crappy, but I was able to get outside for some air and a walk. Today was much better. I woke up a bit early and debated to go to the gym or not. I decided that I could go for a small walk and that would give me good balance between working out and being happy. So I got a walk in this morning then after work I took myself to the gym. It was one of those days when I got going I just felt great. I tried to focus in on my lifts and put a good effort in. I can really tell that my shoulders have grown and that I am stronger. I can do all of weight on the bench machine (Might be time to do some dumb bells.) So that was good. I wanted to make sure I acknowledge the hard work it took to get to the point where I can get a good pump in. I want to acknowledge the fact that I explored my limits. I want to make sure I give myself credit for putting in some work in the gym, on the tredmill, and of course on the table. I really try to focus in on buying chicken and fish and avoiding fries and chips. I don't remember the last time I ate chips..it just isn't worth it getting addicted to them again. I do eat some pork skins and crackers..so I am not a total angel when it comes food. I also love rice crispy treats. I want to acknowledge the fact that I was willing to throw out chocolate last week haha. All that work and like I said earlier...my shoulders seem bigger...I got more energy...and I feel a good pump and I feel good.

Tuesday

Tuesday was a bit stressful. I was able to come home and cook something and let it cool off before I ate it. I did my best not to eat a ton so I could go for a walk and get the stress out. I was able to go for a walk and it was ok. Just doing little stuff each day to do better and to get better. I think the main thing I did well is I ususally just stress eat and make myself sick, but I was able to pause and just take my time eating then take my time going for a 2 mile walk. With this kind of small growth everyday I am confident I can get down to 180 one day. Random note. I am ready Pat Rielly's book and it talks about small growth, but it really talks about team work. It talks heavily how you need to have teamwork for success to really work.

Monday

Monday Kurtis and Steven went out to perkins with me. We were also at starbucks with adam and jason. It got silly towards the end of the night. I had an omelette which was very good. Probably the best food that I have had in a while. I guess before that I had clam chowder out of a can? It wasn't very good, but the omelette was off the chain.

goals

I was able to put my networking business card in a decent place at the Johnson County Library. I guess seek and shall find. If there is anyone who struggles with networking with people or struggles to get off their ass on a consistent basis and work towards.their dreams, they will eventually find me. I have a wide array of tools to keep myself and successful people moving towards their goals. Speaking of goals I need to make sure to take action and invest in something small like a CD. I have zero experience investing into anything other than standard retirement that my work provides. I would like to take action and spend good positive energy on investing. I have been working on not being weird to people. I troll people in public (that means act bizzare to get a reaction for entertainment.) So as an example how I am not trolling anymore a person told me that they are a caterer. I was going to ask them if they cater to pop tart lovers. Instead I said something normal like do they cater weddings. All this growth is to communicate better with people to try to get people into better positions to succeed.

Sunday

Sunday I woke up and drove to St. Joseph. It was nascar day in America and especially in St. Joseph. Dale Earnhardt JR hasn't won a race but he has been running up front. I watched a ton of soccer and my dad made me food. It was a glorious day. I did go for a small walk and worked my back and biceps. It was also selection Sunday and I was on pins and needles the entire day waiting to see where KU and Mizzou went. It looks like they both got good draws and I expect to see Mizzou and KU in the final four. HAHA I actually think KU will get bounced at the Sweet 16 and I think Mizzou will win one game and get bounced. It has been a good run for both teams this year. KU loses lots of players so I hope they make this March the Mad-est of them all.

Breakdown of Sporting KC game...

Jerome Mecheck had a good game. I laughed when Jerome started taking the ball out at the south end and I was like woah wait for Besler to throw it in. Some guy said "HEY NEW GUY>>>AROUND HERE WE LET BESLER THROW IT IN. It was very cold out and lots of people in my section left early. South West stands it was very quiet and you could watch the game in peace. The caudron was loud as hell as (blue) Uri was ok...Sapong meh....Taca didn't get the rock much...no one did much of anything actually. I am so over the get the ball outside the box and swing it wide to Sinovic. Be more creative. Maybe back door pay with Sinvoic. I though maybe Peterson Joseph and Saad could have came in earlier for alittle bit of a umph but whatever. Chicago didn't do crap other than bunker down and there was clean sheet for Jimmy Nielson.

Going into more detail about this diet deal

So...yeah I work out...but my diet can be better. I really want to give myself credit and write down that I got rid of my junk food today. Even if it is just for today I need to show that I can take actions and work towards a better body. I want a better body so I feel better about myself, so I am healthier, and that I have more energy. The good thing is that I dropped off the candy to a local Sober House. Nothing like getting sober people all hoped up on some chocolate. Snake Saturday night was actually pretty good. "K" and I went out and talked to some ladies and we hung out. I talked some and he busted my balls about my investing. I explained to him I really want to open a CD or something small to get it programmed in my brain to set aside some money (even if it low interest) just to get used to the process. I feel like if I live humble and have a good idea about saving money I can live a good life with money to go to Sporting KC games and Royals games. An important ball busting was made by "K" as he pointed out that I haven't taken action on investing yet. So that is a damn blessing having that man in my life so he can remind me to stop talking about what I am going to do and take action on doing it. My goal is by the end of the month put money into a CD. Keep growing...build character...stay focused on your dreams...enjoy the moment. I am so glad I felt good all day today actually. I have been looking forward to the season and I was afraid I may get a cold...but I felt good and my parents and I hung out and it was a good day.

sporting kc game vs..the fire

Everyone comes into sporting park and barely tries to play any office. It is very annoying. No one on Sporting KC played well but Jimmy Nielson does get credit for a clean sheet. Kurtis, Matt, my mom and my dad was at the game. Jason was there as well. Do my friends and family were represented well.

character building

I got rid of some chocolate I had stored at my apartment..trying to do everything I can to.shed some pounds. That was hard to throw out, but I know I have make some sacrifice and character build to be healthier and leaner. Sporting KC tied at zero which sucked, but my mom and dad came out which was special. I also got my snake Saturday scarf which was used cloak myself in glory.

shoulders today

Shoulder day in the gym. Even though today is match day doesn't give me a day off in the gym.

more friday.

I was able to get my lifts in. Luckily black dog is next door so I could enjoy some of the weather. It is nice to soak in some rays before it turns crappy again. Lifting weights man...that will test your patience. I will get halfway through my routine and I want to go home. I know if I quit I get nothing. If I make it through I can build my character and maybe some muscle.

chest and tri's today

Another day in the weightroom. Another day to improve my toughness, my character, and my grunting abilities

Thursday and Friday

I was reading Pat Riley's book about teamwork and it really got my mind moving. How can I involve great teamwork to make my life more awesome. I know I can go to a coffee shop and hang out with J.J., Adam, and Johnny. That is what I did. We were like Kareem, Worthy, and Magic (without the aids of course). We laughed and yelled at people from the parking lot. We had a grand time. I then went to visit THE BYRDMAN, V-Foundation, and Johnnie Mac. Johnnie Mac was looking good in his "Hilltopper" polo. We enjoyed some laughs and hardy handshakes were passed out for all. It should be a good weekend and I already got my walk in this morning. Yes I could have gotten my masters degree or learned Spanish or tamed wild Coyotes, but I think I like my decision on focusing my energy to going for a walk and getting out and about each day. This weekend is Sporting KC. I am going to forgo complaining about their parking and ticket situation to ask myself "Why do I go to SKC games." First off it is fun and they win most of the times. Second is that I love the Royals, but I hate I-70 and when I think of the Royals I think of walking out of the Stadium mad that they pay trash to pay for them. I am hopeful at the new season. I am hopeful Hosmer gets better.

Thursday

Thursday was an action day. I took a couple hours off to watch KU kick butt. I went for a walk, ate wings, got rid of a bunch of clothes and other crap. I have way too much crap for my small apartment. I donated what I could and threw away the trash. So I guess that is my spring cleaning? KU is kicking butt right now. I will report back later.

Johnson County Library

I have been in the Johnson County library a couple times. Mostly to put papers in there. Today I actually got a library card. Now I can open a whole new world on self-improvement. First book I checked out was some book Pat Riley (coach of the Lakers-Knicks-Heat) had. I can't wait to see what this slicked backed hair dude has to say to make me awesome. I also rented a movie Adventure land from there. It looks like a silly good time.

A weird day yesterday-back to normal today

Yesterday I was tired all day. I don't have days where I am that tired. I think my hurt rib is causing me to really lose sleep. I moved through the day and tried to stay focused on my goals. I was able to work out a bit in an weird place. I went to see if my Sporting KC scarf had arrived in my apartment complex office and of course it didn't. I then remembered that they have a stationary bike down stars. I rode for about 15 minutes and it felt pretty good. When I first moved down to Lenexa eight years ago I would always go over to this place and work out. I worked nights then. So it was a bit weird being back and knowing that I am now old as hell. I also went over to see The V-Foundation and Byrdman. They were throwing bags and I lost every game I played. It was a nice change of pace. Vrooman came down and said somethings that were very vrooman-like. The Big-12 tournament is upon us and for this I thank God for its wonderful action! Nascar is at Bristol this weekend and Sporting KC has their first home game. It is going to be a wild weekend. I can't get too wild though. I still have goals day in and day out to pray..so I can become more spiritually fit, I want to seek out ways to bring in more money, I want to seek out ways to be of service, I also love ready and watching motivational videos. They really keep me in a focused mindset. I am going to work out my biceps and back today. That is probably my favorite day. Rowing motion to work my back really feels good.

Vehicles

Shabot Shalom

Cars

Tuxedo Black

Wolf Gang

The King and all of his men. I always forget the name of this song and it drives me nuts.

Hard choices and acknowledgement

I would like to point out the fact that working out and eating decently has lead me to have more energy. I don't think I could make the trek back and forth from St. Joseph on Sundays without being in decent shape mentally and physically. Probably helps that I drink mountain dew code red. ALARM IS GOING OFF!!! CODE RED>>>>>TIME FOR NASCAR...Ok anyway today was a pretty good day. I have had several just good solid peaceful days. My 30's are better than my 20's just for the sheer fact I stay out of peoples business and I am too unimportant for people to care what I am doing. This leads to lots of peace. I love Tony Robbins. Mostly because he gets me pumped up. I don't apply most of what he says on his tapes, but I love the fact that he really is excited to talk. That makes me excited. He loves to make lists of questions for yourself to ask. So that way you can really see on paper what makes you happy etc. I think what makes me the most happy is I live in a safe part of town with libraries with anything I want to learn. Tony Robbins is fond of asking yourself "Take this experience..on a scale between 1-10 what is it?..What would make it better?" Lots of this kind of hard thinking can really improve certain situations. I know I don't think I could improve watching nascar with loud ass speakers going. I could improve certain situations with friends though. I guess it really shows how my life is actually pretty enjoyable as there are lots of things I can't think any way to improve. They are already a 9 or 10 on the scale of enjoyment.

Adalberto Mondesi is a player to watch for the Royals. He is a SS he looks awesome...good trade bait or hell move him to 2nd or a good insurance policy on Escabar.

Monday Morning

Monday morning. I didn't sleep well, my rib still hurt and it forces me to try to sleep on my back. I know I know...SUCK IT UP BUTTERCUP. I was excited for the good start for Dale Earnhardt JR. he hangs around and gets top 5 finishes he will win a race soon. Sometimes I hate that full feeling I get after eating, but it is better than being hungry...and it is way better than being starving. It is cold out this morning which is annoying, but the good thing is that when better gets better weather I will love it that much more. I got up and prayed and today I am committed to getting .00001 better..which over time adds up. I went to the car show this weekend. I should probably post pictures, but I am not in the mood at this moment.

Sunday

Sunday I watched Nascar with my dad. #88 had a big run in that orange race car!!! Orange you glad I told you that? Eric Hosmer had a big knock for USA. USA USA USA!!! It was a fun day. I have no idea what I am doing when I play portal 2. I am too old to figure out video games I guess.

skc

Sporting KC lost a game yesterday. They lost to Toronto FC. Toronto FC will be at the bottom of the table this year, so it was a bad loss. Hopefully they bounce back next week. Taca Bieler played awesome again. He seems to be the missing piece sporting KC has been missing.

Billy Butler

He can hit a baseball hard.

Friday and Saturday

On Friday night I hung out and went for a walk and watched NBA. It was nice to get fresh air in my lungs. I woke up on Saturday and went for walk. I then did some laundry got some food ready for the weekend. I played some FIFA and I loaded up the new Depeche Mode album "Heaven". I am interested to listen to it when I get a chance. I don't listen to that much new music, but Metric...Killer Mike.. Pharaoh... Have been listen to. I plan on reading some playlists off of 96.5 the buzz to see what new songs are out there. Sporting KC plays in a couple hours and NASCAR nationwide is on. Sunday features Heat and Pacers and also has Nascar racing at Las Vegas.

Mind Games

I do mostly what I want to do everyday. I get mad at myself for eating a bit too much, but I do my best not to do that. My main actions that I try to do day in and day out is to pray, grow, and you know...just try to play nice with others. One thing I have found that creates a sense of urgency is if you put scarcity thinking into play. Like sometimes I don't like to go out...ahhhhh my friends will always be there. So then I get lazy and I don't go out. I can change my thinking into scarcity thinking to make a sense of urgency...I will use the example of going out to see friends

My friends are out, but I can always see them tomorrow -no urgency..abundant amount of time
I don't know how many more weekends I have left with my friends..we are getting old -Scarcity thinking..more urgency.

You can use these principles to really get your ass moving. I damn sure use urgency to get out of my house. I only have 54 weekends a year to go out and really see places packed with people. I have to make this count. That is when I want to get my ass in gear I can really get myself moving. Sometimes I retro-actively use this logic to make myself not regret something I did..If I didn't go out I will tell myself "Oh well there is always next week"

Where this type of thinking really would help is if you had some 21 year old dude constantly blowing up some lame average girl because he is scared that he won't get another one...THERE IS ALWAYS ANOTHER ONE. You can create some different thought patterns to help yourself cope in better ways..ways you can be proud of. I know that I use some of these mind games to really work hard when it is time to work. Make hay when the sun is shining. As I write this I understand I blab and it all seems like pointless information. Some of my thoughts (lots of Raymond and Jamie's thoughts) as well have weaved themselves into my actions and have given "K" and some others that I know real power to improve their lives. "K" in turn parrots some of my thought patterns and who knows maybe my thoughts and my actions will really make the next generation of men better people.

not caring what people think

What people think about me is non of my business. I have worked hard through character building and prayer to be my own man. I know who I am and I know what I believe and that is all that matters. I notice small growth when I do stupid stuff like walk in the street without looking and doing that little dance with a car... You goo I gp. Now I just do my thing and watch for traffic. I don't worry about what other people think. It has become apart of my working mind and it makes me feel good that my well being isn't tied to what people think. I will.continue to grow and.track my progress on my way to my happy destiny.

#88

Dale Earnhardt JR will be racing an orange car this weekend. Orange you glad I told you that information?

Thursday

Thursday was a normal day. I felt crappy most of the day, but I pulled through like an awesome machine! Thursday night I went and worked out. I got a good pump in. Walked a couple miles and did chest and triceps. My muscles were pumped. I then headed home to watch TV and play FIFA for a couple hours. It was fun. Tonight my plans are to enjoy my friday and maybe go to black dog.

chest and tri's

Whoa!! Get yourself a pump!

outkast

Outkast kicks ass. That was fun back in the day when Kevin would hustle the entire state into giving him money. Rosa parks Ms. Jackson and Roses. Mmmmm that was some delicious hip hop.

ugggh

I was feeling tired today. I made it through. I watched some videos about wwII when people's guts were shot to hell over the beaches of Normandy. I decided I could suck it up and grustle today. I learned today that you should focus 80% of your time on the solution to your problems. The rest of the 20% should go towards what the problem is...10% goes to charity. I wish there was a ghetto version of monopoly the board game. It could have strip clubs and paying baby moma's. You could have cars with giant rims and go to the barber shop to get a fade.

damn my ribs hurt.

It is always something with me. Now it is my ribs hurting. It is all good though. Other than the minute by minute struggle to breath I will be fine. The girl cargirl went out yesterday and I enjoyed it, but all my ribs hurt. So I didn't enjoy it as much as I could have, but it was a delightful night non the less. What I know about girls is that they hate guys who think they fall in love after one date. I know this doesn't happen to me because I am too busy focused on how bad it hurts to breath than on some lady's goodies. Good day and night my friends.

glad i got a hair cut today

This big black lady gave me a haircut today. She smelled like pork ribs but she cut the hell out of my hair. I saw her cheers thong and it wasn't great. The girl I like texted me to go out. I made sure my expectations were very low. I was just glad that I got a haircut and that I had semi hipster clothes to wear. Black jeans and black checkered shirt. I really need a tat or two to really set that look off =[ oh well.

Royals and SKC

Forget that Will Meyers will be the next Mickey Mantle for a minute. I want to focus on the fact that the Royals major league team has come a long ways in a couple years. No more Jose Guillen-Rick Ankiel-David Dejesus outfield. That right there shows progress. They are playing well this spring and I hope they keep it going. I am cautiously hoping for the best. Sporting KC plays Toronto FC next. If Taca Bieler plays the way he did the last game they will win. Jimmy Nielson is always solid and he is very good out setting up SKC in defense and getting their offense set up. I was expecting an aging Nielson to look his age his first game but he looked good. If a normal 35 year old male across this USA made a diving save I am assuming he would get hurt. That means you Brad from accounting. If Brad from accounting stops surfing facebook right now and tries to make a diving save, he is getting up injured.

Things don't happen to me things happen FOR ME

I think about this quote all the time when people are crappy to me. I have to get tougher skin and learn to love the sinner not the sin. Love the person...not their crap actions...So when things are going weird I can say that life is doing this so I can learn and grow. I am proud of the growth I have achieved.

my goals

I am in favor of always writing and rewriting your goals. My goals include improving relationships with people by being more understanding and listening more. I would like to make 100k a year because it is my desire to have an abundance of money. That would ensure all the sporting events. I want to go to Royals and SKC games. I want to keep improving my connections and meet as many people as possible. I learn so much about myself when I go out and interact people. Just taking a look back I am way happier now than I was a year ago. I am much closer to the person that I had a vision I would be. Lots of my happiness comes just from tons and tons of people being unpleasant and me realizing that if I am ever going to move forward towards my dreams and share them I have to have tougher skin. Am I going towards my goals? Well in know I do a good job getting my butt to the gym and eating chicken. Where do I go from here? Well small steps towards my goals. Studying small financial investments, working out and going out are necessary. When I do go out I need to talk more normal and not troll or mess with people.

working back and biceps today

Whoa... Get yourself some pump Ray.

Monday

Monday was senior night. There were no chants for Ben Mclamore to come back. He is done and on his way to the pacers. I did some shoulders yesterday. I hurt my ribs bending over into a dumpster so I am not working out too hard.

Sunday

I was feeling good from the fun Saturday so I woke up and drove to St. Joseph. Let me backtrack for a second. At black dog on Saturday I talked to a woman like a person without being a jackass and I was able to get her number. It has been awhile since I did that and it felt good to go back to being nicer. Ok back to Sunday. I drove up to St. Joseph and watched Nascar with my dad. It was a long race and the finish was pretty exciting. Dale Earnhardt Jr. had a nice run and he looks stronger this year than he has in awhile. Danica blew a tire (Goodyear sucks) and Columbia Missouri native Carl Edwards won the race. I watched some English Premier soccer and some USA soccer as well. It was a fun day just hanging with my dad and playing on our phones and shooting the bull. We watched the TV that I got as a gift a couple years ago and he has a nice sound system connected to it so it makes watching Nascar a very fun thing to do. I am thankful to be born in America and to be healthy so I can go some place with electricity to watch some Nascar...it is a thunderous good time. I was able to walk on the treadmill some and work on my Triceps and my chest. I have to stay humble and keep working. I am thankful for America!

Saturday

On Thursday I was a bit nervous looking forward for the weekend. I was nervous for Sporting KC and I was nervous that they were going to suck and that Kris and his ladyfriend were going to come over here and I was just going have a bad time watching the game. That is what sucks with sports is when your team plays crappy it can be hard to still take it in stride. I am a Fan of my sports team. That is short for FANATIC. Anyway I knew in my heart that I can't control sports events and I should enjoy the ride. It was a great day in sports. Penguins won. Cryle Bush won, SKC looked good, KU-MU won. All around great day. Taca Beiler looked great for SKC. Very good finisher. Something Sporting KC has lacked. Zusi played awesome, Sapong was good, Neilson was good, Convey was ok, Meyers-Besler-Collin played like poo poo.

Delightful and Sinful result.

Sporting KC sucked early on, but came through second half. Zusi looked awesome...so did the new striker Beiler. Wow he had some good things going. KU won their game..Royals are undefeated in spring ball. Looking good KC. On a workout note I was able to walk a bit this morning and I was able to do some stair stepping action. It was good. On Friday I went out with K it wasn't very fun and I left early, but today was much better.

friday pump

Fun weekend ahead. Hanging out with k. I am currently doing leg day. Which it sucks balls. That means it must be growing my legs into a big hairy veiney mes

productive first part of the day

I was able to get some letters mailed and a check cashed. Trying to get all my stuff done so I will be reading to watch Sporting KC tomorrow without things needing to be done!