Hells Itch and sporting KC

Today was alright. I didn't sleep well because of the massive sunburn. I woke up and went for a walk and thought about how it would be nice to be lean. I have been trying to eat smaller meals lately to really keep my energy up and from not having that horrible full feeling. I went with Jason to black dog and Matt met up with me to go to the sportingkc game. Sporting KC played well with an awesome game by Kei Kamara. Soony Saad had a nice game at winger so we shall see more of him I think. Bieler added a goal and Kamara had 2 show stopping goals and a nice play on defense. All and all I am happy with Sporting KC's preformance and a win is the most important thing. After the game I started to get Hells Itch due to my dumbass sunburn. Basicly it sucked...I unbuttoned my shirt to start rubbing my sunburn because it felt like someone was taking a hot press to my entire body. So I let loose my button down and got some air on my belly fat and when I got to the jeep I got some AC working. I hope I never get sunburned like this again. I am an idiot and I misread how bad sunburns hurt. I remember getting burned as a kid and when I was in college but it seemed to only hurt when you rubbed it, I don't recall it ever just burning all the time. Lessoned learned though. I am going back to wearing a shirt at all times and using Sunscrean on my exposed parts.

Sunburned all to hell

I have been red several times this summer, but like everything I do...I cross the line and I am burned to shit. The only thing I can say is atleast it isn't bad enough that is making me sick, it just hurts like eight bitches on a bitch boat. I never got sunburnned at all through my late twenties because I was always working. I got sunburned as hell in 99' because of our senior trips and it seemed like I was too drunk to apply sunblock. Anyway it seems like the situation is alright and it's my damn legs and knees that are burned the most.

I got this job at this blood place. I am staffing nurses for events and scheduling nurses for events. It sounds like what I was doing at farmers only trying to get nurses in certain places. If I do well I can help nurses catch some blood problems and save lives. I hope this makes me feel motivated to get up and work my ass off. I already know the challenges I am going to have is boredom and blahness. Hopefully I can work on getting sleep and really doing well at this job. Why I didn't do well at other jobs was it was boring and I was always tired. I can manage those I think better so I can keep getting skills and keep pushing my work ethic. I sure enjoyed my time off work though. Really I made lots of video blogs, I got some sun, read Eckhart Tolle, went to a bunch of alcohol meetings, helped lots of alcoholics, played guitar and bass. I played lots of guitar. I noticed the other day how strong my hand has been from playing 30 minutes a day. I am able to fret the guitar better than I ever have. I guess with practice your chops really do get better.

I saw 3 of the girls I connect with and that I am attacted to tonight, they don't like me back, and I guess I am ok with that. It has only taken 20 years to get to the point where I am just ok with the girl situation. I also am too frickin sunburned to focus on anything other than the fact of how sunburned I am.


I am pleased with the way my powder blue button up shirt looked with the Cadet hat that I wore. I also had white loafers and khaki shorts. I must say that outfit was very nice. After having this cadet hat for awhile I really like wearing it with solid colored shirts.

Helping people is hard.

Raymond told me that everyone deserves a relief from being lonely. There are several people in situations that make it difficult for people to spend time with them. I try to spend time with these people because I feel like it is the right thing to do. Now this is a tough thing about donating your time/money/energy on things...is that people places and things still don't go the way you want them to be. It is all good. I feel some relief knowing that I am doing my best to make the world alittle easier on someone. I have another interview today with a health and wellness company. It sounds like it would be good so I asked people to pray for me and I prepared as much as possible. Sometimes it is embarrassing to ask people to pray for you, but I am willing to whatever to be successful. One of my friends has a bunch of dates lined up and I haven't felt the need to line up dates as of late. My day has been wake up/apply for jobs/go to meetings/go to black dog/go to more meetings/help alcoholics. I also read Eckhart Tolle and watch motivational videos a whole bunch.


Things to say to start conversations with chicks at the pool.

"Is it always crazy here?"
"Is it always this quiet here?"
"did you get in the pool yet?"
"How is the pool? The temp cold?"

I like to ask "Did you get into the pool yet?" right when people get to the pool.

Giving credit to myself

I worked out today. I hung out with jason. I talked about some issues (WTF?) I am practicing patience and right now I feel good. I feel good most days now of course because I don't have a job. I am sure things are going to get alittle bit hairy once I get a job, but I am looking forward to the challenge. I already have challenging things in my life. I am ready to start getting paid again for working with people and situations that challenge me.

Skylar brothers and others...

Today was a wierd day. I woke up and shoved my mouth full of fruit to calm my nerves a bit. I had an interview and I had to drive to get there. Those two things put together can get me worked up. Thanks to me having a full belly of fruit I focused more on "Why the fuck did I eat so much God Damned fruit" than I did on the nerve racking day of interview and testing. The interview was pretty basic and I have another one on Thursday. It seems like it is a pretty good job and that I can handle the job. I am sure it will go ok as long as I work and not dick around. After 3 hours of doing interview stuff I came home and fell asleep. I have no idea how I can be so unproductive sometimes, that is ok....Crabtree called me and I went over to his old house to visit him. Man he is a good man and his impressions are funny. I am glad I got to see him and I am a bit sad he isn't around because we could have epic poker nights. Jason and I then met at black dog, some girls shorts are so short.....I will leave it at that. I have a pretty standard alcoholic story later that night, my name gets put on a list to take people to get help...and that can turn out bizzare to say the least. It was all good though, I don't do much to help this world, but the one thing I can do is if a person wants help to quit drinking I can point them in the right direction. Everything else is good....I got told tonight that the first year after drinking you are still acting drunk...the second year is like the worst hangover ever...and the third year it starts to even out, and I really feel pretty good and calm. I noticed tonight how much it helps me to really practice on just letting people be themselves. People talk non-stop and I don't have to say anything. Lots of times I have the most influence by not saying a world and just providing a solid inner game....inner peace...whatever you want to call it. I have lots of peace knowing that I am just one small dude who can open a door here, say hi to a person there, and that I don't have lots riding on my shoulders every day. Just do the next right thing and everything will take care of itself.


Woman are flakey btw. I could write stories how to react to this, but I think girls don't lie that much, they just say stuff in the heat of the moment that they believe, but then their emotions change and they don't feel that way anymore so they flake out. I don't hate the ladies. They got bullshit going on like the rest of them.

Lenexa BBQ. OAR. Royals game.

Jason and I set out to go to the Lenexa BBQ. It was hot and a bit boring. I saw V and Birdman there which was random. We walked around and left. I then went to see OAR. It was a perfect night out and I am glad I went. They played for awhile and sounded good. Almost too good. Maybe recorded? Saturday I jammed with a new guy and it went well. Working with a band is definately alot of work. I am getting better at bass and I have to practice patience with the dudes because they aren't the easiest to get along with. I am getting better and I really pray a bunch. On Sunday I went to the Royals game and it was hot as hell. We stayed theentire game and the Royals won thanks to a boneheaded error on the SS of the white sox. I then finished up the weekend at black dog hanging out with friends.

Starting to read David Ramsey's books.

I am a huge fan of Tony Robbins, Eckhart Tolle, and I have been interested in David Ramsey's books for awhile of now. I know there is some pain involved when taking a look at money spent. The problem is always in the mirror it seems for me haha. Anyway...if you live like no one else now...you can live like no one else later. I am thankful I atleast don't have student loans today, althought that might change in the future if I go back to school.

Feel free to make a mistake

Wow...so today a lady called me up from a company and I told her I wasn't interested. I thought she was from a different company and I had to call her back. I felt like an idiot, but it was an honest mistake and we all got a good laugh out of it. Today I worked hard on the stationary bike. I like the bike because I can get a nice breeze going and it is easier on my knees. You get out of life what you put into it and I am getting so much character building out of the stationary bike it is awesome!!! Royals lost yesterday which is a bummer. Need more hitting some how and some way. I dropped 4 shirts off to get pressed today along with my brooks brothers pants. That was a big step because my shirts are wrinkled as hell. Everything else is going well. Just trying to put hours in on working out and getting better at applying for jobs.

Effort and persistance

I always have to look at my effort and my persistance in life. I am trying to stick with this band I am playing with and stick to charity work. I am also trying to put day in and day out effort and persistance in lifting weights and working out. You have to things 10,000 to be a master of things.

putting effort into working out.

Working out is such a mind game. I have to remember the hardest part of anything is just getting going. Then it becomes easier. I just have to get to the gym or get to the treadmill and it becomes easier. Listening to music helps with the boredom. Also writing blogs helps with not bored/eating.

Monday

Monday was pretty productive. I really wanted to clean the place and try to do some productive things. I applied for some jobs. (One with Geico haha). I cleaned the apartment. I rode the bike at the apartment complex office. I lifted some weights. I got some banannas and some smart one dinners. I overall had a pretty good day. Mike called me and wanted to jam, but I am not in the mood today. I went to see some old people at the sober house. That was probably my highlight of the day. They aren't so old they don't know who they are, but they are old enough to give me a sense of how small my problems really are. I am bored right now and I don't want to eat that is why I am blogging this out. I also cleaned my jeep today and cleaned the cooler out in the jeep.

Fathers Day

Fathers day went well. We went out to eat and watched Man Of Steel with my dad and family. My dad is a man of few words especially when my sister and I are around talking about our lives. My dad is the best dad ever and I gave him a card to explain that to him in english. The weekend was filled with lots of fun times. Byrdman, Jason, and I went out. We had laughs at the black dog. We also hung out at the pool. There was even some tennis being played. It was hours and hours of fun. It was nice for Byrdman to hang out all day because that is a rare thing these days. I am still looking for a job, but I heard that a guy was going to be calling me soon. I don't know why everything takes forever, but I guess everything happens when it is supposed too. Atleast that is what I read on a fortune cookie back in Springfield. My lucky numbers were 3-4-5-6-7 btw on that same fortune cookie.

The band I am in are working to get our song on the internet. I am excited just because I had to overcome lots of crap just to stick with it this long. My chops aren't very good, but I have had more time to play as of late, so I am probably the best that I will ever be at guitar at this moment. I really missed having the time and energy to play guitar, but it is nice to take advantage of the extra time to jam and play.

Summer is going well.

Summer is going well. Kurtis, Jason, Adam, Byrdman, Kris, Bridey, and some others have all been hanging out. It seems like we are all doing well. Kurtis and I go out and do lots of talking to people and lots of joke stacking. Or Joke riffing. It has been very fun. Rob has been out and he is cool as well. Yesterday I sat down with Rob with two beautiful girls. Like very attractive. Rob is a big guy and girls love to look him. I think girls check him out more than I have ever seen. Anyway the girl I got matched up was not what I like in a girl, but she was very nice. I went from thinking she was aweful to ok...I can see why she is so ADD. It was a fun night and it is nice to have a group of guys that worked out having fun so we can go out and have adventures.

Doing what it takes to get the job done.

Sometimes swallowing your pride is what it takes to work together and get the job done. For me I really have to get rid of the ego and focus on getting better or moving forward to get thejob done.

June 5th

Today I had an interview. It went well and I overcame the weather and other problems to get there. I don't know how it will turn out, but I did well for myself. The Penguins are playing like crap and I hope they can turn it around. The Royals are pretty much done, which is a bummer....NFL kick off is coming soon.

This week in general was pretty fun. Jason, "The Byrdman" and I had a great time on Saturday. The sayings and the crap we got into reminded me of the days when I would go down to the lake with the guys. It is nice to have an adventure. I was really tired on Sunday and so was Jason. We stayed up very late. Nascar is in Iowa this weekend. I don't think I will go, but it would sure be fun to do so.

I have been playing Tiger Woods golf for Xbox360. It was pretty much blah at first, but it really was fun once you get going. I always play Fifa and this CAPCOM FAVORITES video game. I have also been playing lots of guitar and recording it with my phone. When I play it back it is fun to play along to or make a solo out of.

Kurtis and I hung out on Tuesday at the Black Dog. It was boring, but it was an alright night. I like to spend as much time outside in the good weather with good friends as possible.

lifting today

I am doing chest and triceps today. I am going easy on myself as any lifting I do right now is fine by me. Just trying to work through some sets.