10/19/2017

yEST Yesterday I slapped into a rack at work. There wasn't any damage but I was shook up. I am pretty sick of work and life in general. I want to retire someday and I want an g-body cutlass surpssurpreme so I will go back to work tomorrow. I just have to make sure I try my best so it will at-least save me from regretting something. Shit has always been fucked up but I can't really remember a time that I was regretful. The Sporting KC game was fun on Sunday. I ate lots of BBQ. It ended in a 0-0 but I had the fun. I had a good day Wednesday. Work is fucked but I had a good time playing Project Cars 2. My wheel for xbox one and ps4 is good. I wrecked the shit out of my truck in iracing and my safety rating probably went down, but that is ok. I spent a shitload of money on wheel, tv and good headphones. It was nice to play and enjoy playing.

Thursday

Thursday I went to AA and I gave 4 dollars. They need to keep the lights and heat on. I won 4 dollars on the lottery show me cash. Penguins lost yesterday in overtime to the blues. Fuck the blues and fuck st. louis...The rapper nelly is pretty good though. My boss is off the next two days which feels like a breather. Everyone has been in a bit of a better mood at work which is nice. I am saving my money for ufc this weekend. I have no idea who is fighting but eating doritos and watching people choke each other out is what I am here.

Tuesday

Tuesday I woke up in a pretty shitty mood. I think 3 out of 10 would be how I felt. I didn't go work out because that sounded shitty at the time. I played video games. I like to imagine that I am one man team. We race the 32' coupe legends car. I raced a dirt track and took second. There was only 2 people racing though haha. I went to work and the main this is I fucked up on the piece list. I grabbed 8905 instead of 8906 a easy mistake to make. I thought I had made all the mistakes. The good news is I canceled those and I fixed it. Back in the day shit was just left for brad to deal with. Brad is the 3rd shift production guy and he is a whale of a good worker. People didn't bitch me out and I just worked my way through the day. I did long piece lists which makes it feel like I didn't do shit. I am supposed to build batches and everyone grades each other on how many batches you get done and when I only get 2 or 3 it fucking sucks. I am ok with it. Tomorrow I am just going to learn from my mistakes. I have to re up my stratera which will help me focus more. I take two medcines. 1 welbutrin for depressin and stratera for ADD and Stratera is fucking expensive as fuck. As long as I take my medicine and work as hard as I can I guess I can't really control people places or things or outcomes. I am also needing to get back to doing something for an hour that I am not in the mood to do. I have just been slacking on doing the things that need to be done when I am not in the mood. As an adult and a vision for myself. I want to wake up and make my bed have nice tighty shit clean care good work at work then come home eat well and work out and sleep and then have some fun playing video games. Unfortunately or fortunately I have depression which zaps my mood and energy and interest and fucks everything up. I got hope though if I just do a little at the time I can get better overall. I pray for the people in vegas as well. I am so spoiled with everything at my figer tips. Movies, games, hot and cold water. Internet books sports. Hockey. I can eat what food I want. The list goes on and on and sometimes I have to think about how much freedom I have. Check myself before I wreck myself.

Monday People killed in vegas

I woke up way too early today only to find out about some idiot shooting people at a country concert. Fucking sickning. I went back to sleep. I really felt like shit then blood all over the news, then Tom Petty died, then Robert Yates died. Just a shitty day and my own real goal...a goal that I attained is not get injured at work and make it through work. I went walking after work. Finally I felt a bit better. Yuck. I felt probably 3 out of 10 today. I also kept on thinking about a Shiny Cutless Olds. There is a guy with a red one here that I want. So maybe in a couple years.

Bowling

Last week my dad had a monster week bowling and this week I had a monster week bowling. I moved right and threw hard and extended out over the foul line. I don't like throw hard but I found a ok balance between throwing hard and not having my arm fall off.