05/28

This past week I was agitated because a girl that I was infatuated with is preggers and with another dude and that is unacceptable to me. EVERYONE SHOULD WORSHIP ME *sarcastic* I know that it is just my ego and my personality just getting butthurt. I did my best to acknowledge the pain and just trust the world is going to give me peace if I don't try to run everything. Today is Thursday and I am glad that I had a short week. Yesterday I felt 7 out of 10 today I feel 7 out of 10. Good enough to blog. It takes me 6 out of 10 to work and play video games. 5 out of 10 to go to work and bullshit around. anything 3-5 it is just work and sleep and 1 or 2 out of 10 is either a half day of work and sleep or no work and just bed all day.

05/26/20 memorial day weekend

Thanks to the people who died for this country I can sit around on my fat ass and play video games all weekend. One thing I learned is that yes sometimes ignoring things or people that bother you is the right move, but if someone or something is eating your brain you got to address it and acknowledge it and maybe try to come to a resolution. Thankfully I am not famous or I am not that important that I have haters. I don't have to deal with too many people going against me because no one gives a fuck what I think for the most part! This weekend I was lucky to be entertained by video games. I spent 2 grand on racing simulator shit so I spent as much time with the 3 computers I bought and then some on xbox and some on ps4. I was able to play some wreckfest with my buddy EA from work and that was probably the highlight of the weekend. I usually feel like shit during the weekends so I don't want to fuck with people especially work people. Especially work people that have to put up with me umm being spacey all the time at work. Anyway I feel blessed that I was entertained and pretty good all weekend. People in the Ozarks are getting DUI's and Corona virus and I am going to be at 3 am which is good for me.