Living Life on lifes terms

People places and things...Wow they sure can do things I don't want them to do. People can make me upset and let me down, places can underwelm me...and things. Dogs can die people can die..Basically life is how you react to all of these things. My parents put down their dog today and it was very sad. I can't take away someones grief and I loved the dog as well. I have a hard time celebrating the lives of people when they are gone. I want to wallow in my sorrow, but that just makes me bring other people down. So I prayed very hard today. I just have faith that I don't know the whole story. What I can see and hear is just a fraction of the big picture. The prayer I always try to say is "God direct my thinking" when I do that it helps me focus on what I have and how I can help. I was listening to Tony Robbins and he talked about how he went to a morgue and he saw a person dead that was his age. He was just like...I have no problems compared to that person. Tony Robbins also loves to talk about taking problems and turning them into chances to improve..or a chance to reflect...or a chance to grow. One of my other friends had a freak out today. I know he feels like crap tonight, but I love him and I told him that he is doing good. I have had my freak outs-my flip outs-my over reactions. I liked to think I am matured enough to not over-ract anymore, but you never know. For me I call my someone when I am freaking out because I know myself and I know that I can take a problem and do something dumb like wreck my jeep over it or punch a wall. I ain't got time for that. So I have some praying to do and yes the Royals suck balls, but tonight I am going to focus on the fact my family is alive and healthy, that I have a decent relationship with them, and the fact that I can ask God to direct my thinking so I can help others.

Cards win...Baltimore wins..

Matt Holiday parked one as St. Louis won. Baltimore Wierdlooking Birds won on a Chris Davis home run. Tampa Bay lost with David Price on the mound which doesn't happen often. Matt Wieters also went deep for Baltimore. He is a switch hitting bad boy catcher. He hit one that went over some fencing they had set up out in the outfield.

I like listening to other baseball games...that is what I did with my Tuesday night. Listened to baseball games and I played some FIFA 2013. I got a dvd copy of "The Hobbit" in the mail. I watched a couple minutes of it and there was already a dragon in it.

weights

Upright rows and shoulder presses at the gym. The guy working is blasting link in park.

Hosmer looked ok yesterday.

Not good or bad. That is a good sign

rough time with my diet

I have felt not great lately which leads me to eat sugar and crap just trying to get by. I did eat veggies instead of fries on Friday and I continue to lift weights. I have it in my mind that I am going to start to pay the price and eat better again one day. I know it takes sacrifice, effort, and it character builds yourself. So that is where I am at right now. I am still jiggle way too much and I know if I can just pay the price I could get down to 180 or so, but right now I am just not at that point to make that sacrifice. It is in my mind that it is something I will work towards in the future. I know without my health I can't do the things I love. I have to give it up to my family though we are healthy enough to go to a crap ton of events.

Darn

The Royals lost, but I thought they looked good. It makes tomorrows game important. If they come back to the K 1-5 or some horse crap Yost and Dayton will be on the hot seat. I am planning on going to some games this year, but I am remembering why I don't go past June or so. It is because the game doesn't matter. Most of Sporting KC's games matter especially down the stretch. They are in contention for the supporters shield, the U.S. Open cup.. or Top of the Table..or the playoffs. Like I said though I will be positive until they are 15 games back or so. Luckily they have some pitching this year and momentum is only as good as your next starting pitcher.

I was able to get to the gym today to do triceps and chest. I skipped a day yesterday to focus on just using energy to enjoy easter, so I am going to try to get backed to Chest-Triceps day 1 Shoulders day 2 Biceps back day 3 legs day 4 then day off. I did a good job getting to the gym and using dumb bells today.

opening day

Lets go Royals.