Saturday and Sunday

Saturday I went for a walk and I did laundry. I went shopping for food and played poker. I had lots of laughs with the guys playing poker. Sporting KC won and the Royals lost. On Sunday I was with Andrea and we went and visited my parents. I got my TV and soundbar. I am trying to get a room that can be comfortable for me at Andrea's because I get in a bad mood because I have no toys for me to play with and Andrea puts me to work. We got a giant shake at Winsteads and it was very good and very large. They sang a song or something.

I went home because I really want to focus on getting some sleep. I have an important week of training and to help my peace of mind I want to make sure I have my clothes ready, my alarm ready, my mind ready. I want to make sure I get prepared as much as I can to learn and be of service. My goals are to be on time and really do everything I can to pay attention, ask questions when I need to and be prepared. I hate it when I come away from training feeling like I could have done more to learn.

I felt good most of the weekend because life is good. My meds seem to be working, Andrea has gotten better with her mind making it easier on my life, my parents made it safe back from the ocean, and I get along with my roomates.

Thursday

Thursday was O.K. I was rated 6th still in my department. I expect to drop to mid-pack because I had to close some accounts. I have good first call resolution and good sales. I am working hard. My approach is to take it one day at a time. Next week I am going to really have to worry about one day at a time. I have training which I have to be on my game to really pay attention. Tomorrow is pay day or as I like to be called "Being sorely dissapointed day" I am glad I was able to meet with Raymond today. He brightens my day and I have gotten used to meeting him without so much anxiety. He loves God. He always trys to be better and more loving. I hope I am calm and I am able to help people like he does one day. I know that me quitting drinking and me hitting A.A. really hard has helped people. I have been counting calories as of late and it has helped me from eating so much that I make myself sick. It is hard to not snack and I try to keep myself busy by doing small cleaning or reading. I have been eating candy, but counting calories. Anyway the last couple months I know Byrdman said I lost weight and I had one comment from Adam that I lost weight, so I know if I plan my meals out and work out and don't just give up I can keep my weight decent. I know I get treated with my respect if I am in range of my ideal weight. I was able to log into SoberRecovery.com today and say some words about Lexipro. Lexipro has helped me wake up and not have anxiety. I hope my mom and dad are having fun on their cruise. I know how hard they worked. I know my mom would be up late grading papers and then be up to early to take me to school. I loved waffles and sportscenter when I was young. I had some issues with food growing up eating until I was sick, so I am glad that I atleast am able to grow with not eating until I am sick now.


Gratitude List. I am Grateful for Andrea she is fun and she provides shelter and doesn't yell at me when I forget the fan on. Also she buys me delicious chicken and clothes.

I am grateful for my parents. They provided me money and shelter and I was ungrateful growing up, but I always had a nintindo and super nintindo to play. Even a playstation. and Computers. I always had the best things and I have great memories of the cool toys growing up.

I am grateful for A.A. When I decided to stop partying I had a place to go with a plan and lifestyle set out that I could follow that kept me from relapsing.

I am grateful for mp3's about meeting girls and improving yourself. Tony Robbins, David deangelo, Zig Ziggler they had great shows and tapes about improving my mind. It gave me hope and it provided me so much happiness listening to how pumped up those people got about improving themselves.

I am grateful for Kurtis, we went out and we met people, we got rejected, we learned how to handle rejection. Kurtins and I went deep into Social Game and how to vibe with cool people in social sitations. I suck with people but I strive every day to treat people with respect, be aware of peoples feelings, and help people.

I am grateful for God, Jesus, and all the people who serve others. I am grateful for the U.S.A. my grandparents, hot showers, hot food, long john silvers, teachers, missouri western, sporting kc, Royals, Chiefs, Mavericks, Penguins, Pacers, Nascar, Dale Earnhardt j.r.

I am grateful for Byrdman. He is always cool to everyone and easy going. He is a great person and with is new kid he has grown lots. I actually saw the growth the way he was describing dogs. His brother is also a great man who has trudged a tough road to manhood.

I am grateful for a bed to sleep in. The pope sleeps on the floor once a week to stay humble. I am cool with sleeping in my bed.

Thursday

Thursday ment it was time to visit Raymond and talk about how selfish I am. He talked about how awesome his time at the lake was during the holiday. I talked about Salvador Perez's big 3 run homerun yesterday. DRAMA. Sporting KC's goalie ruined his hand. I have my doubts that SKC will get into the playoffs this year. They really need Besler, Zusi, and the backup goal keeper to do some work down the stretch.

Yesterday I got a peek at this months stats. I figured I would be mid-pack at best, but I was 5th overall. I have been selling decently and my ability to have people taken care of the first time they call has paid dividends. I had to close an account yesterday which will drop me down. I have training next week and I need to be on my game to be able to learn more things overall I have been happy and blessed to be out of jail and to be able to hold a job for more than a month. I strive to work hard and be patient with people.

Wednesday

Yesterday I went to work. I got off early so I went to Andrea's. We watched The Office. The dog ran away and Andrea chased K-So down. I watched some soccer and went to sleep. I didn't drink which is cool. I am glad I don't have Jail issues today. I just read an article that 95 percent of the males on earth are in jail. Whew...glad I am not that 95 percent! I also have running water! That is awesome!

Tuesday

I woke up and went for a walk. I went to the library there were tons of kinds there. Nothing interested me. I played video poker on my phone and got a straight flush which is rare. Getting ready to go to work. Thankful for clothes to cover my body and I am grateful I don't live in a place where I could be attached by wild animals. Thankful to not be in jail today and thankful for no storm damage from the storms yesterday.

Sunday

Sunday Andrea and I went to an AA meeting. There is no better and powerful way for us to make ourselves better than to go to an AA meeting and tell how we are handling life without boozing it up. After that Molly and Laura took me to sporting kc game. Dom Dwyer was beasting and got a yellow card after taking a self picture scoring a goal. I made an MS paint picture to commemorate the event. I uploaded a picture of myself water skiing. Sporting KC tied and it was very hot out. I ate fried pickles and a cobb salad from Hooters. I stayed under 2000 calories for the day. At night Andrea and I enjoyed playing video games and we enjoyed her deck that she worked so hard to get built. Then the chickens came over and pooped all over my jeep.

Monday I can already feel myself crashing because I felt good most of yesterday. I know this is what Mondays do to people and I try to keep a good attitude about it. After having a high yesterday of feeling good and screaming and laughing at the Sporting KC game I know Mondays emotions are going to be way lower than that.

July 5th

Woke up grateful that I kept my body in decent enough shape to go skiing yesterday. There are lots of people eating candy right now sitting on their behind just trying to scrape by not able to go water skiing. So thank you "Past me!"