tuesday

Tuesday I was able to play video games and go for a walk. It is nice not to be too fat and gross. I made some jokes on Facebook. I am apart of a team that is always #1 at work. I am trying to find joy in that. At worst at least we aren't bad. I wad ranked 22/88 which is better than I thought. Being in the top 50% is ok by me. I had to close an account yesterday which I think will hurt badly but I did all I could do. The game was evening up the score. I am not the best person at work and not the worst so being in the top 10 fpt so long I was bound to have luck to the other way. I will remain positive. Keep a smile on my face and grateful I am above ground today.

work and sales

The first thing I did when I got to work today was ask my boss and co-workers what I can do to be better. I have one sale this month and that is a sure way to be laid off. I am now taking the help and putting it to use. My way of selling wasn't working and it is important for growth as a salesman to grow and to drop the ego and take advice from those who are selling. I vow to always seek out sales advice and grow my sales game. My boss was quick to help because he is excited to help people who are thirsty to grow their sales game. We have a plan of attract to get.me on the right track to sell. I am grateful for the knowledge that I have to drop my ego and do what successful people do.

me being chewed out.

All week at work I was being talked down to at work, I prepare for this by asking God for patience and having empathy. I got talked down to over text message because I spilled lasange on the floor. So Jason is my brother, I made sure to say I am sorry and I would do my best to make this better. Make no bones about it, I come home to a home that looks good and is decorated. So I wanted to make sure Jason knows how much I love him. Andrea gets on my case about lots of stuff...from WHERE IS YOUR HAT?!?!? YOU NEED A BETTER JOB!!! YOU ARE GOING TO FAST??!!! Cody got on me for not going many meetings.
Sunday I woke up and Andrea wanted to go to dollar tree and oak park mall, I don't really enjoy both of those. We went to cheddars and I finally get comfortable after a long week of being chewed out and Andrea did her thing where she needs to move 3 times before she gets comfortable. I told her I really hate her sometimes. She got mad at me. I need to work on not saying stuff like that. I went home and watched the Royals and Sporting KC and that was awesome because it let me have some time away from work, camping, Andrea, I got things squared out with Jason. The Royals did awesome, Sporting KC didn't do awesome. Andrea called later and she and I agreed I need to not say awful stuff at Cheddars and I went to sleep. Whew.

Friday and the weekend.

Friday I got to talk to one of my comedian friends. She is a machine gun of opinions and of randomness. It was a breathe of fresh air to have someone just shout out as many random things as possible and I got a hardy laugh at some of it. Friday I was pretty warn out. I haven't been selling at work and I will reach out to a supervisor and ask what can I do to get better. I have been through this before a million times, lots of times when I was flunking a class and I needed to pull out a C. So I am o.k. with that because I am putting in thoughts and actions how to get better. Saturday I woke up and just was pretty lame from the week of work. I put together some things and Andrea came over to pack for camping. I was grateful I had put in so much work preparing for camping. I studied how to change tires, I had a map where we were going, I put on Sunscreen. I knew from being a Cub Scout how much to be ready. The end event is I am sitting here today with little to no bug bites, not sunburn, I have my cell phone, jeep, and the tent was not peed into once!

Camping..camping was a bit rough for me because I had been involved in a long week of work. I put together all I could to prepare for the camping trip. I was ready to sit on my but and pound diet cokes until I took a nap. We got there and Andrea wanted to move the food by the other food and she wanted to swim and do other things. I was like...the whole point of camping is to do nothing. To her credit she let me relax a bit until I got bored and then we went swimming. As a joke I slathered myself in sunscreen and we swam out and enjoyed the lake. The beach had a float rope around it and we were resting our arms on it enjoying the view. We swam back and watched some of our friends play volleyball. Cody, Peter, and Christian were the main people I knew from the event. They are hard core members of sobriety. Cody has been friend through sobriety and we can always talk about everything. Sarah his girlfriend is funny and I have known her for 4 years. Anyway I was hungry and we went over and this White Trash guy in a large truck and a camper starts cussing us out. It was a long story, but he went on his way. We ate and the food was delicious. The sun went down and we talked about sobriety and it was pretty magical with the stars and reflection on how I could be partying and not asking for help all the time and making people around me miserable, instead I have been dropping my ego asking for help and even though it doesn't go so well I know I am doing better than some out there.

I woke up at 3:30 am camping and I could feel that it was going to rain hard. We packed up our stuff and we left. It was a good idea. We got back to lenexa safe and I took a shower. The post camp shower was nothing short of glorious.

friday.

It is Friday. I have prepared all week for this camping vacation. I am sure it will be awesome. It will make all the hard work worthwhile. Eating Naches and drinking pop. Enjoying peoples company. Loud music. Should be an awesome time and I a glad I work so hard to enjoy expensive get away like this.

Thursday

Thursday I woke up I did some walking. I played video games. I went over to raymonds work and house and got my list of what we are getting for the AA picnic. I am going to try to go camping this weekend. Pretty excited to see Cody V and some other friends. Work is going good. Have to have patience and empathy for people. Also have to not take anything personal. I have been praying for the hungry, and for the confused, and the scared lately. Anything to get me thinking not of myself is a good thing. I am often too wrapped up in myself. And by often I mean all the time. Go Royals. MLS won the all star game. Germans are bitter. The End.

Wednesday

Well I woke up. The Royals win yesterday sure shocked the house. I keep on thinking it was a dream Nori Aoki hit a grand slam. I will celebrate this royals win by drinking water out of solo cup. MmmMMmmMMmMMm Delicious. Sporting KC continues to be a Factory of Awesome. The MLS All-Star game is tonight. That will surely bring thrills and excitement. Andrea keeps grinding away at the sims. Evidently she has quit her job in the sims and is forcing me to go to work while she develops her art skills in the game. You know I have a good job when I am wearing suspenders.