complete weirdness

Weird week. Get some bonus money. Fall and hurt myself. I lose my new phone, find the new phone in the random spot in my jeep. My drivers side window was busted out. Yesterday I was going to go out but Karena slept because that is what she does. I went out to eat and met up with Jackie and Sunni. I am not sure if there is an I or not in Sunni. Anyway that was cool. We played music bingo and I knew most of the pop songs. I also met a woman named Kim from kentucky that talked about guzzling mountain dew. So I wasn't upset about the whole day because I know life is "Just a daring adventure" or nothing at all /Helen Keller. The you go. I just ended a blog with a hellen keller quote. Sometimes when you are out you have to lie to yourself or at work you have to lie to your self. When I am selling I am constantly saying "You have nothing to lose. You come into this world naked and leave with a suit on if you are lucky. Everything between there is just memories and providing emotions to others. I think it is funny as well there is a saying when you are single "The universe is just preparing a soulmate for me and I need to patiently wait" I have found if I treat people like "this one could be my soulmate. It is a bunch of b.s. but it is a frame of mind that gets me talking.

I woke up today

Bought some food that is actually good for me. AWESOME JOB RAY FOR TAKING MASSIVE POSITIVE ACTIONS INSTEAD OF JUST EATING SLUDGE. Talked over my vblog yesterday with my friend Phil. I am going to do shorter vlogs.

Up and down day

Yesterday started awesome. I got my bonus for hard work in december. 200 dollars. I went and bought a new phone with that money. A new phone needed to be done. I couldn't run the programs jason and adam run because my phone is so old I am pretty sure I saw jesus flipping it out at the last supper. So yay...Went to ATT and then to Best Buy Then back to ATT. I won't get into the dumbassery that happened at Best Buy. Got the phone started playing with it. It was good. I went to work. I worked with my friend Glenn on having more peace. I had a peaceful day. God is truly a river that if he runs through you he washes away the annoyances of life. I had a good night until 9 and I got cranky. I have made it a point of going out everyday to make new connections to improve chances on a new BAE or just learn more. I met Harly and Abby the fitness instructor yesterday. Success! Always going out and improving social skills or courage to talk to people is important. Walking back to the jeep i slipped on nice and fell on my left shoulder and elbow. It felt like someone took a shotgun and put it point blank on my elbow and pulled the trigger. After dry heaving for awhile I went to the car and took some PM medicine and struggled through the night with the pain. I was thankful i didn't bust my head or my tailbone those hurt worse. Today the arm feels a bit better and I knew after I fell as long as I could move my fingers and squeeze I was probably good to go. IRONY IS I WAS WEARING NON SLIP Sketchers. My new phone didn't get broke either. SUCCESS! I went to work out today in a sling. It was tough but went o.k. I am typing good now so I should be alright for work. 100,000 dollars in one year!

Monday

Monday I woke up and called Raymond. I have anxiety, but it helps when I call him. I went to broadway cafe. I talked to some people and made them laugh. I know how I need to keep my guts to talk to people up. I came home and I made a video for facebook. It wasn't liked by anyone. That is fine. The videos are for me. I went to work. Glenn called me. Glenn is a good man and we have been talking trying to get our issues worked out. I am trying to get people to talk more about their issues so we can have solutions not problems. I got an E-mail from Andrea. She is still sober and is still doing good. I am so grateful I don't have to deal with her on a daily basis anymore. I do wish her rest of her days to be spent getting help and getting thought patterns that free her up to be a decent person. Karena and I still talk I know from listening to the art of charm podcast that woman are attracted to people who don't freely give them love. I am texting her but not over doing it. I know we are just friends, but just in case we aren't I am going by standard romantic protocol and being purposely aloof. I listened to Tony Robbins a-lot today. He helps me get passion about my day. He has a way to stir emotions in me that make me want to get out of bed and do things. There was along time I just didn't do anything but work. Now I wake up and start texting and calling people in AA so we can talk about issues and action to the issues. It has lead to a better life for me. I am grateful for mom and my dad for being together. I just read that even a bad marriage the kids turn out better than a divorce.

Sunday

I had to work today. Sometimes success can be a bummer. I love that it is a bummer. I know other people quit when things are hard. I woke up today and went to a coffee shop on broadway. I made it a point to get out of the house more. I called my friend Glenn. Glenn has been a gift from God. He listens to me go on and on about random things. Tomorrow I am going to make a video about digging the well before you need the water.

The Weekend

I woke up yesterday and decided to take massive action and sot in an AA meeting all day. I met a cute girl named Traci. I always have guts to talk to people because of my background in comedy.

Friday

Friday was weird. I saw my friend Kristen out when I was talking to ladies. I was able to chat it up. I am just starting to go out again and starting to try to get some good networking in.

I got a text from my friend Matt the engineer. I am really sad the way AA works sometimes. People get to hang out and not work the 12 steps and they end up dying of alcohol. I started calling people and sharing what I know and it seems that people respect it.

On new years day I had my glasses, wallet, keys, and cell phone in one place. I respect and appreciate being sober.

I got to buy my parents breakfast. I love them so much but often I feel just down and I am not able to do cool stuff. I was able to buy them breakfast and for that I am grateful.

I got accepted to the CEP program at work. That was cool. I worked myself to death trying to be the best person I could at work.

I have been working out more. I got fat when I was with Andrea. I don't regret that though. I think God wanted me to put all my energy and sacrifice my waistline to do whatever I could for her. I hope she is sober and growing.


Working out has been good. I am getting better at fifa. I have been watching more inspiring Youtube videos.