Investing

Well I strive not to be the guy who stands around talking crap then does nothing about it. I took all my knowledge I have right now and invested in an Ally C.D. I didn't have a thousand dollars that Snatcherguesa wanted me to invest. I feel weird, but that is o.k. I need to try different things and keep moving forward. I was able to make my car payment, I was able to make my credit card payment as well. I probably should have been more worried about paying my credit card off, but my gut instinct is telling me to build and craft the skill of investing now and get that ball rolling.

10/09/2016

This weekend saw various growth of mine. I read some of the Intelligent Investor. I did that as much as I could. I learned a bit bowling. Need to slow my ball speed down and let the ball do the work. Sunday I went to the AA picnic and I felt pretty good around people. I threw some corn hole bags. I then came home and lifted. I worked out my chest biceps and calves. I even used a spotter which is really getting after it. I then came home and made myself a shake. My legs are sore from the last squat session. Monday will be sqauts and triceps. I read a bit more on Sunday. Right now my brain is fried so I don't know exactly what I read. I did play Forza 4 and the Puegot was a car that I hate but I have to use it against the big boys like super cars. I played like 15 minutes of elder scrolls and 2 session of War Thunder. So not too much progress in my video game playing other than a nice gaming session with forza 4.

10/07/2016

Thursday I woke up and went to Sobriety and beyond. They needed someone to help with the public information chair. Basically you get voted a P.I. chair and you deliver pamphlets to places. I didn't get voted in but I asked to help because I have done it in the past in K.C. and I have some knowledge of how it works. A couple notes. It is really hard to devote just an hour to things like this a week. I know self-discipline and self sacrifice are good things. I especially kind of have knowledge of how to come up with ideas, how to cultivate ideas, how to journal and really take notes of what we got accomplished what we have to set out to do and have a time table. Every time I do something for A.A. it has a time constraint on it and you have to really come through with what you say you are going to do. I have learned over the years to be strong and tough and if I am not 100% sure I can come through in situations I just flat out tell people I can't do that because I am lazy or it is too difficult. Nothing wrong with that at all. It is called cultivation of boundary setting. Work went alright today. I totally suck at moving pallets around in small spaces. It takes all my focus not to crash into things. I did a good job looking at my runs and breaking apart my materials and that part went good. I just did a bad job trying to get into tight spaces, getting pallets down, loading and doing all that quickly. I also always need to work on building batches tighter and well fitting and building them faster. Repetition without the idea of getting better is stupid. I played a bit of Forza 4 today. I am looking foward to getting my logitech g29 wheel and maybe the setup around it and maybe even the shifter. Who knows. I tend to go overboard and spoil myself that is for sure. I played some farming simulator today as well. I just like harvesting crops even though it doesn't provide much progress to the game.

10/06/16

Today was Wednesday which means I drive down to see my sponsor Raymond. Basically I tell him all the thoughts and emotions that I am going through and we plan out how we can handle them so I don't resort to using drugs or alcohol to handle situations. Things have been going better as of late. I hope I can get some other mental health issues squared away. I am going to see if I have A.D.D. because all of my life I have struggled with focus. I often test high on intelligent tests, but I suck at grades and work. One thing leads to another so that is good. It was like first someone told me I have a drinking problem so I fix that, then I have an anxiety problem go on lexipro and some other sort of medicine then that doesn't work, get put on latuva, that sucked and was expensive. So then I get put on something in the middle along with depakote. Long story short my sleep is better these days. I used to wake up with high anxiety, I would drive to the gym with high anxiety, I would work out for a bit. Then I would crash. Up and down up and down. It wasn't pleasant. So it seems like things are getting better. I have made small strides at work. I can now effectively move pallets from the side. I need to work on looking through my run list and breaking up the starches while looking at lot numbers. Spacing them accordingly. I was able to lift a bit today. Hopefully I can get back to lifting at Planet fitness and in the garage. When it is a billion degrees at work I don't have the energy to get off work and lift more.

Tuesday

I woke up today and I wanted t get my dad'smoney's worth out of his planet fitness membership.I went out and I introduced myself to a girl named Katrina. I said my name is Raphael like the ninja turtle and she said my name is Katrina like the hurricane. It was pretty funny. I listened to bad religion and worked on the pull up machine. It was a good experience. Everytime I workout I try to gather knowledge and try to tweak the workout to have a better experience. At noon I went to an AA meeting. It was alright. I have t go to work earily today to have my health screening. I am worried that my blood pressure will be high and they won't give me my discount. But like many things in life it is out of my control. I have been doing better at work with focusing on tasks although I am still pretty slow. I am constantly playing show me cash. I have a feeling I might win. It may be a misguided emotion. But I am goin to follow it for now.

10/04/16

I didn't get much done at work today. That is a bummer. Stuff was in weird places. I was feeling frisky and entered our biggest loser challenge at work. It is 5 dollars and I think that it is cool that I am at-least signed up for it. I have a health screening tomorrow at 2:40 PM that should be fun. I got to watch Monday Night Football. I watched some of the replay of the Friday night dirt racing as well. Good times.

Bowling

We lost 3 games and won 1 game this week. My old baseball Josh beat the crap out of us. I really bowled bad and I need to slow down and when I play side to side I get wonky. When I played straight up I did better.