Thursday

Thursday I went to work and then I played bass and then I worked out. I noticed today that I was really focused at work. I really try focus on working and learning because I feel like I need to pay my dues at the new place, I need to be humble and work, and I need to really do what it takes so I can keep this job. I like the new job because it is in the same location at the last job and it involves most of the same problem solving and it really has become clear that I need to work hard and take advantage of chances to grow in my career. I have really been around business around so long that I have seen the way people cope with work and I find that it all about helping other people and letting people do their thing whatever that maybe. When I was younger it was all about me and that was a bad atttiude. Team/helping people/sacrifice is the way to really feel good about myself. Anyway I went down to black and gold to play guitar and we had a wierd time. There was another band setting up and playing techno music and they were all up in our business. The guys I play guitar with failed to learn any of the songs we set out to play, and the drummer still was on my ass to tune my bass, but overall I guess I am fine with just sitting there and playing non-sense. I can only show up and play bass and I can't control what the other people do. It seems to be more enjoyable with the drummer plays with one guitar player because it doesn't sound all crazy. So I am glad I went down there and was nice to everyone and tried to have fun. That is all I can do. I went to work out and while I was working out I watched the Royals game. It was enjoyable and I got home. I was thankful for the chance to work today. I was thankful to play bass. I was thankful to play bass guitar. The songs I have learned was mostly Nirvana. About a girl, all appoligies. Jesus don't want me for a sunbeam. I never thought I would be listening to Nirvana again after 23 years after not listening to them, but I listened to them over and over and over to learn the songs on my bass. I am getting better at knowing what it takes to learn songs. It takes time and effort. So that is it! Longer blog today, and that is because I have been doing alot of crap. Most people think in their minds that if they don't work their live will be fullfilling by just sitting on the beach, but I know I need have a balance of work/stress/excersize/prayer/friends/family/ to really feel good.

Weird day

Today I woke up and I had anxiety for what I was going to do after work. This was annoying because I haven't even started work and I am worried about what would happen after work. What I worry about and I have fear is being too tired to do anything fun and then having to get up and work again making the days suck. I know my fears are unfounded and I just have to do my best to break up my day into halves. Focus in on getting to work and working and staying present. Prepare and have your stuff for later, but deal with it when it gets there. So I fought myself all day to try to stay present and work. I made it to work and through work without stressing myself out too much. I get off work and I call my sister a couple times to see if she needs help moving. She doesn't answer. I am have some stress if I am supposed to go to lawrenc or not, so I just wait to talk to her, she never gets back to me. I go to the gym and I walk and listen to music..start to feel better, get home take a shower, play some bass, talk to my sister. I am going FRIDAY to help her move a couch. Ok so I guess the day ended up good and I am sure I can sleep tonight. I am not a fan of stressful days that don't even seem like they should be stressful, but I made it through. Royals won and I also am learning some bass parts for Nirvana. Work is going good it is wearing me out trying to really focus in on training and work. I get home from work and I like...ugh...brain is fried. Oh well.....it is more productive than sitting around the pool and I am sure the hard work will be rewarding (it always is).


btw worked triceps and went for a long walk on the treadmill.

Tuesday

Tuesday was fine. I went to work. Did good there. Came home and I tried to get one thing done. I tried to get laundry done. I was able to get that done. I was also able to pick up some food. Small tasks seem to take so much effort when I am putting lots of focus on work. So I was able to get food and do laundry. I went to black dog and it was hot out and I was in a bit of a pissy mood. Just tired and hot. I went to the gym and walked a mile and did some lat pull downs and some backwork. Nothing too much just grunting. I then came home and watched Chen/Herrara/Crow/Holland put on a clinic as they shut down the O's.

Sunday and Monday

Monday went well. Went to work, ate snacks, didn't pay attention to the Royals game. They done son! Training camp comes next week and football is here. SKC top of the table and about ready to play in the champions league. MLS All-Star game coming soon. Also a break from the heat. Floozies were cool over the weekend and so was that last minute SKC goal. Sandwiches and Nachos.

Friday and Saturday

Friday I got off work. Went to Lawrence to eat china buffet with my parents and sister and her boyfriend. It was good and I came home and surfed the net to late in the night. The next day I cleaned my jeep, went to the gym and rode the bike, walked, ate some random eggs, ate a turkey sandwhich. I also did some Laundry. Royals won the first game back after the all star break. They need to win about 7 more before I start watching closely again. Sporting KC plays tonight and it was awesome that Besler and AmpC were both on a cool show called mls36. Collin even replied to my tweet! Sweet day. Oh yeah it is very hot out right now.

Friday

First week of new work is in the books. The important thing is I made it to work and filled out my time slip. Getting paid is the most important thing in the world. I played guitar at a bar yesterday. It went crappy because we all listen to different music and we all never played together. I need to wear earplugs next week. Shout out to black and gold bar (a mizzou bar!) downtown.

Wednesday

Wednesday was pretty good. I woke up ate some eggs. I worked on contacting some of the state department of insurance to tell them to cancel my Licence as I am no longer adjusting in some states. I sent out some emails, went to work....trained all day. I made sure I jumped in and was the first one to call people and to do actual work. I asked questions and really tried my best to do well on the new job. I don't take my cell phone in and I don't surf the net. I am there do really grind and hustle. So that was good. I was rewarded by feeling good that I jumped in and worked right away. After work I met up with Raymond to plan a yearly picnic. Jason was there and we went to black dog. It was a fun night and I was really wired up. I went to the gym and I did the bike and worked my biceps. I am used to pushing myself really hard, but I decided to leave while I was feeling good so I could come home and get my bass and amp ready. We are playing at a bar tomorrow for band practice. I am sure it will be a mess, but atleast I have a group of guys that actually want to play. No matter what I enjoy being around some people who love to talk music. Even if it is about Daughtry.