Friday and Saturday

Thursday the Royals were handed a victory. Friday they killed the Blue Jays. I hope they play better to at-least get me to football season. Saturday was somewhat productive. I deposited money, I refilled prescription, I blogged. I am going to finish out may around 15th in my department in sales/quality. I don't feel proud, but I know that is pretty good. My key to selling is to sale to everyone even if you feel like they are going to get mad. I try to sell to people who I know who will say know to see if I can get better or to get better with rejection or just to keep up the habit of selling to everyone. There is no reason to not sell to everyone unless you are just tired or frustrated with dealing with the emotions of rejection.

Royals are terrible and other things

Today I went for a 2-mile walk. I visited with Raymond. I was pretty free and easy today. My meds and time away from work seem to be working. I played Grand Theft Auto V I ate lots of meatloaf and I watched the Royals lose again.

Business

Paid my renters insurance today that was 210 dollars. I also called to refill my Lexipro refilled. I went for a walk today for 2 miles. It was a bit rough, but I knew I would be glad at the end of the day that I got it done. Also once I get a walk in it helps me get in a more productive mood.

Doing the work is it's own reward

Everyone will pressure and force you into the mindset of results. Your team has to win, you have to gain skills, things have to get better. It was a real shock to learn that a better way to live is to just focus on doing good things and finding joy into that part of life. I think about this every so often when I am trying to find joy in giving people rides to AA meetings. I am like "They can stay sober, they could find a job, they could do this or that. Often they let me down, it is because I have the wrong line of thinking. I need to find joy in doing the right thing, not joy in results or outcome. When I can find joy in doing good things that frees me up to enjoy life more. I am not wasting time or energy worrying about people places or things that I can't change.


Yesterday I watch Sporting KC tie, The Royals lose, and USA win 2-0. I had a self imposed "Cheap night" because I wanted to take it easy after being at work over holiday weekend. The Royals and Sporting KC don't deserve my 60 dollars. USA won and I got to have some laughs. It was good to spend time with Monica, Matt the engineer, Jason, Sarah, and Andrea. My favorite part of the night is not seeing the 60 dollars come out of my wallet and into David Glasses hands.

Memorial Day weekend

Memorial Day weekend was somewhat tame since I worked. Yesterday on Monday I woke up and went for a 2-mile walk. I said hi to Sarah and Jason and I went to Andrea's. I went to Andrea's and she was putting on an overhead on her deck. She asked me to do some drilling but her dad and her friend Jack was doing that. I handed various tools to various people and just tried not to be in the way. She got it done and it does look nice. Her brother and this Marine was trying to get their boat trim to work, again I wasn't much help but I did tell the dude working on the boat if the lower unit went up or dad. I texted my dad to see if he wanted to do some work on the boat but he didn't. I chatted with Andrea, her mom and dad the rest of the night and that was the day. Today I am planning on watching Sporting KC on ESPN 2 and having the flip back and forth from the Royals game. I went for a long walk today and it felt good. My clothes fit and people seem to be attracted to me, so I am grateful today that I tried to get my weight down over Jan and Feb so I wouldn't be pissed at myself for not working out.

Jason and Sarah

Jason has done a great job with paying me half the rent. We paid the gas bill today. It is a miracle I have been able to stay down in KC even though I didn't have a job this year. I want to be thankful that I am down here because I am always around people and that is a good thing for me.

Friday and Saturday

I felt like butt most of Friday and Saturday morning. I am thankful for Dayquil I was able to go to work. At work you have to take your breaks and lunches on time. I took my last one a couple minutes late and I am decently on time about it, but I was a bit late, hopefully that doesn't cost me in the rankings that much. I don't want to get to obsessed with my Rankings at work but I am 11th in my department right now out of 80 which is pretty good for my 4th month. I want to finish of May strong. I woke up today and went for a walk. I still feel like butt so I didn't go long. Now I am watching woman's softball.