The weekend

Received some news on Friday that we fell out of the bonus at work. So that was not good. I just made it a point to handle the situation with grace and dignity. I also then tried to spend less this weekend to try to make up for the loss of incone. The week at work was tough we were really busy. You have to really love money and really want to build wealth if you work. I watched ufc on saturday night at Buffalo Wild Wings and that was the highlight of my weekend. I met a guy from the band "the king devilles" we got to talk music so that was nice. I haven't had the money to go to sports events so I wore my new shoes for fight night. I was able to help a guy on saturday that faces the same challenges that I do. It is nice when I can actual help people and people want to allow be helped.

Thursday July 4th edition.

The Royals got swept by the Astros, but the Astros were really out for blood. Sporting KC rolls along in the U.S. open cup and SPORTING KC has been playing really well. The new goal keeper has really brought something special to the club. Kronburg and Marin were trash. Dom Dwyer had 4 goals in the win yesterday. Work is going well. I have to take off some time because I need time off to go to AA meetings so my paychecks have not been full paycheck which is a bummer but all my stats are decent. I asked my supervisor Aaron what I could do to get better. I have resolution training, I was hired in as a specialist *which is the highest* I have a talent for talking to customers and making them laugh. I have done everything I can to cross my I's and Dot my t's so I know that when I go into interviews I can point to specific things on how I learned, my passion for learning, and my passion for always setting my sights on what I can bring to the company not what I can get out of the company. So that is good. I get frustrated and depressed about my money but when I look back at my days and for entertainment I watch sports and play video games (which is cheap) I know that i am doing the best I can to save for the future. I am hopeful that the money I set aside for my 401k will grow nicely. At work we have a stock options but I wasn't enrolled in time. I got money back for working out, but that money went to getting a Tux for the Byrdmans wedding. Bryce has been texting me every week to check in. It means alot just to reach out. I know I am locked in so much that I don't even shoot out texts. I texted matt the engineer yesterday though. Living at my sisters has been good. I play video games with my nephew which is a fun experience. Even when I don't have the energy to play I love to chop it up about playing video games. I hope I can continue to find ways to more money, I can do things everyday to get closer to mother universe, and I can continue to grind away at video games.

Monday

Sunday was ok. Monday was terrible I was sick and left after 3 hours of work. I was sick most of the night, I was able to play some video games with cortland and watch videos even though my stomach felt like hell. I was able to clean my jeep out and wash it. I went to an A.A. meeting and I met a couple of cool guys. This guy was really nice and he is leaving to cali. I played F1 2013 and did well. Yesterday sporting kc did not do well. They lost on a last second shot from Real salt lake.

6/19

This week has sucked. I keep on just being present to the moment and doing the next right thing and things will work out. I also focus in on the Royals who are doing amazing. Great defense and great bullpen and they are killing teams. Sporting KC took care of business in the U.S. open cup game. A nice out swinging ball from Benny and Zusi headed the ball home. Tiger is doing awful at the U.S. Open.
In weightlifting news I did just on Wednesday and I still feel hungover from the workout. I know the muscle fibers tear and you will feel like crap because your body needs to repair the muscles, but wow. I feel every bit of 34 years old. Happy Fathers day to my dad. I got him a sandwich.

I have been playing some Destiny for ps4, f1 2013 for xbox 360 and MLB 2014 for Ps4 pretty fun.

Monday and Tuesday

Monday was terrible. I was still able to go to an AA meeting. That is the only thing that went well. The Blackhawks won the Stanley Cup. Tuesday was better. It helps not to fight whatever is going on. Just accept things as they are. Especially traffic.

Wednesday

Wednesday was good. Just trying to always focus on the now and not get into the past or into the future. I went over to Raymonds today to do some 4th step work out of the 12 steps. I did a couple things that I really am proud of. Yesterday there is this attractive lady on my facebook that wanted to go to the flogging molly show. Now I just am done lying to myself. I could try to work the situation to make time with this woman or I could do what I do best which is watch sports and enjoy the A.C. Nothing wrong with making time with a lady, but I think this one would have made it apparent she liked me awhile ago. I am making better choices these days in what I do. I need to do the things I do best like play video games and watch the Royals because when I try to do things like take randoms to concerts expecting some kissy kiss action i get let down.

I lifted weights today. The best way to get in shape is to lift weights. You can do cardio and burn calories but you will burn fat as well your calories burned at rest will be lowered. A person like needs to have a balance of 66 percent weights and 40 percent walking so I keep my muscle up where I am burning calories just sleeping. I made mistep getting down to 197 and being skinny fat when I was low-carbing. Then I went upto 240 because I had no muscle. I am not impressed with my man boobs in the gym but I am accepting of myself. It is all good. I am a 34 year old still trying to lift. That is more than the average fatty at wal-mart. I am having more fun with my body that I ever have because I made a promise just to enjoy what I have.

The Weekend

Sporting KC and the Royals are coming out of their little funk. I had a decent week and was able to get my job done at work. I had fun with my dad watching the Royals.