Investing time in Music

awe yeah...I up and did it. The Mars Volta Amputechture is on my play list today. I am not going to lie, some of the section losely sound like a cat being gutted and a 3 year old playing a saxaboom.

Today on Lost 09/22/10

They really need to change the lane to "Ok We know where we are at sort of" after the first season. They really know their way around the island, so they aren't exactly Lost. Wait the fat kid is now talking in Korean. They are punishing him by making him listen to steely dan.

There aren't any good chain gangs

I have never been to prison, but I imagined if I was sending a letter to my mom from prison it would go something like this.
There ain't no good in an evil hearted woman, and you can't go passing bad checks in atchison, don't tie a trout line in a pond in avenue city, and they're ain't no good chain gangs.

Wow It is crazy

Thanks to my sponser I am working hard on some area's. When you feel like shit, you drink. Pretty simple, there was alot of shit I let go without dealing with, and it turns out all those little things are what kicked my ass. It could be as simple as someone not using your idea, or not using your joke, not using whatever it is you suggested. I thought I solved this problem when I learned how to force myself to Sarge, but it turns out that I only solved the problem of giving a hoot what hot girls think. (I don't know why I used hoot, maybe it is that new movie with owls) the level of my resentment runs deep. I still find myself obsessing over what some people think or just about some people in general. I guess thats the what I do. I obsess about Alcohol, obsess, about girls, obsess over crazy shit. There is hope though, I turn my actions and thoughts over to what is right, or as AA puts it. Turns my will thoughts my life over to God. I know God wouldn't want me to waste time and energy over people who don't get two hoots about me. So I take that action to pray, medidate or do pushups. This has taken months of work but I find myself getting back into the actions. I know one way to not give a crap hen you are in a club is to ask your buddy "what animal noise can I make" then you make the noise your buddy says. That way you get out of your state and into a state that you are focusing on having a good time. So I like to make loud moose noises. "Imma moose and I don't care!"

I want to punch someone...probably you.

Well I have been working with a sponser to quit wanting drink to deal with my problems. I will be honest. The first couple weeks suck. Atleast in college there is some kind of outlet to the amount of suckiness, but this sucks trying to go to work, then getting off work then talking why you are so pissed off and trying to solve it. I am working on my ego right now, humbling myself, wow I feel better just writing some of this out! I have to give it up to the people who work recovery programs it is alot of work! Some of my goals include, handling the fact that I still give a shit what certain people think, I want to enjoy doing the stuff I used to love, but without booze. IDK I know if I work it will be ok, if I don't it won't be ok. It's amazing the amount of anger I can carry around, I could seriously break this keyboard over a squirels face outside right now. It's this kind of anger that is driving me to get help, because people shouldn't feel this way.

Sarging

No sarging report lately, for those of you who don't know. To sarge is to talk to every girl and try make them your girlfriend. You have to do this for every girl employing the 3 second rule. The 3 second rule is, you see a girl you sarge... pretty simple. I have songs to help fellow Kansas City Sargers. Seak and Sarge. Hide and go sarge. Sarge in charge. Anyway it is always just fun to have someone to sarge with, but I am like a falcon. Sarging alone.... I was getting pretty good at sarging awhile back, but it got old after 2 or 3 months. I hope to spend a couple hours getting back into the sarge scene one of these days before I am the old guy at dollar general hitting on the cashier.

Snack Cake addiction 09/09/10

Step 1 realizing that you are powerless over Snack Cakes including swiss rolls and Zebracakes.

I always new I had a snack cake problem, but I never knew the extent until last week I had two snack cakes when everyone had one, then we went to a party, and I had to bring extra snack cakes, because I was worried that there wasn't going to be enough snack cakes. My story starts out like everyone else, of course we would sneak some of our dads snack cakes outside his lounge, it was fun at first, but after college, just binging on snack cakes isn't funny anymore. Today I admit I am powerless over snack cakes and I am a funyon user.

Bryce: One of the LFO members died
Ray: He is in a funkier place
Bryce: true

Ray: I had the craziest Sex dream yesterday
Crabtree: I hope I wasn't in it
Ray: You had the french tickler
Crabtree: sounds about right.

Serve that shit up America!

This weekend was filled with Joy, excitement, and a Mizzou win. I went to over to RJ's where everyone was having fun and playing golden T! GOOD TIMES GREAT OLDIES 101.1 the fox! I am sure that Vinnie picked tried to pick Rik Smits at some point. I went out for Matts birthday to a place in weston. The Irish band said "Waitresses will bring you what you want if you ask" I replied

Bring me vagina, come on AMERICA SERVE THAT SHIT UP!

Lost Update season 1 episode 13 cliche #2

Ok the asian that suddenly speaks english was the first cliche, I just witnessed the second cliche. Somebodys heart stopped and a doctor was pounding on the newly dead person saying a bunch of shit until a nurse or another doctor or someone else (Possibly someone from atchison) grabs them and stops them. I never understood this, keep beating the newly dead persons heart until you are content. In a TV show though it's like you only get 2 minutes to pump a persons heart when they are in cardiac arrest, that is followed by random pounding, that is followed by screaming "Come back" then someone else grabs the person and preclaims "it's over!" like a boxing match where one person (possibly rob calloway) is getting pounded. If I was in that room I would be like "Punch that heart as much as you want! I always wanted to kick the shit out of that motherfucker anyway, here is your chance!"

Go local team and community college

So football opened up yesterday. Missouri Western won their game, which is good! Yes, a couple years ago I stopped really caring who wins or losing and just enjoyed the fact I wasn't working, or paying 400 dollars for repairing some shit on my car, or paying for education I don't work. That would be sweet if I ran a college, I would just drop you off on messanie street and make you earn a living and a apartment any way you can. Nothing gets you fired up more than eating at a soup kitchen (it's breadstick friday!) I am aware after extended studying of Neuro Lingistic programming that life has it's ups or downs and you might have good shit going on around you, but your brain is going to be in a depressed state, so just hang in there because things around you might go to shit. So if you feel bad just hang in there like those cat posters, because your brain will turn inself around eventually. Or you could just put quarters in peoples parking meters so they don't get a ticket. You know people are idiots right? Well I will give you one example of how I do something that doesn't even make sense, I always wash my hands and get worried about germs and shit, but I don't think twice about putting diet mountain dew top of the can all up in my mouth, or 2 liter bottle, I suck on 2 liter bottles and god knows what kind of shit they have been rolling around in. My only hope is that since diet mountain dew is neon green that it is so toxic that it kills germs before it gets in my body and saturates my organs in awesome! I drank mountain dew so much one time I actually BMX'D on a skateboard over Price Chopper.

true story

Today On Lost 09/01/10

Today on Lost episode 9 Season 1. They are still lost! The fat guy is still really fat! I am waiting for that Fat dude to start losing some weight! I predict they will get found by a rescue squad by episode 11 or so. Moose Tacos looks really good for the Royals. I really hate the Royals. They are the worst franchise in the world, maybe even west of atchison, but I can't stop watching them. Anyway this dude Moose Tacos hit eleventy billion homeruns (wait a second, I am watching lost...oh I thought maybe they were rescued, but it was just a corona commercial) Anyway Moose Tacos is going to be the Royals Pujols, WRITE IT DOWN ON THE CHALKBOARD OF GREEN!!! VINNIE. Moose Tacos sounds like some kind of girlfriend I would have in 2006 after a week long bender at Jerry's bait shop. Speaking of fat people I shouldn't be having sex with, the fat guy from Lost...the only position he could play in baseball would be First base, no way he would have the range to play any other positions, and his knees couldn't play catcher, especially if he played on Field Turf.

Update. The fat guy just made a golf Course for the Islanders (not the new york sub .500 hockey team, but the people in the show lost) Anyway he thinks this will help them not be stressed out. That fat guy doesn't know shit about Golf! It is stressful!

Bryce just txting me that the writers have a lack of vision for Lost, because they haven't been found yet.

Noelle Just txted me and said she has a hunch they will be lost for awhile, she is wrong they will be found by episode 13. YOU CAN PUT THAT ON THE BOARD OF GREEN VINNIE!

Damnit now this Asian chick on lost conviently speaks english after 3 episodes. I hate that shit, they do this all the times in show, some dude doesn't speak english then after 5 episodes they magically know english and it is like OH YOU KNEW ENGLISH ALL ALONG HAR HAR HAR. The Manager from the hit baseball movie "Mr. Baseball" did ths as well. The Manager didn't know english or what Tom Selleck and his mustache were talking about, but in the middle of the Dragons Pennant chase, he suddenly knows english.