Wow It is crazy

Thanks to my sponser I am working hard on some area's. When you feel like shit, you drink. Pretty simple, there was alot of shit I let go without dealing with, and it turns out all those little things are what kicked my ass. It could be as simple as someone not using your idea, or not using your joke, not using whatever it is you suggested. I thought I solved this problem when I learned how to force myself to Sarge, but it turns out that I only solved the problem of giving a hoot what hot girls think. (I don't know why I used hoot, maybe it is that new movie with owls) the level of my resentment runs deep. I still find myself obsessing over what some people think or just about some people in general. I guess thats the what I do. I obsess about Alcohol, obsess, about girls, obsess over crazy shit. There is hope though, I turn my actions and thoughts over to what is right, or as AA puts it. Turns my will thoughts my life over to God. I know God wouldn't want me to waste time and energy over people who don't get two hoots about me. So I take that action to pray, medidate or do pushups. This has taken months of work but I find myself getting back into the actions. I know one way to not give a crap hen you are in a club is to ask your buddy "what animal noise can I make" then you make the noise your buddy says. That way you get out of your state and into a state that you are focusing on having a good time. So I like to make loud moose noises. "Imma moose and I don't care!"