Instincts being in threat (my reaction)

One day a girl came up to me and asked me to be in a relationship. Cool, free make out sessions, someone to drive me around, actually she was more of a baby sister. Wait...this is supposed to be awesome....but I really see some girls on tv and other places that I really want...arrrg! Of course I broke up with the chick I was dating to date other chicks in a string of attempts to satisfy my human ambition to impregnant as many ladies as possible. I felt like when I was dating one girl I lost all the other ones in the world, when I threatend with loss or the fear of losing something in the future, or something I think I am owed (YOU OWE ME BIG VENDING MACHINE) I get fear. Fear leads to wreckless behavior which leads to me being an asshole and not being my best. The answer is going through large amounts of pain, prayer, and talking to people. I was a slave acting on insticts that were millions of years old. I also love instant gratification. I want Love, Excitement, money, fame I want it now and I want it all the time. Well if you accept life on lifes terms you see things for what they are. Helping other people also gets you out of your head, even if it is just at work and saying, wow I said hi to this or that person. I helped that person out.