Friday, January 6, 2012
Yeesh
So the New Years has sucked. Nothing really bad has happened. I just haven't had my attitude changed. I always feel alone and get pissed at me not getting my way. Good thing is I realize that it is just my brain trying to screw me into eating or boozing when I don't need to be. There is a girl named Wally and it has bugged me forever that she doesn't like me. I was told to ask her out. I did that she said no, but it provided relief that I haven't had for awhile. I did a good job not drinking, or stress eating over being lonely, tired, bored, etc. It just really sucked balls. Coping with praying and excersize just dulls the pain it def doesn't take it away. So now what? Well now I can start to focus on how I really want to be. I want to give back and of course feel good while I am watching sports. I am going to try to have people over this weekend and I am going to try to reflect on how I treat people throughout my day. People have tough ass lives, I would take my random "girl of the week" turning me down problems, over "family members with cancer" problems.
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