Thursday

Thursday was ok. There is always a point in the day where I just think I can't go on and I want to run away, but then I try to go 20% farther than I think I can go. I have seen this 20% thing in several places and it has stuck with me. Anyway I made it through my day, then I went for a 2-mile walk which was pretty impressive considering the amount of emotional energy I have been spending on work and my attitude. I went to black dog and my friend Adam was there. Adam is a beast in the weight room and a good looking guy. He just got a Lexus and now he is the hottest guy I know. He is down to earth and we have good times. I may not have the most money in the world but I have the best group of friends right now. Vinnie is always happy and always moving forward, Bryce is kind and very funny, the Elder Statesman has truly been an older brother to me throughout H.S. and life in general. Kris is my brother and Jason is a guy that who can talk women and drink coffee with. Raymond of course is awesome as well, but I cringe when I think about him because I don't want to be messing up around him. Overall I really have it good and it is strange to have people want to come to my apt and watch games. So I am continue to do what I am doing because 90% of my day kinda sucks but the 10% that doesn't is so good it is worth the work. I used to hate getting my oil changed, getting a hair cut, shopping for clothes, but I really anchored the idea of happiness to those events and it has made my quality of life better. I really can't wait until I can truly associate working with making money and helping people. I still associate work with pain, but if I keep working my attitude I will want to work more. I know in my heart it can be be done because there are days when I wake up and I know for a fact God has gave me the gift to give good customer service, the gift to work with others, and the gift to get my ass to work. So anyways I will keep working keep changing, and keep praying.