Thursday

Thursday I was alittle bit annoyed. I am trying to figure out this credit card situation. I know there is not much I can do but be frugal as heck and keep working as much as possible. I just got a check and growl....I am just going to pray and hope for the best. I will have enough money for rent for this check...and next check on Friday I should have enough for the jeep. It is tough to have peace of mind without insurance so I paid that today and my work insurance will kick in soon. One thing I am grateful is my work. My work offers some relief from my own thoughts and my selfish ways. I can focus on work or prayer to really take a weight off my shoulders. I know things will be better and I am grateful I am moved into a seeming stable situation with Jason. As fearful I am right now about money, it was worse around Christmas with no job and such. It is really hard for me to work when I am in a bad mood. I always have to focus on what is important. I focus on the fact I am not drunk somewhere in a ditch or that I have a DUI or anything like that. I am healthy and I have a sense of humor. So anyway I know what a solution is when I get bothered by money, it is to focus on what I already have..jeep...tv....guitar....health...and not what I don't have. Who knows what the future will bring. Maybe I will win the lotto. Now that I have that off my chest it is time to relax and enjoy my Thursday night. Wednesdays and Mondays bring a big workload with duties at work and in AA. I want to remain sober and I want to learn more on how to deal with people. I really strive to treat people well because that is one of the only things I have going for me. I got complimented today with my patience. That is a big deal because I actively try to cultivate my skill of patience.

eating johnsonville meatballs

Johnsonville not only makes good bratwursts, but their meatballs are really good. Tuesday was good. I hung out with my friend Andrea. Her dog hates me. It is a Lab mixed with a poodle. I am not going to name what it's official name is. I have felt pretty good day in and day out. I really try to take time to pray and thank God for everything I have. Especially food and air. I hate being without clean air. It really bites the big one. KU won another conference championship. I miss the games with KU VS MIZZOU. that was the best and most hated battle ever. Everything is good. I always talk about getting hooked. Bad people or bad thinking will lead you to be in a bad mood. Bad mood makes you less effective. I sometimes get on my own nerves. I got my paycheck but my credit card balance is a source of concern. I can only do what I can do I guess. I am trying to find a balance (Pun intended) of going out and eating and having a good time, and putting money towards that credit card. It can always be worse and I thank God that I have a job. I know that I am doing the best I can and there are many miracles in my life. I still haven't eaten much carbs at all. That is a miracle because I had bad issues with just eating so many chips pop and candy. I really feel like I have had more consistant energy all day because I am off the roller coaster of eating that much sugar. Jason is doing well. He and I are looking to make another months of rent for march. That is a miracle as well. Our front room looks so dope. My old apartment was crappy because I put no effort into it, but believe me our front room looks good enough that I really try to focus on how much better my life has gotten. My bank account in the last year has gone to crap, but my waistline has gone down, the beautiful woman in my life has gone up, and my overall happiness is way better. I really have deep level tools to use when my mood becomes bad. I really try to focus on the money I am making if I am working, I try to focus on the people I am helping, and I try to focus on the skills that I am cultivating or the skills that I am maintaining doing whatever it is I am doing. I am ready so much for Royals baseball and Sporting KC. That will help my happiness as well.

Sometimes I really look at other people and I really feel bad that they didn't put themselves through hitting on a bunch of girls and do comedy. I have deep level lessons of "Not caring what people think" "Not getting emotionally hooked" "Bouncing back from rejection" I am lucky that I got lots of my mental game or mental thinking to a good spot so I can just enjoy helping people, and I can enjoy my day making money and enjoy my health. My health has been decent throughout my sober time and that I am thankful.

Monday

Monday is always a very large work load. Work all day, then meet with Raymond then a meeting. After that I watched True Detective. I am seeing good benefits from praying and really trying to be of service. The anxiety I have is really lifted when I just try to work out of the attitude of service. I tried to hang out with Brydman this weekend but he was busy. I really strive to keep that relationship open because he is a good egg...(See what I did there? Egg Byrd...har har har) KU is playing right now but I don't know if they are winning.

Dale Jr wins the Daytona 500. I missed most of it because of the crappy rain. Good for Dale Jr. He takes lots of crap because he isn't the same driver as Dale Sr. Oh well though. That's two 500's for him.

UFC 170 wrap up

I watched KU kill Texas tonight. I had a cobb salad. I enjoyed my last day of regular season refereeing. I hung out with my friends Matt, Monica, Jason, Sarah, and later on I hung out with Liesel. Liesel really had some funny things to say and she is one of my favorite people because she is so mean to me, especially when she has been drinking. Overall I am thankful I put in 45 hours of work in at two jobs. I felt really good today. I didn't catch UFC 170 but here are the results.


Ronda Rousey def. Sara McMann via TKO (strikes) — Round 1 (1:06)
Daniel Cormier def. Patrick Cummins via TKO (punches) — Round 1 (1:19)
Rory MacDonald def. Demain Maia via unanimous decision (29-28, 29-28, 29-28)
Mike Pyle def. T.J. Waldburger via TKO (strikes) — Round 3 (4:03)
Stephen Thompson def. Robert Whittaker via TKO (strikes) — Round 1 (3:43)
Alexis Davis def. Jessica Eye via split decision (28-29, 29-28, 29-28)
Raphael Assuncao def. Pedro Munhoz via unanimous decision (30-27, 30-27, 30-27)
Aljamain Sterling def. Cody Gibson via unanimous decision (29-28, 29-28, 29-28)
Zach Makovsky def. Josh Sampo via unanimous decision (30-27, 30-27, 29-28)
Erik Koch def. Rafaello Oliveira via TKO (punches) — Round 1 (1:24)
Ernest Chavez def. Yosdenis Cedeno via split decision (28-29, 29-28, 30-27)

Saturday

Saturday I woke up in a good mood. I deposited my first check from my new job. I got paid for refereeing. I was pretty giddy. I bought a new bathroom set to make my bathroom not look like a single dude that pisses in the V formation all the time. I watched Everton vs. Chelsea. I can't wait for SPORTING KC to come back to KC and kick butt. The weather is nice and I did a nice video blog. I explain about my goals in the video blog and how I am grateful to have a job that is close. I am grateful for my jeep. I washed the jeep and vacuumed it. There is a bunch of salt on the floor of the jeep that is a bummer, but I was grateful I was in the mood to clean it today. I think listening to rap music has helped me put work in on taking care of my stuff. It really makes me in a silly mood to cruise around and also to upgrade some of my stuff. My bathroom looks decent, my Jeep is as clean as it can be, and I always have new shoes to wear. I have these pair of grey vans I have barely warn at all since last year. So anyway today is one of the rare days I really feel good. I am glad I am not nursing a hangover. I am thankful I can use this good mood to do more positive actions such as refereeing today. I am going to try to not let work today ruin my good mood, but we will see.

Friday Morning

Friday morning I got this long text this lady. It was sob story about how her life didn't turn out like she wanted. I saw lots of myself in this text. The thing is people think marriage, cars, houses, etc will make them happy. The truth is right living makes you happy. I made some inspirational music cd's for me to listen to in the morning to get my mind in the right space to go to work. I am really thinking about expanding my skills in the workplace if the opportunity is there to enrich my life. A deeper growth in character and development is always needed for me to get out of bed cheerfully. I always work on my patience and faith. In hard work I trust.

Thursday

Thursday morning woke up and went for a walk. Probably going to read and listen to music before work.

people fishing.

People always seem to be fishing for a reaction out of me. Different people try to push my buttons on purpose. Sometimes not on purpose. I don't care what the reason is, but I have been decent in the last couple years not reacting. I have been accused of not caring, but it is actually a skill called love with detachment. I can't control, people, places or things I just can try to love them. Today I was all uptight for various reasons, but I had a reminder about not controlling things. I know God has the power and not me. I just need to let Jesus drive the bus of life sometimes. It brought me amazing relief today. It is amazing what a simple prayer can do for you. I also got a nice acknowledgement today from a person that "You talk to me just like you are my brother" I felt good about that because I work everyday to treat people like a family member or a loved one. I don't think anyone will ever know how much work it takes for me to be in a decent mood and to be able to put a smile on my face to everyone. I feel bad for people that only can love dogs and not get up for loving a person.

Tuesday

I was able to go for a two mile walk today outside. It was glorious. I watched the Jayhawks win and now I am watching the avengers.

Tuesday

Tuesday I woke up and went for a walk. I went to Hy-Vee to get some low carb food. I thought about how I need to act and have an attitude to get better in life. I strive to stop taking peoples critizism in this way...."NOTHING IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH" to "THIS IS ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY TO GET BETTER"

That is a tough attitude to change, but I know that I can change as a person if I put good habits into work and that my actions line up with those habits.

I will change my thinking from "nothing is ever good enough for people" to "this is a great chance to get better and improve my skills."

I tried to watch a fistfull of dollars yesterday, only caught some of it. I just put in The Advengers...looks pretty good. Samuel L Jackson is in it.

Monday

Monday I woke up and went for a walk. I felt pretty good. About as good as I am going to feel on a Monday. I went to work and tried to work as free and easy as possible. I prayed in the morning so I try to have God remove any fears I may have. After work I met up with Raymond and we chatted about some things. Raymond helps a guy in a wheel chair and I had a chat about helping people. I may have the chance to keep being a referee and possibly an umpire for the YMCA. I don't want to keep going, but I think it is good for me to be face to face with tough to deal with people and I get a workout and get paid for it. So I will have to keep praying about it.

Saturday

Saturday I hung out with my friend Matt the engineer. We watched MMA. It was pretty boring, but it was nice to hang out with him. His pug pee'd on me which was ok. I was a referee all day yesterday so I was very tired. This morning I bought some socks so I can start my Monday out nice. I worked a total of 46 hours last week between the Y and my other job. I am kind of just processing all that information. I have two things due back to the library tomorrow Fistful of Dollars and Tiger Woods 2014.


Sunday I cleaned my place up a bit. I did laundry. I checked my bank account...grrr one more week until I get paid from both my job and the Y. It is difficult being patient. USA won their games against Russia and Slovakia.

Eating the right amount.

It is important to me to eat a meal that doesn't fill me up that it takes away focus for my job, or that I don't eat too little where it takes my focus away from my job, to focus on the feeling on being hungry. Everything counts and I had this weird moment the other day that in life everyone probably has around the same intellegence, but the people who can focus more can pick up behavior habits in themselves and in others. So everything counts and this was just something I picked up on.

Friday

Friday makes day 10 of work. I worked as hard as I could. There were several days this week that I came home and was just brain dead. I was totally fried. It isn't a good feeling, but I think that is the kind of effort I need to get to make the most at this new job. I am pretty wound up right now. It was a very long week. I was able to walk a couple miles each day and I was able to stay low carb all this while working as hard as I can. I don't want to set my expectations up to get a supervisor role in the future, but I know at least I am putting in the work to earn money. At least I am putting in the work to get in better shape each day. At least I am putting in the work to have a better spiritual life each day.

Thursday

Work is taking up most of my time. When I am not working I goto 24 hour fitness to walk. I am looking forward.to better weather and some other things in the future. The US Hockey team win their first game. I hope they beat Canada. I was too tired to do anything after work but watch the olympics. It was still pretty fun to watch.

video games

I am trying to play a couple hikes of golf in tiger woods.. It is important for me to carve out some time even while grinding. To stay happy.

Wednesday

Wednesday was a very long day. Training at my new job is long and in depth. It isn't the most fun, but I am grateful for the fact that I am getting paid to learn about new things. I now have experience in insurance, credit, and healthcare admin. So I am thankful to God that I know have a wide array of words on my resume that will bring up results for recruiters. I got home exhausted. I mean goofy exhausted. I went to an AA meeting and I went to bed. I got sick in the middle of the night, I think I ate too much. I woke up today and I walked on the treadmill for 1.2 miles. Overall feeling good. I am ready for my first paycheck. I was without a job and I have a credit card bill to pay, rent, jeep, etc. I am just looking for some payoff even if it isn't very big from the grinding work I have put in. Peace out.

Tuesday

Tuesday was a bit rough. I focused on doing "The next right thing." It kept me from getting too irritated. At night I got the Newest Tiger Woods from the Library, I got the Avengers DVD from the Library, and I got "A fist full of dollars" from the Library. Can't wait to check each of those out.

Monday

Monday I felt pretty good. I went to work. I arrived a half and hour early. There is people reviewing what we went over last week so I feel like that getting there early helps my brain go into "work mode" so I can get ready for a day full of learning and work. I felt tired and frustrated later in the day, but I kept writing in my notebook. "this is a change to work even though you don't feel your best" I wrote that over and over. There is a saying that "You have two ears and one mouth, use then in that proportion" I have reached a weird point in my life where by listening to audio books, or music, or tv I am taking in so much info I get overloaded. The blog, the video blogs, playing guitar, writing comedy. That switches the proportion to more of the creative part of the brain and makes me feel at ease when I am overloaded.

At night I met with Raymond, I went to an AA meeting. It was a challenging day just to take in that much information. One of my friends left early. I stayed, then went to 24 hour fitness and walked a mile. I got home and was tired and layed in bed until I fell asleep. I wanted to watch KU and I wanted to watch the olympics, but my brain was fried. Good day overall though. Very productive.

Sunday

Sunday was a tough day for me. It started out ok. I went and walked...then drove around. It snowed. Jason had some people over later that day. I got real butthurt about the fact that the girls that he had over don't want to date me. I can't control people and I know I just have to accept things and be happy, but not Sunday. I was really butt hurt. I drove around trying to gather my thoughts. I was thinking the best things. These are the thoughts I was trying to think and pray.

Be thankful you have a job
Keep working on bettering yourself
This is just a mood tomorrow will be better.

I then I thought about work and that caused me some pain as well. It was when I started to think about my personal business and finance that I started to change my mood. I started to think this way.


If you are in a bad mood because things are going your way, you aren't going to be able to learn and take in information at the new job. You aren't going to be good to be around. It is going to cost you money, status, flexibility, and the ability to help others.

I started to settle down. I gave myself the freedom to drink pop and coffee a ton until my bad mood passed. I didn't eat carbs yesterday which is a miracle considering how much I use food to change my emotions. My mood got better and I went back to the apartment and Jason and everyone were having fun watching T.V. I then had a great rest of the night with really good jokes and we watched True Detective. That show is awesome.

Saturday

Saturday I was in a mood to do some typing and some thinking about people who do well in the corporate world. I have a passion for people taking responsibility for their own finances. I need to understand that the more effort I put into treating people well, the better I will be in every phase of my life. I always need to grow and change and have more patience. So when I am in a mood to do comedy or to really do deep thinking about business. I just try to go with it and see where that mental state takes me. It ran it's course until I had to ref some games. I had to do 3rd grade boys this week. It went well. I made one mistake which is progress compared to the other weeks. I thank GOD for some progress in my skills at a referee. I saw one of my old bosses there, he was nice. It was nice to be in decent shape, sober, and be able to look an old boss in the eye and talk to him. I really tried to be classy and a man of character at my old places that I worked. Then I saw another supervisor that I used to work for later on in the day. I told him that I didn't get the things he was trying to teach me at 29 years old, but I am starting to learn at 33 what he ment. I strive to not take work for granted, and I strive to cultivate the skill of working when you are not in the mood or not feeling your best. I had a couple hours left of being a referee and I didn't feel well. My legs were tired and I wasn't feeling it, but I told myself "THIS IS A GREAT CHANCE TO DO WORK EVEN when I feel not good" I finished the games out and did my best.

After the day I was bored and went to visit my sister. That was fun. My sister and I laughed and her boyfriend ben was there. His dog is fun. I visited with Ben's dog as well. I went out to the bottleneck as well for awhile, but I was tired it was late so I went home.

walked

I walked a bit in the morning at 24 hour fitness and I walked a bit at night at 24 hour fitness. Nothing too hard. Just to stretch my legs and have the habit of going there when I have nothing pressing to do.

Day 5

It was a long day. I went to a meeting. I had some laughs. One thing I want to stress to myself today is that I can never take work for granted again. It is a bad strategy. I always tell myself "Oh I will learn this job then be on auto pilot." That is B.S. you have to work ever day as best as you can. I worked hard this week paying attention. I used my public speaking skills. I also used my knowledge in marketing and sales. I may even have used my business degree a bit. It was a wild week indeed.

Friday

Friday I woke up. I prayed and I read. I read spiritual books. When I read the daily prayer I think it does something different than the just regular prayer of "OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME NOT EAT FUNYONS. I DON'T WANT TO BE FAT" I Vacuumed my room. I called the apt complex because my toilet isn't working. I am grateful today that I live in an apartment complex. I don't have the effort or skills to work on toilets. My first paycheck is in two weeks for my job. That is a bummer. I still need to file my taxes, but first I need money to have them filed. So anyway just looking at my money situation for the next couple weeks could be weird. I got my Jeep, insurance, and Rent paid for. So car and rent is what is the most important bills that I need to be paid. I am trying to cultivate gratitude every day for a roof over my head and beef jerky in my belly.

I went to 24 hour fitness today. I told the lady that works there. Thank you for the positive attitude. It has changed my life. I made good eye contact and stood up straight. I need to work on my customer skills so much and so often that I am taking every chance I get in everyday life to really make an effort to smile and be positive.

I have changed as a person. I used to hate positive people. Now I am just willing to work on being a positive person in the face of challenges and negative emotions.

Day 4 video

http://youtu.be/rW00p061Q0w

Thursday night

Thursday night I am watching some motivational and instructional videos. Mostly about what to do with bad emotions. I try to get through bad emotions with cultivating gratitude. I HAVE A HEART THAT BEATS...THAT IS AWESOME. I have a SHOWER. RAIN IS AWESOME AND IT HAPPENS ON MY COMMAND!

day 4

Day 4 of work. I woke up and prayed. I watched a video called "the next best thing." the point of the video was if you can't do the best thing, be happy with the next best thing. Like if you can't sleep. Atleast try to rest your body. Work is ok. I need to improve so much on my work skills it can be a challenge. I am doing my best and getting better. I felt pretty good yesterday and today. God id good.

Hump day

Wednesday. I woke up. I read a bit. Prayed a bit. Drove to the gym. The Gym was closed because of the snow. I had no issues because it was still bad out. I got coffee. I came home and did more reading. I got some gas went to work. I was able to share some experience strength and hope with people at work. We broke into teams and I lead some of the team in public speaking. I do comedy and I talk in front of people often AA. I better be able to use those skills in my work. I was thankful to make it to work safe and alive today. I went to the gym for a small one hour walk. I didn't eat cookies, bread, chips or crackers today. That is another day not eating carbs. That is a miracle. I am blessed with fun co-workers. I have a co-worker in training that was being really hard on me and that is what I really need. I need to have it hard. Iron sharpens IRON like the bible says. I had a good day today I really did. There is nothing like being in a good mood and working. It is nice being paid while you feel good. I know the good times don't last long, but I believe it is proof that if you work hard and prepare you will be happy. You will have a sense that what you do is right. I also try really hard to work even when I feel bad on the inside. Mohammad Ali said he only counts pushups after they start getting hard. I feel that as well. What you do that makes the difference is when you feel like crap. Are you still able to help other people? Are you still able to do your job. I am planning on going to bed early again tonight. I feel like going to bed early has helped me read better in the morning, pray better in the morning, and to pay more attention. I am truly a student of life and I am trying to be a sponge to always get better.

Day 2 of my new job video blog

http://youtu.be/lIKDq9lg-i8

Thankful

I am thankful I have a jeep. It was rough yesterday getting around. The gym wasn't open this morning and people are spending all their energy just getting out of the house. I feel pretty good and I spent my morning reading and uploading past videos. I am being productive while many people are not. It feels good and it makes those rather large jeep payments with the rather large insurance payments worth it. It is a sound investment to have a tool such as a jeep so you can get to work and make money and have health coverage and still have enough energy to floss.

Day 1 of work video

http://youtu.be/lIKDq9lg-i8


I don't know if this works or not but here is a video I shot for myself day one of work. Copy and past to browser

Second Day of work

Got up early and I went for a walk at the gym. I was able to go to Hy-Vee as well to ensure that I will be able to stay low carb even through a new job and through crappy weather. So I pretty much paid the price to remain at my weight and with any luck maybe be on my way down still. I made to work and home from work. I over ate a bit so I was somewhat sick when I got home. My religion is always "I would rather be bored than broke' Or I would rather be tired than broke" Like 50 cent. My accounts have shrunk but atleast I haven't been flat out broke for awhile. Although it is pretty damn close. I will keep preparing for work and thinking about work very hard. I know that if I put in an effort through training it will pay off. I can't think of anything better that I can do as of right now with work. Just continue to show up and pay attention and listen. I love to freak myself out sometimes about money...always romances and finances haha. Anyway I am much better than I was four years ago about living life and enjoying it. I wish sometimes that my outside situations reflected that, but oh well. I can't control anything but myself and my attitude.

I really love Jesus
I really would rather be bored than be broke
I would really like to be tired than be broke.
I would rather be frustrated than broke.
Basically I would rather be anything but broke.

First Day of work

Today was the day I was waiting for. My first day of work. I woke up with some fear. Not of the job, but for the fact that I am afraid that I will go back to my old crap eating habits and not have the energy to work out. I just then chilled out and said to myself. I just need to be happy and do work. Things will work out. I went to work and I talked to many people. Tried to be as positive as possible. I tried to show that I was grateful for even having a new job. I am from St. Joseph and any skills I learn out of St. Joseph is a blessing. My job is closed to work which is nice as well. After work I met up with Raymond. I went for a two mile walk on the treadmill. I also am trying to make a habit of flossing. I also didn't eat chips, cookies, or cake. So that is a miracle. I am grateful my jeep got to work. I am also thankful that I got a haircut, cleaned my shoes, prayed, asked Jesus to help me be a good worker. Everything counts. I am also grateful that I tried to read as much as possible when I had time off of work. Today was lots of information, but I feel like it wasn't much of a shock since I forced myself to read everyday as much as possible. I am getting ready for bed now in an effort to have a rested day tomorrow so I can be of service again. I am looking forward to getting new skills and also buying a new bass guitar, drums, and an xbox one. Also I realized today that it is hard to win a championship and repeat, because you have to almost double your effort to get back to the promise land. I look at Sporting KC. They don't just get to celebrate a MLS championship forever. They have to eventually go back to work and put their heart and soul into their work. I am so glad also that I was able to see some toxic situations in my time off. I really tried to put effort into reading, my friendships, and cultivating myself.

I am working tomorrow. Here is a picture of my sketchers that I cleaned up. I am going to do everything I can do be a great worker. I know that every little thing counts so I will clean my shoes. I also plan on getting up early and making sure more jeep starts. I am neurotic like that.

Ref

This week went much better with officiating. The people causing me trouble were there, but they were well behaved this week. I will give them a benefit of thinking they had a crappy week last week. I was going to go over there and talk to the people, but I figure I would let sleeping dogs lie and if they needed something they would (obviously) not be afraid to voice their opinion. I am starting to see the floor better. Watching the ball carrier along with what is going on in the paint out of the corner of my eye. Listening to shoves, slaps, groans, or trash talking as well. There are tough calls in this league, they aren't able to steal the ball on the dribble, but sometimes they lose control of the ball and another girl takes it, so it is hard to decide if the girl lost the ball or if a girl stole it. Also lots of times the girls just dribble right into a defender, whats the defender supposed to do? Anyway it is not easy and I am sure I would enjoy doing older boys games better, but the the girls that play are getting solid games and practice in. They will be dribbling, passing, and playing defense well by 3rd or 4th grade. They already can play good defense. I am a bit surprised about how good they get back on defense. No one ever gets a clean layup.

Saturday Night

Saturday night I went over to Matt the E's apartment. He is smart guy who does stuff that is important. We watched Duke and Syracuse. That was a good game. I knew if I could get him to watch the UFC prelims he would order UFC 169. He did just that. Score one for me. I didn't have to go to Buffalo Wild Wings to watch it. There was one fight that was very awesome. Knockout of the year. I have no idea who it was, but some white dude got hit in the face very hard. I was joyous.

Saturday

Saturday I woke up and paid rent. I don't know where Jason is at and I need to ask him for 400 dollars for rent and bills. So that is upsetting me already, but only because I want things done right now and in the case of money I have very little natural patience. So this is another opportunity to practice patience. Yay! I referee today so that will be fun to cultivate my skills of getting yelled at and turning the other cheek. So anyway I paid rent and I get to stay another month down in KC and do more open mics, hit on girls, and do some things for other people.


Thursday...I was debating to go to an open mic. I felt like I needed to get out of the house. My friend Jeff Onyx has this place called Branson of the North. I watched a guy do a 30 minute set of jokes. That is very long time to do a set for a non pro. It was good. Good set ups good punchlines. Some of the jokes weren't funny but the point is to actually have a set up or premise and punchline. The most annoying thing with myself and other comedians is when their jokes are not well put together.. To long and no punch. So anyway that was growth because I saw a new venue, I met some new people, and I had some very good laughs. That was a good night.