Sunday

Sunday was a tough day for me. It started out ok. I went and walked...then drove around. It snowed. Jason had some people over later that day. I got real butthurt about the fact that the girls that he had over don't want to date me. I can't control people and I know I just have to accept things and be happy, but not Sunday. I was really butt hurt. I drove around trying to gather my thoughts. I was thinking the best things. These are the thoughts I was trying to think and pray.

Be thankful you have a job
Keep working on bettering yourself
This is just a mood tomorrow will be better.

I then I thought about work and that caused me some pain as well. It was when I started to think about my personal business and finance that I started to change my mood. I started to think this way.


If you are in a bad mood because things are going your way, you aren't going to be able to learn and take in information at the new job. You aren't going to be good to be around. It is going to cost you money, status, flexibility, and the ability to help others.

I started to settle down. I gave myself the freedom to drink pop and coffee a ton until my bad mood passed. I didn't eat carbs yesterday which is a miracle considering how much I use food to change my emotions. My mood got better and I went back to the apartment and Jason and everyone were having fun watching T.V. I then had a great rest of the night with really good jokes and we watched True Detective. That show is awesome.