Thursday

Thursday was pretty awful as far as anxiety is concerned. It isn't too bad most of the time. I was a big ball of nerves for no apparent reason. I talked to Raymond and I prayed. I did everything I could. Then I just did my best to work with it. I hate using my PTO to deal with my stress and anxiety. Today I was able to get through without taking the day off, but I am eying a day off in the future to just chill out and get away from work. I haven't used a PTO day yet since I started my new job so I am good there. I am now in the phase of the day where I beat myself up for letting my anxiety condition effect my job. I went to work and I finished work. I also met with Raymond. I have to give myself respect to at-least face the world even though I am a big ball of nervousness sometimes. I had a guy sit with me to go over my sales technique. That made me about throw up because I was very nervous and very anxiety filled and to have a guy over my shoulder was pretty stressful. Overall though I ok. I am just trying to give myself the most credit as possible for keep going out and keep getting better.