Thursday

Thursday was O.K. I was rated 6th still in my department. I expect to drop to mid-pack because I had to close some accounts. I have good first call resolution and good sales. I am working hard. My approach is to take it one day at a time. Next week I am going to really have to worry about one day at a time. I have training which I have to be on my game to really pay attention. Tomorrow is pay day or as I like to be called "Being sorely dissapointed day" I am glad I was able to meet with Raymond today. He brightens my day and I have gotten used to meeting him without so much anxiety. He loves God. He always trys to be better and more loving. I hope I am calm and I am able to help people like he does one day. I know that me quitting drinking and me hitting A.A. really hard has helped people. I have been counting calories as of late and it has helped me from eating so much that I make myself sick. It is hard to not snack and I try to keep myself busy by doing small cleaning or reading. I have been eating candy, but counting calories. Anyway the last couple months I know Byrdman said I lost weight and I had one comment from Adam that I lost weight, so I know if I plan my meals out and work out and don't just give up I can keep my weight decent. I know I get treated with my respect if I am in range of my ideal weight. I was able to log into SoberRecovery.com today and say some words about Lexipro. Lexipro has helped me wake up and not have anxiety. I hope my mom and dad are having fun on their cruise. I know how hard they worked. I know my mom would be up late grading papers and then be up to early to take me to school. I loved waffles and sportscenter when I was young. I had some issues with food growing up eating until I was sick, so I am glad that I atleast am able to grow with not eating until I am sick now.


Gratitude List. I am Grateful for Andrea she is fun and she provides shelter and doesn't yell at me when I forget the fan on. Also she buys me delicious chicken and clothes.

I am grateful for my parents. They provided me money and shelter and I was ungrateful growing up, but I always had a nintindo and super nintindo to play. Even a playstation. and Computers. I always had the best things and I have great memories of the cool toys growing up.

I am grateful for A.A. When I decided to stop partying I had a place to go with a plan and lifestyle set out that I could follow that kept me from relapsing.

I am grateful for mp3's about meeting girls and improving yourself. Tony Robbins, David deangelo, Zig Ziggler they had great shows and tapes about improving my mind. It gave me hope and it provided me so much happiness listening to how pumped up those people got about improving themselves.

I am grateful for Kurtis, we went out and we met people, we got rejected, we learned how to handle rejection. Kurtins and I went deep into Social Game and how to vibe with cool people in social sitations. I suck with people but I strive every day to treat people with respect, be aware of peoples feelings, and help people.

I am grateful for God, Jesus, and all the people who serve others. I am grateful for the U.S.A. my grandparents, hot showers, hot food, long john silvers, teachers, missouri western, sporting kc, Royals, Chiefs, Mavericks, Penguins, Pacers, Nascar, Dale Earnhardt j.r.

I am grateful for Byrdman. He is always cool to everyone and easy going. He is a great person and with is new kid he has grown lots. I actually saw the growth the way he was describing dogs. His brother is also a great man who has trudged a tough road to manhood.

I am grateful for a bed to sleep in. The pope sleeps on the floor once a week to stay humble. I am cool with sleeping in my bed.