Tuesday, September 30, 2014
Tuesday
Monday night I went for a walk at 24-hour fitness. Then I came home to watch the Chiefs blow out the Patriots. I woke up on Tuesday. I did laundry and I vacuumed my room and went to hy-vee. Pretty productive day.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Weekend.
Saturday I worked all night it was o.k. Trying to get back to the exact same tone and attitude that my boss has. I know a good way to be good at life is trying to mirror someone who has walked the same path. Sunday I woke up and Andrea and I went to Aldi's. She made some chicken and we went to the boat. I was in a decent mood. I had made sure to get all my medicine up to date because working then going on the boat with people around can get me a bit annoyed. My parents showed up with the jet-ski and it went pretty well. I was a bit worried about getting hurt on the tube, but it all worked out. I got about 45 minutes of fishing in which is nice as well. I want to get 10 hours of fishing in before November. The Royals wrapped up a great season and play on Tuesday. Sporting KC has a huge problem at goal keeper. I took some pictures on the lake and about two of them I like. \
I connected a bit with this guy at work the other day, I let him know if you are going to be around people of value you have to be in a good mood or be able to fake it. Anyone who is worth anything has options to leave you out of their lives. He said that he was basically thinking the same thing earlier that day. Wavelengths on men go deep sometime.
I connected a bit with this guy at work the other day, I let him know if you are going to be around people of value you have to be in a good mood or be able to fake it. Anyone who is worth anything has options to leave you out of their lives. He said that he was basically thinking the same thing earlier that day. Wavelengths on men go deep sometime.
Saturday, September 27, 2014
Friday
Friday I came into work and I sent out an e-mail asking for tips to get better. I really need to slow down and treat everyone like a friend and stop being so business-like. Less robotic and more empathy. My boss said he liked the e-mail and I was the only one reaching out for help I know when bad things happen
Life goes on.
You win some, you lose some.
This, too, shall pass.
You can't please everybody.
We live and learn.
Don't sweat the small stuff.
Remember that sometimes bad things lead to the best things.
Life goes on.
You win some, you lose some.
This, too, shall pass.
You can't please everybody.
We live and learn.
Don't sweat the small stuff.
Remember that sometimes bad things lead to the best things.
Friday, September 26, 2014
Friday
Friday I woke up and went for a 2-mile walk. Thursday was poker night and it seemed to go well with fun and white hot action. It was down to Molly and I for the win and I always ask to split the pot and that is what we did. I brought Birthday cake oreo's and that seemed to go over well. My dad told me not to eat the oreo's because I am low carbing on my diet so I didn't eat them. I have gone 10 or so days under 50 grams of carbs.
Thursday, September 25, 2014
Wednesday
Wednesday I went to work and I found myself to the bottom of the ranker board. My work took away sales and now we are graded on First Call resolution and team survey scores. My plan of action is to talk to my supervisor and to see what I can do to move up. Everyone gets dealt lousy hands and it is my job to take action with enthusiasm to get better!
The Royals lost yesterday. Today if things go well they could clinch a Playoff Spot. Tonight is poker. We are having pulled pork, Chicken wings, and some Oreo's if Molly K wants some.
On Wednesday I felt bad because I was towards the bottom of the rankings, but also I have a cold. I went to bed early. Thursday I had a list of things to do. Get my oil changed, go to Raymonds, pick up my prescription for my depression. I was able to get all those things done and I was also able to pick up some things for Poker Night. I was happy I was productive and I was happy I was able to get myself to do those things. Sometimes it is difficult to get myself to get my butt to get my oil changed or do every day chores. Today wasn't so bad. I was glad I was able to meet with Raymond. Nothing is more important to me than to be honest with another person to make sure I am on a good path and be successful. He was doing well. I also love to really make it a habit to goto AA meetings and make it a strong habbit to call and visit in person my sponsor. I thought about texting Raymond today to see when he wanted to meet, but I always want to TALK TO HIM LIVE. Sometimes I don't know what is going on unless I speak because tone of voice and body language is so important. I try to do exactly what successful people do and that incudes body language and voice tone. Anyway the point is that it is harder to hide my issues when I am in person or on the phone. That makes it easier for someone else to point out my issues and I can address them and correct them or have a plan of action to correct them.
Lets Go Royals.
Lets Go Chiefs
Lets go My fantasy team!
The Royals lost yesterday. Today if things go well they could clinch a Playoff Spot. Tonight is poker. We are having pulled pork, Chicken wings, and some Oreo's if Molly K wants some.
On Wednesday I felt bad because I was towards the bottom of the rankings, but also I have a cold. I went to bed early. Thursday I had a list of things to do. Get my oil changed, go to Raymonds, pick up my prescription for my depression. I was able to get all those things done and I was also able to pick up some things for Poker Night. I was happy I was productive and I was happy I was able to get myself to do those things. Sometimes it is difficult to get myself to get my butt to get my oil changed or do every day chores. Today wasn't so bad. I was glad I was able to meet with Raymond. Nothing is more important to me than to be honest with another person to make sure I am on a good path and be successful. He was doing well. I also love to really make it a habit to goto AA meetings and make it a strong habbit to call and visit in person my sponsor. I thought about texting Raymond today to see when he wanted to meet, but I always want to TALK TO HIM LIVE. Sometimes I don't know what is going on unless I speak because tone of voice and body language is so important. I try to do exactly what successful people do and that incudes body language and voice tone. Anyway the point is that it is harder to hide my issues when I am in person or on the phone. That makes it easier for someone else to point out my issues and I can address them and correct them or have a plan of action to correct them.
Lets Go Royals.
Lets Go Chiefs
Lets go My fantasy team!
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Wednesday
Wednesday I woke up and tried out my new duck dynasty rod and reel. It was a bit sketchy but was pretty nice. The pond I went to I think just has cat fish. So I threw some plastic grubs in and just made it wiggle around. It was nice to some fishing done and I am sure that at-least I can go back to the same place to get some fishing in. I paid 40 dollars and 60 dollars for the out of state fishing lic and a new rod and reel so hopefully I get 10 hours at-least of fishing in that would be 10 dollars an hour. I also got an important photo to show how important it is to get away from cell phones and pagers and into the out doors.
Tuesday night at work I did the command center for awhile. No big news just calling on people who were having issues. I get to walk around with a 3 ring binder which is nice.
I am on day 8 of low carb. I am not as low carb as my dad and some days like this morning I feel like crap. I was sore from walking and I was also just tired. It is the price you pay to get your weight down and better health long term. Every inch off your belly adds 10 years of your life or something. Andrea and I talked about Ali ....a dude we know who died. For me overdosing or killing yourself scares me because what if my mind goes down that path. What is my legacy. I have come to peace with I never know what is going to happen. I will try to be cool to people and help people and I will let God do his job. I feel good overall and one person made a comment that I didn't like and I could really feel it, that is because I am pretty sure of myself. I can always get good vibes from going to AA, listening to an Anthony Robbins tape, or talking to the guy at Dollar Tree.
I walked a bit on the treadmill and I need to have decent shoes on me because I am sure today because I walked in loafers. I am glad I made it a point to at-least get my rear end to the gym. Royals are doing awesome. Sporting KC won yesterday 3-0.
Tuesday night at work I did the command center for awhile. No big news just calling on people who were having issues. I get to walk around with a 3 ring binder which is nice.
I am on day 8 of low carb. I am not as low carb as my dad and some days like this morning I feel like crap. I was sore from walking and I was also just tired. It is the price you pay to get your weight down and better health long term. Every inch off your belly adds 10 years of your life or something. Andrea and I talked about Ali ....a dude we know who died. For me overdosing or killing yourself scares me because what if my mind goes down that path. What is my legacy. I have come to peace with I never know what is going to happen. I will try to be cool to people and help people and I will let God do his job. I feel good overall and one person made a comment that I didn't like and I could really feel it, that is because I am pretty sure of myself. I can always get good vibes from going to AA, listening to an Anthony Robbins tape, or talking to the guy at Dollar Tree.
I walked a bit on the treadmill and I need to have decent shoes on me because I am sure today because I walked in loafers. I am glad I made it a point to at-least get my rear end to the gym. Royals are doing awesome. Sporting KC won yesterday 3-0.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Sports
My fantasy football team won after big games from Antonio Brown and Levon Bell from the Steelers.
Monday and Tuesday.
Monday I found out that a man I know died of an overdose. Lots of people feel so bad out there through diseased brains. So I said a prayer for him. This is Andrea's first time with an addict/alcohol person die, so I wanted to make sure I came over and could see her reaction and be there for her. It becomes pretty normal after awhile because only like 3% of the people stay sober through various channels. It was o.k. we went to sleep. I had a dream that the Royals got cheated by the A's. There was a big win for the Royals yesterday. On Tuesday I woke up and I went to get my fishing Lic for missouri. That went smoothly. I got two cheap rods and reals so it is something for me to play with if we go boating this weekend or camping. It was about 100 dollars all together. I have a bit of buyers remorse because of the money, but I figure that anything that gets Andrea and I out doors for one day is decent. I need pliers as well now. Hopefully her nephew wants to go. My nephew doesn't like anything but video games.
Monday, September 22, 2014
The Weekend.
The weekend. Friday Andrea was mad at me. So I just read everything she said so I could prepare to parrot it back to her in situations where humor is needed. I woke up on Saturday and worked out a bit from 24-hour fitness I always try to get my moneys worth out of that place. I then took a nap and I woke up and was in terror. I took my medicine earlier in the day and I think that helped me calm down and instead of going straight to St. Joseph I went to my friend Matt the engineers first. then I went to St. Joseph. Missouri western has some weapons on offense and their secondary and defense was perfect. A shutout. Saturday I hung out with Andrea she was wasn't mad anymore and her dog survived. We went to BOCC so she could see St. Josephs best band. Sunday came up and I did laundry and then we made sure we couldn't go boating. We then went to St. Joseph to bowl with my parents. It was fun and my dad bowled well which was good. He had a combine fall on him earlier this year and now he is bowling in the 259's range. The Chiefs won and Royals are hanging tough. Andrea and I drove back to Kansas City and I wanted to make sure we went to an AA meeting. We don't get to go to meetings very much together so I wanted to absolutely get my butt to a meeting. There was a man there who was very aggressive and it was important experience to ignore that man and listen to people with good wisdom to get through life. The Serenity prayer is very good to comfort me and can be used as a tool to have God decide what is your job and what is Gods job. I spoke about this somewhat this weekend. In insurance or customer service you do the best you can and if the people are unhappy you let God do his job and decide what is best for everyone on earth. I do my job and provide the best vibe, a kind attitude, and do what I think is right for my job and then you give the outcome to God or the universe. Sometimes I don't know what God is but I can say Mother Nature or Universe and it is all God but it helps me understand that I do what I need to do and stop trying to control and make people happy. So overall the weekend was an A. I was on my knees counting my blessings that no one got run over by a car, or tractor this weekend. It was fun bowling with my parents and they both laugh and have fun. That makes going to work this week and taking care of my own business a bit easier knowing that if I take care of my Job and do things like go to AA and get my oil change that I have time to spend with my parents bowling and watch my dad bowl 259's.
Friday, September 19, 2014
FRIDAY RANDOM THOUGHTS
As I munched on beef jerky instead of a sugar snack I just realized how much you have to be at peace with being or feeling miserable sometimes. I logged lots of hours in AA. I logged lots of hours dieting. I logged lots of hours in the gym. Lots of those things can suck. Like suck really really really bad. You to either learn to like the pain and boredom knowing that it is for a greater life in the future, or at-least be at peace with it. If it just sucks and you don't believe it is for a greater cause you will be skipping work and eating donuts very quickly. Lots of times that drive over to Raymonds is not fun because it stirs up emotions of being honest and it stirs up emotions that I don't want to be there because I could be watching T.V. I always try to be at peace with those feelings and I know that I can get better and teach people how to get better. Dieting, working out, with people, with comedy, with whatever.
Friday Blog
Friday I woke up and felt pretty good. I went for a 2-mile walk. I want to keep my mind on always working out and taking care of my body. I didn't listen to music because I wanted to create and enforce that habit of always walking or doing something everyday. My weight gain is really causing me to change some of my behavior.
Thursday was fun. Sporting KC played well and won. Besler and Colin worked very hard to get to the balls played in by Saspirilla. Toni Davale was on fire and scored a couple goals and Dom Dwyer added a PK as well. It was a great time by my dad and I. Matt the Engineer and Monica were there so that was nice that we could go enjoy the game for friends. I had to give a couple of my tickets away because Andrea and mom couldn't go. That is O.K. Aj Robine went and I have never met the guy but I can always grow the game.
The Royals play a huge series tonight. The biggest series in 25 years.
Thursday was fun. Sporting KC played well and won. Besler and Colin worked very hard to get to the balls played in by Saspirilla. Toni Davale was on fire and scored a couple goals and Dom Dwyer added a PK as well. It was a great time by my dad and I. Matt the Engineer and Monica were there so that was nice that we could go enjoy the game for friends. I had to give a couple of my tickets away because Andrea and mom couldn't go. That is O.K. Aj Robine went and I have never met the guy but I can always grow the game.
The Royals play a huge series tonight. The biggest series in 25 years.
Thursday, September 18, 2014
Walk 2 miles
I went for a walk today for 2 miles. It was nice. Hoodie and shorts. That is the best weather.
Wednesday and Thursday
Wednesday was a normal night at work. I am in the top 70% after a weird set of rules came down for management. They want to make sure our focus is just on the customer and not selling the next couple of months. I am a decent salesmen so it hurt me. Andrea gave me the text every man hates to hear. Her dog got hit by a car. I was glad that I was sober and there to help. The dog seems to being doing o.k. but who knows how that will turn out. I went by Raymonds today for my weekly Jam session of how life is getting better. We talked about the dog being hit and other things. He seems to be doing better and like my goal is every day I try to be patient and loving towards people. I also try to put myself in other peoples shoes. Tonight is game day for Sporting KC and the Royals did awesome yesterday. I talked to Bryce today. He is a man alright!
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Thursday
Thursday I woke up and took a shower. I went to an AA meeting at noon. I was able to help some people. I had a good time yesterday at the Flaming Lips show. They sound better live than on the albums. They had plenty of trippy things going on. They are legends and the word of mouth about their shows held up pretty well. I would rate the show a B+. We were blessed with some great weather. The opening band was pretty bad. They had good songs, but the songs didn't sound finished and their lead singer was garbage and their backup lead singer was garbage, but the drums and (Two bass guitars?!) sounded good. They had a deep sound and good riffs, but like I said their front man and front girl was not good. I was able to watch some of Manchester United vs QPR. It was in Danish though. I was able to download the New England Revs game to my phone. I have UFC fight night 51 ready to watch after work. Overall it was a good day. I am blessed that my sister Sheree got me free tickets yesterday. Cortland ate a big slice of pizza. He beat halo OST as well which is quite a feat and one that I am not sure I believe. Tomorrow is Sporting KC vs Sparina in a CCL game. No idea how that is going to turn out.
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
My trip to Micro Center and other random stories.
My laptop didn't work last week. I think a bad cable was the culprit. So I ordered a new cable. Of course the new cable didn't fit. This is the third thing from Amazon that has flat out sucked. 2 sims games didn't work, one memory card lost from amazon, mp3 player dumped in water, one card shuffler that is the biggest pile of dooo dooo ever. I went to micro-center and I bought a cord and I sat down right in the way to try it out because the guys micro-center wouldn't let me try it out before I buy it. Anyway I guess I am glad the cord worked, but it would have been nice customer service to let me try out the cord before I bought it. I then went to a Shell gas station where someone stunk. I don't know if they passed gas or if they had been bathing in turds but someone stunk and I could hear these girls snickering. I turned around and let them know it was me and I had been eating taco bantito all day. They laughed even though I doubt they knew what Taco Bantito is. Should have gone with an in-a-tub reference.
Tuesday
Tuesday I woke up and I felt hungover. I had worked hard then came up to hang out with Andrea. Andrea always has lots of logs on the fire and is always trying to do so much that she gets overwhelmed. That is what it is like for lots of people, but instead of cutting out some of the stuff she just gets overwhelmed for awhile then goes back to work. I was proud that she listened to the mp3's I made on the trip. She dropped the mp3 player I bought in the water, but I knew that if she got some comfort out of the mp3's that it would be worth the time and effort that I put into it. I was pretty upset today as well. I stepped on the scale and I weighted 220 pounds. I just weighed myself at 210 pounds a month ago and I started to count calories. I lost interest in that when work became tougher and I began eating pizza, rice crispy treats, and chicken sandwhiches. So I mean I knew what I was putting in my body and now I am paying the price. I am going to go back to cutting out bread and carbs for today. One day at a time. It is hard to lose weight and keep it off. It is also hard not to beat yourself up. I really focus on work, keeping Andrea's house from burning down, and keeping myself going to AA and staying sober. So I am not going to get too upset about my weight. I still have lots of positives in my life and as long as I keep doing work I will be o.k. I am glad as well I have experience of getting back on the horse and I am glad I at-least care about my weight. I know lots of people completely give up.
Monday, September 15, 2014
Monday
This weekend was garbage for my sports teams. Sporting KC did manage to win against Chivas USA. I have been playing pick em and I almost won the damn thing this week. I picked Denver and the Rams to win with the total of those games being 75 and the score was 77. My fantasy team got killed. RGIII got killed. I was proud of myself for cleaning up Andreas house a bit and buying her flowers for when she got home. She had fun on her trip. I made her an mp3 with important speakers and other inspirational stuff for her trip and she said she used it. That made me feel good because I know how uneasy it can be on a trip. At work they stopped including sales and now me, keith, and ralph our stats look not good. I talked to my Supervisor and he said not to sweat it. He wants me to focus on this Command center they are building that I am going to be trained on. Life seems to be a game on who can stay calm and cool under the ups and downs. That is what I am reminded of all the time. Everyone is going to have stress and curve balls and being overloaded. Who can small chunk your day and not get all bent out of shape and remain calm and keep breaking up your days into small pieces. I felt good tonight and I went to Andrea's. The Royals pulled out a miracle win. Denny Matthews Called it. He said that this felt like a game the Royals were charmed to win. Lots of bloop hits and things going the Royals way. The Royals have found a way to win games and The White Sox have found ways to loose games. He has seen billions of games and he was right. I did laundry today and I watched L.A. Galaxy vs. D.C. United. I also listened to Flaming Lips. I am planning on seeing their show tomorrow. At first listen they really miss notes and sound not good, but I listened to them really hard today and they really grew on me. I really have to give music a chance. I hated a tons of bands first listen, but then they really start to get into your mind, then heart, and soul. Of course there are bands like The Beatles who by the time they are in the mainstream have a tight sound with talent. Sad to see Mo West lose, but Greg zurline with the winning kick for the Rams...He played for Mo West!
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Weekend
At work they aren't including sales in rankings for the rest of the year. Which is bad for me because my sales are good. Bla...part of being successful is rolling with the punches. Andrea got home and I made sure I did my boyfriend duty by being there when she got home. She enjoyed the trip. Sunday I woke up not covered in throw up and not in jail because I didn't go out and party. I am going to The Champions League game on Thursday and I need to let my dad know about the game on Thursday.
Thursday, September 11, 2014
September 11th
Yesterday the Royals really stepped up. They won and now I can start to enjoy the rest of the baseball season again. Great job by James Shields. They are back at it tonight. I woke up today with a jackhammer right next to my window. I was upset and started out the day horrible. I regained my attitude by praying a bit and asking God to show me the way. God said that the people outside are just trying to put food on their table just like everyone else in the world. Construction all over the place and sidewalks closed were trying to make me mad, but I hung tough. I was able to go for a two mile walk today. I haven't had a chance to walk because I work all the time and just keep up on my personal business. Tuesday I went for two small walks, but today I had the chance to walk my full two miles and it felt great. I got my football picks in this week. Denver winning and St. Louis winning with the total score of 75. I met with Raymond today which is very very very very important to me. I always want to keep the habit going of having another person check over to see how I am doing so I don't get off the path of success. We talked about my dads birthday party and how it went well and how the Chiefs suck and the Royals are doing well. I vow to work on a nightly inventory to make sure I write down that I have been loving to all, and thought how I can help others, and how I try to be unselfish. I was able to donate to the United Way which feels good. Often I don't feel good about donating, but I know my money will buy diapers and baby stuff for people and that makes me feel good. Overall today I feel better than normal. I am grateful not to be hungover and I love shorts and hoodie weather. I am glad that I have this baby laptop to type on. My other laptop isn't working and I hope it is just the power chord. I haven't checked my fantasy team this week, but I know I am 1-0. Jason and Sarah seem to be doing good. I went to Andrea's house while she was away yesterday and I really feel like I need a handgun when I am there alone. It is creepy as all get out. She needs a dog there at all times to bark when people are around. I am thinking about texting vinnie today because I have a feeling he needs a pick me up after the chiefs sucking. Bryce is a Mans man. I have been trying to get an internet chat party going during Royals games. It has been going o.k. Overall like I said I feel decently today. I am glad I don't have school or homework anymore. I am glad my dad's birthday party went well. I am glad my mom provided my dad with a good birthday party. I am glad and grateful I have running water and a toilet. I am glad I got the camping trip out of the way. I am glad Andrea and I are able to hit AA meetings and not be in jail. IF you knew how many people are in detox every week because of Alcholism it would shock you. It's like I live two lives....one of normal people at work who do ok for themselves and the other life of being around people who feel so spiritually, mentally, and emotionally sick that they have to chug booze just to survive. Sad indeed, but I do my part by staying sober, telling my story, and just being there to listen to people. I had a person sit with me yesterday at work and I was able to share my story about how I am in the top 20 in sales most of the time. I am grateful whenever I go to work I am almost always in the top 20 out of 100 workers. That is pretty good and I think that is a bit of luck, but mostly I take advantage of being able to get to work early and I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO ASK FOR HELP and always get better. If you aren't getting better you are getting worse. You have to always work on relationships, skills, money, attitude, whatever it is or you are getting worse. I am grateful for youtube and the internet. Even when I am tired and feel crappy I can listen to talks by motivational speakers and it gives me hope for the future.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
tuesday
I have been praying for a bit of a break as of late because we are always busy at work. Today I was offered a chance to go home because we weren't busy and I took it. I went to Andrea's house to make sure everything was o.k. there. I took a glance at the weather and it didn't look good. I parked my jeep inside because it is my baby. You wouldn't leave a live baby in the rain would you...WOULD YOU??? I am praying for my buddy Russ tonight. I am active in Alcoholics everywhere and I know how much mental pain people go through trying to stay sober through tough times. He is having a rough time and my thoughts are with him. In tough times my plan is always to let Raymond or even my dad just tell me what to do so I take my emotions out of the situation and take action with a level headed person telling me what to do. I also know there are always plenty of numbers for me to reach out too if I am humble enough to use them. My dad's birthday is today and what can I say. He is the toughest, most unselfish, hard worker, good dude that I know. I have only heard good things about him and he is a hard catholic that doesn't try to "save" people. I have tried to take my work ethic, my giving back, and so much more from him. I also have a bit of his list of things to do down. One of the things that I have gotten from him that has brought me lots of relief is just a routine of boating or doing whatever. Boating or just the attitude of getting things ready for boating has helped me in other area's of life. I love that my dad always goes to work no matter what and he always has cool toys. My dad has always gained skills and he has always prayed and I think God has blessed our family with decent health and Cortland. I love my dad and I loved the game when it was pouring at sporting kc and we won on a Bunbury goal and it was so cold and I ate so much left over meat after we won. My parents also worked hard to get me to Leblond which I think kept me out of trouble, got me into football, and I met Bryce and the elder statesman. The Elder statesman pointed out important things my freshman year and continues to be a good Catholic person. I talk to people all the time that had a bad high school experience, but mine was mostly good with lots of friends that I have had for life. Lots of good people who worked a zillion hours on the education. I am grateful for the time I spent in the Ozarks. Sending me to Leblond I was able to hang out with kids who's parents had money and lake houses. The memories down at the lakehouses are some of the most special memories I have. I was young boozed up and just having a blast. I think that is the kind of feeling heaven will provide. Carefree and having fun. I have thoughts on heaven. I think heaven is going to be a state of mind and not so much being physical. It is going to be a euphoric feeling of wholeness with the creator. I have been praying a lot and I have tried to seek out a power greater than me because it is the only way I have a sense of ease. When I am not praying (Or taking my lexapro haha) I have a constant uneasy feeling. I miss Andrea a bunch. I of course don't understand how much she means to me until she is gone. She is a maniac at working, she is a great athlete, and a deep thinker. She provides me all the laughs and love that a person could ever want. She has a titanic amount of brain power that sometimes is truly a bit scary what she gets done.
Gratitude list: My mom made my dads birthday party a success.
Leblond
football
Royals
SKC
Byrdman
Elderstatesman
Dad
Mom
Running Water
Toilets
Airplanes
Snacks
Funyons
Gratitude list: My mom made my dads birthday party a success.
Leblond
football
Royals
SKC
Byrdman
Elderstatesman
Dad
Mom
Running Water
Toilets
Airplanes
Snacks
Funyons
Tuesday
Tuesday I woke up in a bad mood. Construction and lack of sleep ruined my morning. I won my first fantasy football week. I tried to get my picks in for this weekend and the website was down. I am struggling to get a computer to be able to sync music and video with my phone. That has sucked. I am wearing a blue polo and brooks brothers pants. This is lots of money in clothes. I am glad my brooks brothers pants still fit. My diet has been crap as of late, but getting a bit better. I weighed 210 the other day and that was up from 196 in April. I have been struggling to just get through the work day and get to AA meetings so I am going to forgive myself if I don't hit my marks on my diet, as long as I am going to work and being productive and I am not out partying I can look myself in the eye and know I am doing everything I can to help the people around me feel good. I feel decent about myself. My dad's birthday party went well. I did everything in my power to heal and make sure his ribs were o.k. Someone else is mowing the lawn and I bought him a gift card. I didn't know I was supposed to give him cash, but I figure $60 bucks he can go to wal-mart and get a new toy or tablet or something fun. That is all for today. I have been selling o.k. I had a sell yesterday that I think wasn't going well I don't think the guy understood what he was buying, so I aborted the sale. I did what I think was right even though it cost me a sale. My conscience says I did the right thing. Character and doing good things is all we have lots of times. Prayers go out for my friend Johnathon he has cancer, prayers for the hungry people in this world, prayers to my dads ribs and his bowling stroke. I pray for peace as always in the middle east as well.
Monday, September 8, 2014
Monday Morning blog
The Royals did awesome this weekend. I hate the Yankees. My dads party went well. There was lots of people there and we as a family are blessed. The Chiefs were awful this weekend and so was Sporting KC. Thiery Henry had an awesome goal though. I ate lots of delicious food and my dad and I went for a long convertable ride. It was was boating without the boat day! I didn't get much else done but I did do some laundry and just vacuumed a bit at Andrea's house. I got my dad a card and a wal-mart gift card. It is nice to work really hard and buy things for other people. It makes me feel warm and fuzzy on the inside.
Thursday, September 4, 2014
Work
Today I sat with my supervisor Aaron. He wanted me to work on certain aspects of my work life. We did a review and he had nothing but good things to say. He said I related to customers as a human. That I was kind and professional. I could work on slowing down but overall he loved what I was doing. This made me feel good as I spend every breathe in my body getting better at work and at being patient and having compassion to people. I strive to really be cool to people and that way I know that I am doing my best to play nice with others. NFL kicks off tonight. Go team and or community college. I spend lots of my time during my day with people and I know that I need to be repectful and be patient, loving and tolerant.
Royals win again
Royals win again. I met with Raymond today. We talked about working out of service. It was good. I am going to lay down now.
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
Tuesday
Tuesday I tried a different selling style that my boss wanted me to do. We have these things called exeptions that aren't good and I am fearful that I may have gotten one. I will trust my boss that he knows better than me and that things will work out. Everyday and every way I am growing. The Royals won yesterday and sporting kc is on tonight. I went for a two-mile walk today and it was special because I added a walk around the cemetery. I added some speaker tapes to the mp3 which I am going to give to Andrea before her vacation. That is about it. The secret to life is giving!
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Always taking action
I have some goals that I am always trying to achieve. I want to stay sober. I want to improve myself day in and day out no matter how small. I like to watch self-development videos. I want to master my state of mind so when I am in a bad mood I can change it on the fly. I like to educate others about all the educational mp3s I have listened to over the years. I know even though it doesn't always come out in my action I have listened to hours and hours of self-development mp3's and read lots of writing on the subject.
Labor Day weekend.
I had some goals to get accomplished this Labor day. I wanted to not get arrested. Not wake up Monday morning hungover, and not anger my girlfriend too bad. I was able to accomplish all three. What a great feeling accomplishing goals feels.
Over the weekend I went boating with my girlfriends parents. It was very beautiful out and it provided good pictures. I was able to enjoy Thunderstorms. Monday was the big day. The big day to head to Menards for the big Labor day sale. we were able to really see what they had in stock and enjoy ourselves.
Over the weekend I went boating with my girlfriends parents. It was very beautiful out and it provided good pictures. I was able to enjoy Thunderstorms. Monday was the big day. The big day to head to Menards for the big Labor day sale. we were able to really see what they had in stock and enjoy ourselves.
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