Monday

I didn't sleep well on Sunday night. I ate some to help me fall asleep which I hate to do, but I figure I need to get some sleep. I woke up and I just wanted to concentrate on hitting my goals today. Get my medicine ordered, take my back my gloriously overdue video games. Get to work... and start working on getting back on my game. I was pretty cool to people. I mean I like people. My class gave me a card and they gave me snacks for doing a good job. It was a nice gesture but the only thing I feel is sadness and depression. I know tough times and winter doesn't last so I will just little by little get back to AA and get back to being of service. I take comfort in getting stronger and wiser. I had lots of great feedback as my time as the trainer and I was visable and I got great experience. I have to work on not having a bitter attitude about it. There was plenty of people who applied for that job and I got it. I just couldn't succeed this time. I am going to keep working and have the best attitude possible. Just because I am broken doesn't mean everything is broken, in fact the only thing really wrong is I am dissapointed. It hurts my feelings. Stuff happens though. Learn, grow, and move on.