Tuesday

Tuesday I woke up in a pretty shitty mood. I think 3 out of 10 would be how I felt. I didn't go work out because that sounded shitty at the time. I played video games. I like to imagine that I am one man team. We race the 32' coupe legends car. I raced a dirt track and took second. There was only 2 people racing though haha. I went to work and the main this is I fucked up on the piece list. I grabbed 8905 instead of 8906 a easy mistake to make. I thought I had made all the mistakes. The good news is I canceled those and I fixed it. Back in the day shit was just left for brad to deal with. Brad is the 3rd shift production guy and he is a whale of a good worker. People didn't bitch me out and I just worked my way through the day. I did long piece lists which makes it feel like I didn't do shit. I am supposed to build batches and everyone grades each other on how many batches you get done and when I only get 2 or 3 it fucking sucks. I am ok with it. Tomorrow I am just going to learn from my mistakes. I have to re up my stratera which will help me focus more. I take two medcines. 1 welbutrin for depressin and stratera for ADD and Stratera is fucking expensive as fuck. As long as I take my medicine and work as hard as I can I guess I can't really control people places or things or outcomes. I am also needing to get back to doing something for an hour that I am not in the mood to do. I have just been slacking on doing the things that need to be done when I am not in the mood. As an adult and a vision for myself. I want to wake up and make my bed have nice tighty shit clean care good work at work then come home eat well and work out and sleep and then have some fun playing video games. Unfortunately or fortunately I have depression which zaps my mood and energy and interest and fucks everything up. I got hope though if I just do a little at the time I can get better overall. I pray for the people in vegas as well. I am so spoiled with everything at my figer tips. Movies, games, hot and cold water. Internet books sports. Hockey. I can eat what food I want. The list goes on and on and sometimes I have to think about how much freedom I have. Check myself before I wreck myself.