#2 accomplishment getting sober

It takes balls to stop just stuffing feelings doing shots hitting on chicks and being a fuck boy and starting to pay money get mentors pay more money for therapy and medication and spend a fuck ton on time and effort and getting humbled and your ego annihilated but that is what it takes to face the world without booze and weed. It sucks but dying a sick ass death is not very cool and that is the biggest problem I had was I was taking on so much bullshit because I had no coping skills I had to stuff and drink and after awhile drinking wasn't getting me by. So wallah no more drinking and spending money and time and now I wake up with anxiety and dread but I am not super ass sick with my head over my toilet begging for death every Monday. Also I don't break my glasses or phone or lose my wallet as much. The worst thing is just living with pain. Like this girl destroyed my advance for more than friends and I just had to eat shit until it passed, then it came back up when she got married and I just had to go through the motions and get by but inside was crushed. Alas that is what most of my time is now is living and embracing emotions. Holy shit I just ran spell check. Progress in my writing skills! FUCK YEAH. I got better at the scissor lift and heights yesterday. Yay me as well. Driving a scissor lift will show up on my accomplishment list in the future