Guitar and Drum blog log 04/28/

I was able to practice some drums. I sat down and played 4 minutes of 16th notes which is pretty good. I recorded it on mp3 and I played guitar with my own drum beat. It sounded like this me messing on the 5th string mostly maaanammm nammanamm mannaaaaam naaaannaaamm. My guitar playing and drumming is now safely in a .wav file on my computer

Changing my clothes

Nice cool t-shirt is always welcomed after work, but I put on the deoderant that isn't the white powdery kind. Now I just feel greesy. Blog to self. By the white deoderant.

I ususally get this veggie burrito thing off of taco beuno's meal deal. Not because it is healthy, Just because I like rice and the way it tastes. I get these BC chicken taco's as well which have 200 cals each. Today they had cheese them on them. Cheese a is a real calorie adder. If you can just cut out cheese from your diet you would probably be 2 pounds lighter a year. It was delicious though. Cheese and chicken is delicious. We better alert the st joe news press for this breaking news.

logging what I did with drums today.

Listened to some advice and tips for 15 minutes Hopefully I get some time to practice soon

Feeling good April 28th 2011

Feeling good. Feeling good...it is what I want the most.
I don't like to be angry, frustrated, having envy, to have anything
missing. I just want to feel good. It takes alot of things to go correctly
for me to feel good. I am working on making myself feel good without
outside things. Today I am working on to focus on the good things. I have
to really visualize a blurry picture then bring it into focus. What do I see?
Friends and I laughing, clean air to breathe, rested with my mind calm. My mind wants
to wander into what could happen later, but lets just focus on the now.

I had a moment today where I felt 10 out of 10 on the serienty scale. One of my friends was cracking me up, I was rested, had some time just to just kick it. Those moments are rare! If I am called on to remember "A good time" I can really picture it in my mind right now. So now I have a blog bookmarked at a time and place in my life where I felt good.

One other time in my life I remember very clearly was when Raymond asked me what my plans were on a Monday. I said, nothing, I am just going to take it easy. Now it was the first time I said, I am going to take it easy, and actually do it. I have to work on taking it easy, what really goes in in my life is my mind races, I go through tons facebook posts, I watch 3 or 5 diferent shows, I have a cell phone, email, txting going on. I rarely ever focus on taking it easy. So now I know what taking it easy involves.

Royals blog Treanor sucks

The royals are coming back down to earth. Their starting pitching sucks. Hochavor is a #3 in my mind on a good team. I had him as a kevin brown type of pitcher at best. At worst he is another Kyle Davies. That guy who is short is starting to suck to. Collins. God he sucks, and he is short, short people piss me off, short people with beards piss me off. Melky parked one yesterday. That was fun. Splitt looks terrible, Ryan and Frank and getting very fussy with the losses and the weather. I bet we lose 90 games this year. Hosmer is batting 1 million which gives me hope.

April 27th 2011

Spent some time working on Metophors. How they help or hurt your quality of life.

If you think that life is a war, you will percieve your life to be a struggle.
If you think of it as a game, then you might not take it so serious.
If you say your life is a bowl of cherries...then that is say...your
life is delicious.

I like to think of my life as just a tribute to God right now. Makes me feel good right now to get through the day when I just try to be my best for Jesus. Helps take some of the guess work on what I am going to do next as well. I am going to do the next right thing! That is what I am going to do!

wrote some jokes or funny stories.

From Fazoli's food inc.

Dear whomever is stealing our flyers... We take great pride in the amount of work
that goes into making our flyers. It takes some very Talented people to make our food look edible on those things. So please stop taking them, or we will wack your face with a breadstick.

Random notes april 26th 2011

Bill Simmons...his podcasts are awesome. The show is awesome, he isn't that awesome, but he has awesome guests, he always has some great things to say like "why don't we have straight on kickers anymore" so anyway I get some time yesterday and load up a podcast and the entire hour and a half is about reality tv. So I am trying to be entertained by this Piece of crap podcast, but it isn't really doing it for me right now. Evidently there is a new show coming out where if you got into a fist fight on either road rules or real world, now you will be paired up to try to win money on a reality show called Rivals. I wish there was a sports one so we could see like bill Lambeer and Charles Barkley fist fight for 50 dollars in cash gold!

What about Billy Butler and a Salad. Kila Kalahui Vrs a Off speed pitch, Josh Hamilton vs crackpipe

Never Up Never in

Never up Never In.

Packer loves the term "Never up never in" This term comes from Golf.
If you never get it to the hole it can never go in the hole.
Wayne Gretzky said "You miss 100% of the shots you don't take"
This principle has served me well this year Volunteering, helping out,
taking on projects, and asking out girls from Pizza Maker.
I was first exposed in college how hard it is just to show up. Just going
to class seperates some students from passing or failing. It is impossible not to
learn if you just show up to class. Many times I would have my head down trying to sleep off a hangover, the teacher would pass out some sort of paper and I would read it. I would learn something when I was trying my hardest not to learn. Get your body there, and the mind will follow. This lesson goes for adults as well. My senior year of college my final class was Business 501. We were assigned a local business man and worked for him. The idea was to learn from a real world business owner. This man could barely walk, probably because he had ten pounds of stolen Ryan's Buffet Butter in his pocket. He showed up a couple times, then never showed up again. He had three hungry, educated, young people who had paid good money for this class, and he couldn't get there to work with us. At the time I thought it he was an outlier, but now I know that there is much to be gained by simply showing up.

Drumming nerd

I love drumming, it is fun. I need to record some drummers of youtube doing their thing. I am going to spend sometime today on Monday listening to drummers. Maybe 15-30 minutes should be fine. My Favorite drummers are Danny carrey from tool, chad sexton from 311, John Bohnom, and the drummer for alien ant farm.

Fruit Salad

"I am eating fruit salid with lots of different fruit. I would be too lazy to pick all this fruit out at a grocery store and cut it up myself, so I going to savor this watermelon"

This weekend was easter. Friday was alright, just chilled, watched some sports. I felt alright, usually I am wiped out from the week. Saturday, I packed up some things and went to st joseph. I played pinball on Xbox 360. Well first off the TV situation was all messed up. No sound on this HD Dynex tv, my dad has a soundbar for it and it wasn't working. 25% of pinball is the sounds of the bumpers, and the bells and whistles going off. In fact I think that is where the term "bells and whistles" came from is pinball. I played one table called "Speed" it sucked. It was the first table that came with this downloadable game. I then played Secrets of the deep, Rome, BioLab, and Persia. The tables are all fun and I would guess a normal person would be entertained for an hour with each table. I love it, pinball relaxes me for some reason. Maybe it is because when I turn on other games I have to do all this nonsense, but with pinball it is simple.

april 23 2011

Today started out better than I thought. I sometimes have crushing anxiety especially when I go back to St. Joseph. I have to make sure I take some clothes, my phones, and any crap that my parents want me to bring back. I had bad anxiety LAST Saturday, so this Saturday wasn't nearly as bad. I thing the thing with my anxiety that helps is just do something ANYTHING and it passes. So I drove back to St Joseph. I listed to a cd that had some songs by Mgmt and interpol. It wasn't too bad. I went to us bank and deposited a check, then I went to wal-mart to use their bathroom and pick up a 4 gig memory stick. I like messing around and trying to download shows when I come back to st joseph. I got to play some pinball fx 2 with my nephew for awhile, then watched parks and recreation. Played guitar for awhile. Ate some hot dogs and cheese and rice. I blogged. It was a pretty good day. 5-6 I plan on just relaxing then watch the royals game and sleep.

Guitar blog : Road house blues from the doors.

fresno state bulldogs

I have won back to back games on last second 3 pointers. The last one was impressive, it was a shot 10 feet from behind the arc. Splooshzilla.

April 22nd 11

Yesterday my mp3 player was stolen from the front of my door. Fex Ex put that they dropped it off at my front door. So I looked for a couple hours called the apartment complex office, it is not anywhere. Soooooooo I will call Fex Ex and geeks.com to try to get that replaced. We will see, I handled the situation the best I knew how, but I was pretty angry. My theory is there is always kids playing around my door and they picked it up and are now downloading some Tech-Nine onto my mp3 player. The worst part about it is that I am making a large mistake by already playing senerio's in my mind that the next thing I am having delivered "Williams pinball for xbox 360" is going to get stolen as well. I know that my mind can tell the difference beween what I am thinking and what actually happened so my emotions are that I have had 100 mp3 players stolen and 20 xbox games stolen, that is approx the amount of times I have played it in my head. I talked to people about it I am taking action such as praying for the souls that stole my mp3 player. A common method to be at peace is to pray for your enemy's. Usually I would pray they would crash into an aids tree, but I worked hard into praying that these guys enjoy my gigs upon gigs of mp3s.

April 21st

On various websites I visit. Chiefsplanet.com I like to sometimes be a smartass. Nothing cracks me up more than someone starting a thread. like "What is a good set of headphones?" I then provide a link that everyone thinks is going to be headphones, but it instead brings you to the checkout portion of Amazon.com to by the hit movie Tango and Cash.

I really love Rany, but he really is a sad sad royals fan. Even the hardend baseball nerds I know (real and on the internet, don't really give a crap about the super-two rule in baseball) This was Rany's line about the super-two today

"Everyone obsesses about the Super-Two Deadline" haha I am not sure Dayton Moore even Obsesses about the super-two deadline.

Today In Gaming

First off I am mad about this thing called Xbox arcade. It is a waste, never download it. Ever. My first game out was rough with the fresno bulldogs in ncaa 2k8. I am not sure offense to run. We ran the colorado stack and motion at St. James grade school. I wish you could design that offense. It was great. Anyway I ment to take minutes away from this trashy player "duncan" but instead it took him off the team and put him as a reserve! He has a 70 overall. I have to find a way to work him in but not ever touch the ball. When I was coach for the citidal I had no one that could shoot, now I do have two guys that can shoot, but I don't trust this game to not cheat me. I want a dunk or layup. Anyway I extended my lead out and won the game, basicly because the team around are better than the citidal, they steal balls shoot well and it isn't just me doing the pick and roll everytime. I have some good recruits that I am emailing and traveling. One has an A+ in Athlete skills. Now this will be joy because I have been playing this game for along time and only one guy could even dunk the ball. That was Maclin. This game lets me cheat if you have a guy who can jump, it lets you go into this dunking motion and draw blocking fouls at a crazy rate by flicking the right stick. So I am ready to get my dr. dunkin stien on.

April 20th 2011

The Royals are playing well. That is nice. I expect Soria to get better, but the starting pitching to get worse. I haven't seen a Royals player play as well with the batt and in the field as Alex Gordon is. He is truely Dominating. It isn't very fun to just hit singles, and I know his heart is in mashing, but hey suck it up butter cup. He can run as well. Just a great game yesterday, I love dominating games, but not at the expense of the team. Hi Dwight Howard.

I got home in yesterday and wasn't as warn out as I ususally am. I was able to eat some fish and lift some weights. When you are trying to be your best you should eat Lean Green and Marine. Lean being lean meat, Green being veggies, Marine being fish.

I was able to practice guitar for a bit and practice drums for a bit. Practice and almost learned roadhouse blues on guitar, and practice my swiss drum rolls. I honestly was looking for Swiss cake rolls on youtube, but came across the swiss roll. which consists of hitting a drum with a right hand flam and then R-L
Right hand flam is when you put your left hand an inch or two off of the drum and you take your right hand and put it about 6 inches above a drum and you hit the drum to gether. Thn you hit the drum with your right hand then left hand. If I can do that for awhile and get my mind off the war in vietnam. I have some peace.

April 19th

Hmmmmm go for awalk, get my oil changed or go to jiffy lube. My car was overdue to get an oil change. I put it off awhile, I also made myself feel better by looking up the phrase "How long can my car go without an oil change." Luckily Jordon at the Jiffy Lube shop got me in and out pretty fast. They love to talk about the weather there at Jiffy Lube. I guess if I had to smell car farts all day long, I would be doing anything to take my mind off the day ahead. I actually cleaned some of the cups and sunflower seeds out of my car before going in, well by cleaning I mean I put them into the cooler in my trunk.

Alright. Now I can finally listen to 98.9 as I set it as a preset on my mp3 player. I actually set it as 3 presets? Why? I was born to rock. I like the ability to put the mp3 player next to the speaker to watch drumming lessons on youtube. I can't imagine trying to learn guitar or drums back in the stone ages (the 70's).

In my season of ncaa 2k8 I took a job at fresno state. I didn't know fresno was in california until I went to the map. We are the bull dogs, there is a dude on the team name Forman that sucks balls. My only requirement on my team is to have a guy 7 foot so I can play the skills part and raise up his "attack basket" skills. This dude sucks so much ass and the computer thinks that the pick and roll should go through him. So I have to figure out a way to never get this guy the ball. This game is hella deep as far as recruiting. I have to write down peoples names that I ask for "recruit game film" as freshman because I forget that he looked good when I recruited him. I am eventually going to move up to get a job at Mizzou so I can unlock the Quinn Snyder feature and do some blow.

Red Lobster cheddar bizkits

Guy on the Nerdist had a bit that reminded me of here. Talking about how, at the time of Michael Jackson's death, the fanpage for Red Lobster's Cheddar Biscuits became ground zero for mourning fans. Just pages of people reminiscing about Michael, then an occasional person not in the know posting about how awesome Red Lobster Cheddar Biscuits are, then people admonishing him that 'now is not the time.'

April 17th

Hah. "I saw a guy with a sign that said 'Will work for food.' so I gave him a coconut." - ?????

I used to be a kleptomaniac, now I take something for that.

Trying to do some ms paint things for an idea of a story called "Type A" lady.

Friday

Yes. Friday. Penguins play tonight. Yes

Writing songs

Start of a new song I wrtone

Brown Curly Hair
Freakles in the air
How'd you like to get down
for some brown chicken brown-cow

Your face is brown and leathery
Like a Catchers mitt you see
You can catch some kisses from me
Please don't throw me out at second.


I just had an unenjoyable experience
Freckles forgot to bring me a paper plate
Now I am going to be hella late
for getting taco salad on my slacks
and brownies on my tits.

Paul Rieser

The other day, I showed snugga a picture of what was inside my Fridge What was in my Bridge was a book by Paul Reiser and some weights. Paul Reiser is a legend in New York ! He really grinded out years of comedy, mostly not dirty, which is legendary. He was in some crumby shows like my two dads and Thunder in paradise, but really hit it big when he was on a show called Mad About You. In that show he was married to Big Bird's twin Helen Hunt. They had a dog, a dude with a large forhead, and plenty of trouble. I remember the show being pretty good but I bet it really holds up well because the amount of talent on and around the show. Wouldn't be surprised if Larry David was somehow involved. Anyway Byrdman says that Paul Rieser is in trouble again, probably because my Two dads is coming out on blue ray and they want some plublicity. I think the other dad on my Two dads gave billy ray cyrus the idea for his "look". Mullet rocker with a 5 o'clock shadow and a midnight attitude.

excersize blog 50 leg lifts serveral trips to my car today !

Praying to St. Anthony.

Well I ususally get snarky when people pray to saints, especially St. Anthony. Hey St. Anthony, give me my stuff back! That is what I usually think of when I hear people praying to St. Anthony.

"Saint Anthony, perfect imitator of Jesus, who received from God the special power of restoring lost things, grant that I may find (mention your petition) which has been lost. As least restore to me peace and tranquility of mind, the loss of which has afflicted me even more than my material loss.

To this favor I ask another of you: that I may always remain in possession of the true good that is God. Let me rather lose all things than lose God, my supreme good. Let me never suffer the loss of my greatest treasure, eternal life with God. Amen. "

ahhhh so you not only pray for the mp3 player that I lost...with bryce's podcast on there, but you also pray for peace and serenity. Well that makes much more sense than. Yo St. Anthony, give me the 5 bucks I lost.

April 14th 2011

Woke up and started to think the normal thoughts. How am I going to get the day off today? Then thought about some things that sucked, death, the flu, infomercials.
Even though I don't take the day off, just thinking about taking multiple days off makes me feel good enough to take the next right action. Thinking about baseball makes me feel good. Thinking about Eric Hosmer and his 10000 homeruns he is going to hit makes me feel like a chocolate pumpkin.

On woot today they were selling a toolkit and the tagline for it was "just think he much screwing will do with this skil toolset.

I love my blue shorts, first off they have a zillion pockets. Which I can put mp3 players that (one of which I lost) I love the fact they are shorts. Nothing I like better than getting home from a nice long day at work..then putting on shorts. I can also put buffalo chicken pizza rolls in them, then eat those while watch the Royals win. I love the blue shorts so much, especially with a nice clean white t shirt, and air conditioning, then I watch some nba action in my recliner. That is better than going out and getting frustrated some where like Tony's pizza and jerks.

went to a meeting tonight, which was good DH talked a bit about how being of service makes you a babe magnent. I yapped, also talked to Raymond about how little changes have been the thing that has been the best for me. Hopefully I will get a new mp3 player tomorrow and tell bryce we have to redue the interview

April 13th 8:30

Well today opened up with me driving to the waldo area to get my teeth work done. It took me 40 minutes with all the people going to work, but I prayed and made it there. I don't feel like switching dentists as these guys have done pretty good work and haven't pissed me off. So I had a stranger drilling and doing things to my molars, I tried my best to go to a far off land, there was some pain but nothing too bad. A hair went onto my nose that I couldn't really flick off because they were in the middle of doing something, so that was annoying. I had the rest of the day off because back in Jan I worked through a blizzard and everyone else went home. It was a pretty chill day, I went to hy vee, baked some chicken, I bought some nice pens. Now I spent 4 dollars on 2 pens and I was having some buyers remorse, but I am in the market of finding some decent pens. The ones I ususally buy are really crappy. So instead of buying 10 pens for 2 bucks I decided to splurge. So far the pens seemed to have good balance, and they are metal. I like metal. Makes me feel manly. I snoozed, played some video games, looked at some beautiful girls online. Book marked several web pages. The trees around here have a beautiful color to them. I enjoy the nice weather, and today it was the best weather we have had for a while. I still don't know how to enjoy nice weather without some outside issues, so I do my best just to take pictures, take deep breathes, and go for drives with some music on. The penguins opened up their series tonight, but I haven't checked the score yet. The royals played a day game and they won. So overall I give this day an A. I wish I didn't eat so much sweets, but I am going to give myself a pass because atleast I stopped before I got sick. I also made some decent chatter with gas station worker and some other friends I have. As a once wise man says, woman are like dog shit, the other they are the easier they are to pick up.

Breathe-Write-Learn-Write

Breathe-Write-Learn-Write are some steps to get me centered Breathing be the most important one. Writing be the other. It takes me awhile but atleast I learn to reconize when I am not centered and how to get back to being calm so I don't call someone a flim flam

The Citadel - The Military College of South Carolina

The Citadel - The Military College of South Carolina. wow sounds like an easy College o recruit 7'0 basketball players to! This was the college the game ncaa 2k8 wanted me to pick as I started my LEGEND season with my Coach I created....creatively named Raphael M. So what I remember about this game the most is how frustrating it was to even get past the first two seasons. You had to play through your first contract of 3 years and not be fired. If you were fired you had to start over. So there I was 3 months into this game and I kept getting fired. It was frustrating. I am lucky i didn't smash a controller into a dog or penguin. You get some points to put into your coach and you get to invest these points. Don't bother in investing with Recruiting, by time your recruits get to be good you will be fired. Instead pump your points into teaching, so you can get your crappy team good enough to be decent by year two. Then after a couple years you can be good enough to win some games. All this again from about 100 hours of gameplay. One of my best players early on, I will never forget his famous name of "#11" the voice over couldn't stop gushing over "#11" A true player of fame for #11!

Raphael base offense. Consists of Pick and Roll, Cherry picking, juking with my best player, or firing a 3 while the shot clock is running down.

Raphaels defense man to man..some full court. some games I randomly fall in love with the 2-3 zone because that is what we ran at St. James to stop large players, exept this didn't work against some teams, they would chuck 3's. How good would St. Francis have been if they combined teams. I digress.

My main player right Now is Watkins. He is 7'1 and can dunk. So he is ideal for the pick and roll. I don't know how good he is at anything else. All I care is that he is tall and he can put the ball into the hoop.

My main cherry picker is Maclin. Maclin has a sweet jame like Jeremy Maclin the missouri star. He is a Carmello Anthony time of player. He takes off down the court and cherry picks and scores in Bunches.

Norwood is a white guy on me team that basicly does nothing. I am sure he is pretty good as I have been playing this game forever so I recruit well, but his best attribute is that he stays as far out of the way as possible when I pick and roll. He is a good off the ball defender I think because I can't remember getting pissed off at him.

Tanners Waitresses

I may have already blogged about this, but oh well. I was trying to go through my old jokes, and I came across the time I asked this waitress out at Tanners. She said she couldn't have kids. She said it in a much more vile way. It was something to the effect as "my uterous has dust on it" That led me to inquire more what goes down at the Tanners around here. Evidently there is a Waitress that is like me that gets blackout drunk and tries to stab people in the parking lot with a broken Bud Ice bottle. My kind of woman for sure. I never did come up with a joke for stabbing people with a broken bud ice bottle. I figured that would be funny by itself. Doo bee doo be doo, beware of the waitress.

04/12/11 10:42

Today I woke up. Which is good because some people don't do that. I quickly arranged my day from. What is most important, to least important. So I prayed first, then played some xbox 360, then I got dressed. Good news Citidal Bull Dog fans. Ray took your boys to a winning game against the charlston chews.

There is a death metal band with the drummer who can drum the crap out of drums who is like 60 years old. I was talking to my neighbor Pat and he was listening to them. Just like it is nice to listen or think about other peoples problems, it is nice to have someone play music for me. So I don't have to get freaked out trying to decide which Kings Of Leon song to play.

You know what I like to dream about during the day? Big Screen Tv's. Now one of my friends. Genie Freedom.... he has a large TV. I don't actually want a large tv, I just want to dream about it. I play that tape out of what it takes for me to get a TV and it is too much hassel. I have to keep it simple for me to be happy. No messing with best buy, or the mailman. I hate the mailman, but love karl malone Ironic huh?

lifting weights

I have a love hate girlfriend, her name is Deep Squats. If you were on a desert island and you had one excersize to do, it would be the deep squat. That would be a messed up island for sure, I am not sure why you would only be able to do one exersize, maybe the island natives would hold spears to your neck and the only things you could do is watch reruns of "the love boat" and do one Lift of your choice. Anyway, I have been lifting weights the last couple of weeks, one thing is for sure, if you want to really pay the price and show your dedication, this lift is for you. It sucks, you can't really show off to the ladies your work, actually lifting is more for the guys anyway, woman really want to see your abs, your paycheck, your ability to defend your house, and your ability to impress her friends. Anyway I digress. Ok so I have been doing some squats and they really suck, the challenge is to do them correctly, then be able to function the rest of the day. Henry Rollins said that he used to love leg day, it seperates the weightlifters from the frat guys. He used a wheel chair to get into his house after leg day. I quit lifting weights because I was resentful that there was no point to it anymore, I didn't have to play football why lift weights? I thought, now I know why I can lift weights, because it keeps my mind occupied, it is a challenge, and it makes me feel good just talking about it. That is why I do it. I am willing to accept things that I was not able to accept a couple years ago. Now I can handle people whispering "This guy loves to work out, but he his man boobs and looks like crap what gives?" what gives is that I love to eat 13 bags of funyons and workout, that makes me feel good the entire day.

Edit, just did 50 leg lifts at 10:01 am today.

April 10th

Hmm what to do, 8 am. Play drums or video games. I decided to watch some youtube videos and put the recordings of the beats on my mp3 player. Didn't want to overload my practice so I just put a couple simple beats. 8/8 with simple fill and swiss army rudiments. Pretty Hip huh?

Drumming is cool

Just like blogging, you have to practice instruments everyday to get better. I have been playing some drums, watching videos, just basicly thinking about upping my drumming chops. A true labor of love that is. Learning a new instrument is pretty easy if you have a ton of time on your hands like during college, it is a major pain in the ass if you have to drag your ass to work every day, and do recovery meetings, with recovery homework. Anyway blogging and writing about my life is more fun when I look back at it and see that I played an instrument for an hour each day.

04/06/11

Starting out the day, I like to brew hot tea in a small cup, and have some ice and water in another large cup. I take the brewed really dark black tea and pour it into the cup with the ice and water. Pretty normal, so I am talking to my buddy LC while carrying the cups today. Exept for the smaller cup was insanely hot.

"alright ray you got this just alittle further, or maybe if LC goes further he won't see me throw this cup of fire on the ground"


Lc then started talking to me about the Royals. I was screwed. I put the cup down and flailed my arms around because I was sure my right hand was charred" He had a good laugh. Then asked me why I drink so much tea.

Go Royals

Listing out what makes me happy and satisfied

Well. I think it is time to blog about what I actually like. I can drive home, when I am making myself miserable...what I can do to make it better. Today I feel great, I actually have some peace. It is nice out and I wish everyone could have the ahhhhhh everything is cool feeling I have right now! I think this is all due to Double Dragon 2. Yesterday I was feeling alittle down, I decided... that action needed to be done. I needed to punch Ninja's in the face. I have to give myself credit. I went out and I got it done. Now maybe your game of choice is bad dudes. Mine is Double Dragon. One dragon is pretty sweet, but two dragons is freaking awesome, 3 dragons now you are just getting greedy.

Royal Monday

I have decided to relapse on my addiction the Royals. I sat there and watched 5 hours of the Royals luckily they hit a homerun to win the game. So that was nice, what wasn't nice was how gross I was after sitting in my red chair for so long, plus I ate the delicious candy Hot Tamales and they caused me to sweat. I went out to hang out with bryce and charlie on friday. That was ok, Fridays really suck I am always tired and I empty the clip at work and really have no gas for the rest of the night. I hung out and listened to music on saturday. My neighbor patrick grilled and had people over. He is in a metal band and there were girls that were over there that were amazing looking. Alas I had no real move to make because these dudes that were around looked like they just got out of prison. I lost money on the Uconn game which sucked, the Sporting KC game...well we blew that one. I really tried hard to replace the sucky feeling with something good. Like waking up is sucky, but playing my favorite song is not. So I have been giving myself mental cookies for doing good things. I hope to get back to writing the book soon about tennis, but unfortuately my partner is not doing well. I know I just have to take some action to keep my dream alive, because I know I have good information to give people.

This is going to be an embarrassing post, but here we go.

Alright. So the main pain in my life has always been girls in general. That was my first real drug of choice. I have been doing better lately just living my life and not getting all wrapped up in a few girls that I like. It is just not a skill I have had to step back and realize "that this is just a phase" and we will work with it. I instead make myself feel miserable and always facebook follow ladies I like and torture myself. I know now when I step back that if I take actions like hang around girls I have feelings for, but they don't like me back, that is going to 100% hurt my mental health. I can save this pain if I take action by getting out of that situation. If I don't I don't beat myself up, I just have to reconize that this was caused me by me. I don't take anything too serious anymore so it's all good. I just wish that I could help some young guy out there realize that there are specific actions you can take to make yourself happy, and specific actions you can take to make yourself miserable. If you choose to hover around a girl that doesn't like you back...well welcome to the jungle baby. enjoy being miserable.

The Magic

No not the orlando magic, or magic johnson, or magic matt. The magic. The magic I am talking about today is the magic of writing on paper. I have understood for awhile that I get more pleasure of writing my bullcrap on paper than I do on this blog. Frankly blogspot pisses me off sometimes. It just deletes half my crap before I even get it posted. I would rather write down the stuff and make myself feel better.

You know what else is magical, but not really the right thing to do, is be a jerk or just let out a big sigh when someone is annoying you. Making sure someone knows hat you aren't very happy at the other persons existance is very magical.

Also knowing what exactly in your life brings you satisfaction, happiness, contentment, is magical. I try to imagine me swimming in money whenever I am doing something painful, that brings me satisfaction. They say money can't buy happiness, those people are broke and have never seen Ducktails. In Duck tails scrooge mcduck is having a good ole time swimming in money.