Feeling good April 28th 2011

Feeling good. Feeling good...it is what I want the most.
I don't like to be angry, frustrated, having envy, to have anything
missing. I just want to feel good. It takes alot of things to go correctly
for me to feel good. I am working on making myself feel good without
outside things. Today I am working on to focus on the good things. I have
to really visualize a blurry picture then bring it into focus. What do I see?
Friends and I laughing, clean air to breathe, rested with my mind calm. My mind wants
to wander into what could happen later, but lets just focus on the now.

I had a moment today where I felt 10 out of 10 on the serienty scale. One of my friends was cracking me up, I was rested, had some time just to just kick it. Those moments are rare! If I am called on to remember "A good time" I can really picture it in my mind right now. So now I have a blog bookmarked at a time and place in my life where I felt good.

One other time in my life I remember very clearly was when Raymond asked me what my plans were on a Monday. I said, nothing, I am just going to take it easy. Now it was the first time I said, I am going to take it easy, and actually do it. I have to work on taking it easy, what really goes in in my life is my mind races, I go through tons facebook posts, I watch 3 or 5 diferent shows, I have a cell phone, email, txting going on. I rarely ever focus on taking it easy. So now I know what taking it easy involves.