Saturday night

It is Saturday night and I feel alittle bit like crap. I worked out hard yesterday on a workout machine that can either go like nordictrac or a stairmaster. I really stayed on that thing until I was very very angry at it. Yesterday I went out. I always follow the Buck O'neal rule. If you see a girl in a red dress you have to talk to her. Her name was Kaylee. She was very fair skinned, alittle skinny but some meat, she was very cool and we connected for awhile until I made a move and she told me she had a boyfriend. I used to get mad at a girl that is attractive having a boyfriend, but now I am thankful they let me know ahead of time so they boyfriend doesn't come and pummel me. I talked to a bunch of other people and it was a pretty good night. The Royals still can't hit and they lost yesterday. That was very crappy. I am still hustling for jobs and I am open to ideas. My plan is really to just apply to places and get experience. When I was younger was scared of trying new things and stepping up. That really hurt me because I didn't get the valueable experience needed to really move forward with decent jobs. Now I have better grasp that I have to beat down doors and I have to step up and push myself out of my comfort zone to get better. The lead singer for Hi-Wire and I have been jamming out and trying to get better. It is a weird situation for sure and they are talking that we all might have to chip in some money to move the band forward. So that will be a tough decision. If we are playing gigs and I think we might have something I might spend money to do a decent recording, but if we are just not flowing, I am going to bow out of this band. I have to say though, his songs really aren't the worst thing on earth. There are a couple of them that are very fun and make sense when I play through the. Overall I feel good. I have a grasp that I need to wake up and work on something either be cleaning, playing base, futhering my career, or keeping my spiritual or physical side going forward. Raymond once asked me if I was happy. I explained to him that I probably could sit around and eat chocolate and really rest and write out gratitude lists. I could really work on getting my happiness up, but I am willing to be alright with today for a better tomorrow. There are lots of things in life that if I just don't shut the door on, they may contain very valueable things. The guy offering me a bass position is one, I accept any job interviews because I need as much experience as possible, and also I need to remember that I am extremely blessed and I am not too good to spend time with people.