Tuesday

Tuesday was good. Sporting KC won. I met up with Ryan and Albert to play guitar. That was fun. I ended the night with Jason and Taylor at black dog. I have been practicing patience and working on my work ethic as of late. I am always working on something. I hope some of the younger kids I talk to follow my advice, if they well that is their road to go down. I have so much to say, but I am pretty tired. I just like to point out no matter what your beliefs in religion are if you pray really hard, over time you develop lots more peace and happiness. Sometimes I will be mad about something or frustrated and I can really let go of the small bullcrap things way better than I could back in the day. I know most of my frustration comes out of fear. Fear of not getting what I want or fear what people think of me. Once I realize what is really going on I can work on thinking about something else or letting it go. Thinking about other peoples needs always helps as well. I will sometimes pray for someone else for as long as I can (10 minutes or so) it really eases my own inner frustrations. My frustrations aren't even that bad, they are ususally linked to the Royals hitters or I am not as rich as I want to be. I guess I will go over my day once again woke up, Prayed, went to work, came home called Ryan, called Albert, worked my way into getting a jam session going. Jammed, then went to black dog and hung out. I have to say I am getting better at doing stuff in a timely fashion. When I get home from work there are certain things I want to make sure I do. Practice guitar, watch a youtube video that makes me laugh, write on a piece of paper things that make me happy. I always make it a point in my mind to set aside time to do things I really love. Chores and bills need to be paid as well, but I realize now how much more life is enjoyable when you set boundries for yourself and say...this is the time to work...this is time for yourself to laugh and smile....this is the time you work on guitar. Speaking of boundries I noticed a big boundry tonight is that I really can't work late. I am at the point in my life where I set a hard boundry. that I don't work beyond a certain point. I really need my time to watch the royals or play guitar or go to a meeting or go to black dog. When I was younger I was such a people pleaser I would make myself mad and sick working so late. So that was kind of cool that I really asked God for direction and the answer that I got is "Ray you aren't going to be happy missing the things you hold dear" things like playing guitar, dressing up like Nachos and throwing cheese on people. Wait...what?