09/29/16

Today I visited my sponsor Raymond. We chatted it up. Nothing really to report. I kind of suck at my job. I did a nice job making sure the piece pallets were straight and well marked today. I make progress each day and hopefully my bosses see that I am making progress. Job or no job I will be o.k. as long as I do my best. An ounce of discipline goes along ways. I listen to Jim Rohn tapes as much as possible. What I picked up today is keep on redefining what you want. I want financial freedom. Now even if I did have financial Freedom I would still try to cultivate some disciplines. That would be cool to give some money ato friends so we could all kick it as well. I think if I look really hard at my life I am making progress with my spending habits and saving habits. This job may not work out, but I am building resiliency and just overall toughness. You got to be like the energizer bunny and just keep working going and grinding on skills. I am not going well with some of my friends. That is my fault. I don't feel well enough to really deepen relationships most of the time. I just feel like outside of Bryce and "The V-Foundation" I don't connect well with my friends even when I really try. I talk to a social worker and what she said is with my depression and bi-polar I go through challenges 99% of the population doesn't go through so when I try to relate it is hard. I have been doing a good job of going on depression websites and "Liking" status or giving my experience strength and hope. I have been really on the grind there. I think about myself 95% of the day, but I try to pick my spots to help people. It looks like the Royals are going to go .500 this year. It was an up and down year. I will remember this year for Alex Gordon being terrible.