11/14/2016

Last week was a bit of a pain because I had to remind my boss to sell back my vacation. I also had to go in early and stay late to get my benefits set up. I was able to execute and take care of business to get my health insurance, 401k, and other stuff taken care of. This week I have to get my oil changed and I may have to stay late one day late at work, but other than that it seems pretty cake. It also seems pretty cake compared to when I was going to school and going to work. When I get off work now I don't have homework. I can do whatever I darn well please. For that I am grateful. I woke today and didn't feel the greatest. I called Raymond and called my doctors office. I have been vocal with my doctor and my nurse that I may be getting more depressed as the winter comes and the days get shorter. She prescribed medicine on top of my medicine to help me with depression and focus. Right now the pharmacy is dilly dallying with red tape. I made it clear that this is why I take pills is to self-medicate. I need help. I feel better already because I voiced my frustration. I will be fine today and I think it is progress to voice how I am feeling to doctors and people around me. I went from a Kid that parties. To a kid that doesn't party. To an Adult who medicates himself. Now I want to be a person who works with AA and medical doctors to get myself feeling good and on safe medications to get through the days.