Fresh Start for the new year

New Years is going to be fresh start this year. New slate and time to work towards those mental, physical, and spiritual goals. I am already up and listening to motivational music to kick 2013 square in the dick. Yesterday we went up to black dog, we hung out with some girls from K-State. They were boring, but what do you expect, they don't exactly serve booze and cocaine at the black dog. Becca shaved her head completely bald which is weird, but hey this is America, if you want to be weird we won't do anything crazy to you like stoning you to death or making you watch Matt Cassel throw a 5 yard out. Chiefs had a horrible year, but now they get to clean house. If they don't clean house I am probably not going to think about the chiefs again until 2014 or whenever. Go Royals, Mizzou, Hawks, Penguins, Mavs, Pacers, and of course Sporting KC. 75 more days until SKC gets the ball rolling by the way.

Saturday Night and Sunday morning

Saturday night I continued to improve my relationship with Jason, T-Bone, and Adam. Adam recorded the KU game and we ordered pizza and watched Reliford dunk with his hand behind his head. It was glorious night for Ole KU. I think that KU will make the Sweet-Sixteen, but they might go undefeated in the Big-12. They are awesome. I hope the I was able to wake up and head to the gym (I am going to get my money's worth damnit!) It was ok. The GYM is always a special place to me. It is where those special winning seasons of LEBLOND came from. Hard Work, determination, and holding Getting blind sided by MATHOUUUUIEEE. Chiefs close out a loss today so they get the #1 draft pick.

Growing as a person.

On Friday well I was pretty sick. I was running a fever, but I still had time to run up to the black dog to meet with my friend "K". "K" is a young dude who really is putting in time and effort to grow as a person. I went over to a blonde haired lady named Jess. She wasn't what I was looking for, but I asked her to meet us at starbucks after black dog had closed. She agreed. So I set up K and Jess on an instant date. I have a knack of hooking people up and it felt good to have the skills to pull something like that off. Great night over all and it made me feel like the work I put in talking to every random person off the street paid off.

Saturday I woke up and went to 24 hour fitness. I signed up to meet with a personal trainer. I wore jeans. He was alittle bit like "WTF?" but I told him I will put in the work nessessary to be Elite He put me through hell and it was worth the effort I put in just to have someone watch me do the weight equipment because my form was sucking. The only thing I did wrong was I would like to have more work with a trainer as I am willing to do anything to become as healthy as I can be. My effort was up to my standards. It was nice to have a person to say good job after all my lifts. I like to anchor good positive feedback with working out.

That is about allI have to say. Feeling a little bit better and just because I am sick doesn't mean I can't go lift some weights and hook up my friends with girls.

Born Rich

I love to watch seminars on youtube. I am watching Bob Proctor's "Born Rich" basically the same stuff I always have learned. You want to be successful follow someone's plan and ideas that are successful. Keep a motto or a vision with you at all times through your day. Help others..... the power of your mind is awesome that is for sure. I love learning and I think that is a great thing even if I don't always apply what I learned. One thing he talked about and I need to bite the bullet on this one day...is to actually have a financial pro go over your money. You only get so many hours on this earth and I don't think I have the time or energy to really learn about money management in depth. One thing I do know is that if you have money, make sure you save it, because you vehicle costs money to keep on the road. I have been playing fifa 13. I played the crap out of fifa 12 and I am glad I did so. Fifa 13 is very similar and it was easy to jump in and start being that some ass.

I had a good Christmas. I got great gifts and I love everything I got. If you are nice to others you certainly get paid in gifts that is for sure. My dad and I watched the Lakers V Knicks game. It was a good game.

Effort

Michael Jordan, Tiger Woods, Wayne Gretzky...and Ann Hathaway? That lady I heard about killed herself for a part in some lame musical. That is what you call paying the price

Good for her. I also hear in this musical that Maximus and Woloverine both sing for hours.

Cool

Friday-Saturday-Sunday-Monday

Friday was ok. I met a new guy "K" he is 21 and he wants to take some tips how not to be scared of going up to people and talking. I explained my 6 months of comedy and my dedication to Not caring what people think

I thought that went well and he is a smart young man. Dare I say his life is going to be off the chain

I took my mom to the Chiefs game and it was very fun. She had handicap parking sticker and we had free tickets including a parking pass. It went about as good as it can go. I saw botty, his girlfriend, and my old roomate dave. I told Dave that I owe him an amend for all the food I ate of him and he told me a story about me cooking up a bologna burrito. I felt sick on Monday and today on Christmas I fell good. I will probably go into more detail later.

Striking while the IRON is hot. Acting when you think about an Idea.

It was crappy out today. A thought came to my mind...if I want to take my physical body to the next level I may need to sacrifice money. I was thinking the next level of improving myself maybe getting a personal trainer. I love attempting to start and COMPLETING things. So I wrote it down got off work. I had some energy and I was messing around doing nothing and I thought to myself "I should run up to the Y since I have energy and see if I can get a 3 month pass." My first thought turned to fear. Oh man I don't want to spend energy getting up there, I don't want to spend the money, bla bla bla bla. I know for a fact my brain wants me to be a lazy asshole. So I took action and went up there. It turns out the Y express was changing ownerships. So I can't really get a pass to the new place, but I was able to work out there for free until the new ownership takes over. It is always important to check out surroundings just to get used to everything. So I am thankful I have the knowledge to take ACTION when I have an idea. I am thankful it worked out and I got a bit of a workout in. I always think to myself I don't care what it takes...time money or energy...you do not want to break the momentum of working out on a regular basis. What goes in motion stays in motion and what is a fat ass takes a shitload of energy to be not a fat ass. So today was one of those turning points where I could have leveled out, but I realize the sacrifices it takes to be elite at something. It takes time money energy...blood sweat and tears. I am thankful I had the desire and vision to create a better life for myself. I didn't get a personal trainer but hey..I got up..I got out..and I got me some action!

My jeep did good in the snow. It is 4-wheel drive, but that doesn't stop lots of people ending up in a ditch. I tried to be as patient as I could and go even 10 percent more patient. It was just a crap day out, but I am proud of Americans. we get up, we get out, and we get us some action.

Thursday

It is Thursday morning and it is horrible out. This really shows who wants to earn dollars and who wants to stay at home and be a wussbag. I am going to do everything I can to get out to work and grow a bit. This country has some tough people in it. I think that even though we aren't as a great power as we once were, there are still 16 year old kids that get up and go out into the snow to cook breakfast at Mcdonald's for me. Random thought of the day. I once talked to Bruce Lee... he was a bad ass. I said Yo Bruce, how do I become as awesome at kicking ass with you. He had a class of coffee and a class of water. He said his knowledge was like the water, mine was the coffee, he said I want to give you my knowledge, but it doesn't fit, you have too much coffee in your cup. So I understood him and I knew that I needed to get rid of my coffee to get some water. This was a metaphor that Bruce Lee always used to teach. I don't know why he couldn't get to the freaking point faster, but I mean he kicked Kareem-Abdul-Jabaar's ass in a movie once. I am not going to argue with him. So bottom line is you have to drink less coffee and be willing to use new ideas to keep growing. You also have to trash the crappy ideas.

Ben Mclemore needs to be drafted by the Pacers. He is off the chain.

People picking on Gerald Butler. "Gerald Butler's infomercial about getting ripped is actually an advertisement for Photoshop 10"


Ok I feel pretty good today. I have 18 hours of work until the weekend. That makes me feel good. My plan is to work as hard as I can and 20% farther than that. That is pretty much my life plan all the time. Work as hard as you can until you are about ready to pass out, then go back to work, then when you want to yell and scream and throw your computer out the window, you may have reached your limit. Then go 1% more than that. When you get home and you don't think about your job/craft/hobby anymore you know you pushed yourself to the limit in beyond. I remember several times in college like I didn't want to see some of my books again. I don't even think I turned them back in to get my 40 bucks or whatever. I just walked out of class after the final and was like. "Peace out Algebra I" and I threw that garbage into the trash. Then I broke a TI-83 calculator over a freshman'ss face.

Claudio Bieler

Bieler....Claudio

I feel like #SportingKC needs some of the rest of the league to fall down a peg for them to win the cup. Like the aging Pistons in the nba.

Entertaining new Ideas

I am always open to try new ideas. I know my brain is set up to be a middle class white guy, so I am always open to see if there is better way to do it. Sometimes this can be painful when some of your awesome ideas (or at least you thought were awesome weren't so awesome after all. That is kind of where I am at right now, just trying to get feed back on what to think and what to do in some area's in my life. It will all work out as long as I have a vision of what I want to do. I always state what I want. I will do it again 100K per year, socially elite, giving back, tougher and better person. I want these things because it would be fun and it would be fullfilling to give back most of the money I made. Sporting KC signed some dude that supposed to be awesome. I always want to write up a ton of crap about sporting kc and the offseason moves but when I sit down to type. I am like ugh...I want to focus on the main visions and goals, that is all I have the energy to type out.

Open Mind

Having an open mind means that you will throw away your most cherished ideas once a new one comes along.

I don't know where my "Eric Berry" dino pissing on Tim Tebow Dino picture is at so this masterpiece will have to do.

What can I say about yesterday. Sundays haven't been good to me, it always feels like I have the flu or something on Sunday. I have been sober for two years and I really feel that it is unfair that I feel hungover, but I stayed up late as hell on Saturday. So I understand why I was feeling groggy. I had two more girls flake on me which isn't a big deal. I had one girl "Stephanie" who I thought liked me, she was very bratty to me, but as soon as I stood up to her and then I showed to her my hair under my beanie cap, she gave me her number. It is all good, when you go out dancing and you get ladies numbers I don't expect them to be upstanding citizens, they are off the chain. Pam this other girl that I had a date with she flaked on a second date. That one threw me for a loop, but you know girls are fickle beasts. I had exactly nothing invested in this ladies so it was all good. I am proud of myself for getting out of my comfort zone and dancing and asking girls for dates. That is truly pushing my limits. I am one of the few people who likes to go out and talk to everyone. I never know what kind of stuff I am going to say. Sometimes it provides a huge laugh when a girl tells me to shave and I ask right back? My balls? I shaved them this morning. Everyone in the applebees got a good laugh at that one. I have been doing good today. I am just proud I am getting up and getting out. This last month of the year has been a bear, but I am doing my best to do my best.

The key to dancing.

So I have a new hobby. It is moving around like an idiot burning calories. I have discovered it is fun and it takes my mind off of things. It also helps me not care what people think. Anyway if people have anxiety about dancing here are tips. "everyone sucks" pretty much so. So it doesn't matter what you do just keep moving. Also there was a nice crazy black guy that could dance well that showed me some tips. He said when the dance floor is empty you can walk around and dance. He actually put his arms around me and it was a special moment. It was actually strange because I look at dancing in a new light now, because all this time I have been "That dude" coming out and doing a dance move for 4 seconds and leaving. Basically looking like a mockery to people who dance for hours a week. Now I have about 7 hours of dancing in I am starting to notice the dude who comes out for 10 seconds and leaves. So it has been good learning and growing and trying new things. It is nice to do this sober as well so I can feel the painful way it feels awkward, because that is how everything feels when you are not used to it. So it is all good man. Get out there and do something.

Stuff

Random picture time!

I can only guess this is a bomb shelter in "Fairway" Kansas. Fairway Kansas is in the Plaza area of KC. I guess this is to protect people from spikey haired polo'd dudes giving high fives down at the brooksider.

Whew

I am glad this week is over. I am pretty proud how everything has went down. Yesterday people weren't getting much down because of the shootings and Christmas stuff, but I stayed on task. There is only so much that I can control and one thing I have learned is I can't get wrapped up to the BS that goes around me. I can strive to be empathetic and sympathetic to the people around me, but lots of times what really makes me an adult is the fact that I stay on task even while everyone is off the chain. I did some dancing yesterday with friends which is fun. It really tests how much I really care how I look. There is a simple need for me to get out burn calories and talk. It is nice to do this and act like an idiot. It is a surprise when people find out that we are sober, but it isn't really that amazing since as a group my friends and I try to care less what people think and focus on having a good time. One thing that is awesome is that if you are willing to dance you will get instant dates. Most males don't like to dance because they care how they look and I have danced in a mirror and I look silly. That isn't the point though, I am out there to burn calories and talk and that is what I got done. My legs are sore from doing the cabbage patch and the tootsie roll. I don't really know what I am up to today. I got to cash a check, I am also glad that I got 3 loads of laundry done last week. I can recover this weekend. I am catching the Manchester City (not to be confused with Manchester United) game. It is a nice soccer treat for me this morning. So right now my head is pretty proud that I plowed through this last week and that I was able to go out yesterday and be silly and have some fun.

Girl: I have a son turned 1
Ray: I used to have a nephew that was 1
Girl: Aww I'm sorry...what happened?
Ray: He turned two..

Working through a funk.

I often get into funks and my brain can lie to me. I get in self-pity and I also get into believing in shit that is not true. Luckily I have been through this and I know how to get to the other side. I always have gratitude on my mind. There are people in detox centers struggling with drugs, there are homeless people, there are white Jewish guys trying to dance. THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT HAS IT WORSE. I also love this country and that I am not in jail. Sometimes the growth that is out there is just not doing anything to make things worse. When I write out the way I want to be there is a goal of KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT and working hard. If I was to carve out my legacy hard work and not yapping so much would be apart of it. So my funks/depression do last very long. It was a couple days and I still managed to get some things done. I also didn't have to make amends. I rarely fly off the handle and if I do I am quick to make an amend. It really is amazing that I can get stuff done even when I am feeling crappy. I remember in college when a random slore would dump me I would go into days/weeks/months of being drunk and not being productive. Luckily with the help of God I seem to be handling my emotions better. Of course I can go back to being a wuss bag at anytime if I quit taking action and praying. The thoughts and actions of the St. Francis prayer is always one that has real life benefits with spiritual benefits. If I strive to love and not be loved it takes the focus on what I am feeling and puts the focus on action on the others. It helps me through the tough times. I can focus my attention by writing, talking, and listening to different stories than the B.S. that my mind plays. I actually have affirmations and gratitude lists that are anchored that my mind when left alone will kind of default to. All this stuff helps me from warping myself into a bad mood, or if I am in a bad mood...it helps get it back on track. I am glad my family talks to me. My aunt sent me some money the other day and I meet people in real life that their family hates them. So this has been all over the place but the message is always the same. Thoughts becomes things and if you aren't working on your thoughts you are probably screwed.


Redhair lady. I had a meetup with a girl on my birthday that seemed to go well. She hasn't texted me since then, and she may not want to see me again, but I am glad that I had fun. I guess I will go into a rant about the young pups out there. Young guys...get into the habit of using your phone to see girls, not just text them all the time. You will get friend zoned if all you do is txt dumb texts to each other. Also the only weapon guys really have is walking away V-Foundation always makes points, but he in-directly touched on the biggest thing guys can have in their favor is the ability to walk away.!!!!!! Woman or no woman we will be happy. "nexting" a girl for being off the chain is a way to grow and to keep moving forward to finding a special mate and not one that is going to make you buy 10 cats and have season tickets to the ballet.

RanyOnTheRoyals

Man someone call the Wahhhhhhhbulance for this guy. I love Rany and he truly helped me understand the stats of baseball better, but he went off the deep end on this Shields trade. Royals are actually trying to win something in the Majors. Sit down...make yourself a sandwich, and enjoy the idea that we are trying to win.

Wednesday

Today was a bit of "What in the hell?" I started off the day just not wanting to do anything, but I always try to go 20% farther than I can. So if I want to not go to work, I try to atleast get to work and see how I feel, then I try to work as long as I can. I got some Christmas shopping done and I didn't really feel great about that, but it could always be worse. I think my dad went to the doctor so I said some prayers there. I just know that life is about doing small tasks over and over. People, places, and things are mostly out of my control. I can just try to stay focused on being an adult, making healthy choices, and not beating myself up. I also tried to focus on what it would be like to be homeless. Gratitude is an important part of my health. I enjoyed the warmth and smallness of my apartment and enjoyed a podcast or two I am glad that I have atleast a vision of who I want to be so when things outside of me are off the chain I can make choices (Like getting Christmas shopping done NOW not LATER) so it can set me up for success and happiness. I met another girl yesterday named Pam. She seems to be more in-line of a girl that I would like long term. She likes SKC and seemed to dig my jokes. She shut me down big time when I went in for a kiss, but I wasn't really thrown off about it, since it is 5th time in a couple weeks a girl has denied me a kiss. In retrospect I probably should have told her it was my birthday, that would have gotten me a smooch for sure, but ya know...everyday is husslin'!!! Tonight I will probably just drink coffee and focus on the good in my life. I live in America, I am not in jail, and I can throw a swing pass better than Matt Cassel.

goals for my 32nd year on this planet.

I still want to make 100k although I really need to spend more time starting a plan. I want to be an elite player as far as social status goes. What doe that look like? Beig invited to gatherings and sporting events and also creating events and parties. I have a talent for bla bla bla talking to people and I would like.to cultivate that.to the point that I get invited to cool events with cool people. I have a goal to make it to Europe this year and to grow and pray. I don't know what I can do to really set a spiritual goal, but I definitely want to thank God.for my life.and.the start of my day and thank him for the day that was at the end. I really strive to be a better nerd and listen to more video game podcasts. I take some joy in knowing what the podcasts over 1up are about. A goal again this year is to watch more sporting KC because they are boss and hey I want to watch the Royals again this year. The more I write today the more I realize how much crap I really did this last year. I really got out and my passion for sports helped other people get out. I really enjoyed Nascar and hopefully I can get a good old 238 party going when NASCAR comes around again. Soaking of NASCAR news the new cars in NASCAR.really are more speaking to the eyes. I wish there was an artistic goal that I want to go after that was easy to quantify,but it is hard to set a goal in comedy. Maybe my jokes will get 1,000 "likes" or.something.

who you texting? Barak?

Tell him to get his shit together. This line is gold for starting conversations and provides hours and hours of me showing my improve skills from there. I just talked talked to a girl at Broadway cafe and she thought it was the funniest thing ever. She was cuuute. Natalia.

Birthday

I am 32 today. Yeah! Old balls.....Social Security....! I don't feel any different. The only thing I remember is when I was 29 I got into an tift with this lady at work. I was trying to come out of my partying days and into more of an adult phase and I was very fussy. I work by this lady now and I think we are cool. I have changed and been squeezed in a thousand directions since I was 29 all for the best. Tough times don't last but tough people do. Yesterday night was a bit off the chain. Jason and T and I were hanging out at the black dog. I felt like crap because it has been a long couple of days. We were just really in goof off mode as it felt like I was running on 2 hours of sleep. I am just glad we are not in jail and we are not making our lives worse. My thinking is ok, it is just that this is a rough patch all around. Christmas has always been sucky not so much because of the music or how busy places are, it is a combination of everything. Especially that I am always out of Paid Time off so I have to grin and do my best for the last weeks. I did go up to talk to a girl yesterday at the black dog, even at my worst I can still muster up the guts to walk over and call a girl "Batman" and ask where her "batbelt" is at. Man I am struggling just to write this I am going to try to for better thoughts later on tonight when I hopefully have more energy.

Character building/you can't please everyone

Sunday I knew was not going to be great. I had lots of laundry to do and I got through that. It was lots of work. I also cleaned. I watched the Chiefs lose and I tried my best not to pig out on crap while I watched NFL. I had a "Date?" at 5 with a lady I barely knew. She dressed up and she met me at the black dog. I exchanged some basic questions and then I dragged her to play big buck hunter next door. She liked me for some reason early in our time together, but I don't know what the hell was up because she bounced early. I thought good thoughts like "oh well still got some time left Sunday to watch football" and "meh lets move on" I did though feel pain even though my thoughts were good. Those are the standard lumps I take because I am out and about. Later on I was at black dog and I met a verrrry nice girl named "J" then my friend "Hillary Swank" threw a wrench in my talking to this girl. Hillary Swank is very well known to interfere with the boys talking to girls at the black dog. So it was just one female after another just not being very cool to me. I told my friend Adam, I would rather females treat me bad in here than have it out in the world were I am trying to get paid. It was a lesson on how to act cool and not react to other peoples crap. The only person I really let know I was sweating was Adam because I wanted to check myself to make sure I wasn't giving out obvious signs of how displeased with the world I was yesterday. So overall it was a good experience because the more I get in situations where people are rude to me, the more I can handle it with class and grace. Monday was not good. Everything was not good all the way through exept for the fact that I was able to work out hard jogging for 20 or 30 minutes on lunch and go for a walk before work. That is the good thing about working out is you can control your effort. So my thoughts after a couple of these days were shit isn't all great is simply that it is a chance to build my character. The situations aren't horrible, I am not in jail, or homeless, or a Matt Cassel. So I actually have a good chance of building for a better future starting right now.

Royals news: I don't care if Mickey Mantle was in right field. The Royals need pitching to win. I am glad we are using our minors finally to improve the majors. People are going to bitch and moan like Rany, but whatever. Don't care...Go Royals.

progress not perfection and KU game

Saturday rolled around and I rolled around out of bed. I went for a walk which was ok. I then tried to get the jeep washed, but the car wash machine was taking the day off. I did get to pick up some coffee sleeves and some of the nacho bugles out of my jeep. I then cleaned myself up to head to Lawrence. The plan was to take my dad to the KU game. My sister always hooks me up with a ride to the game. It was supposed to be a close game because Colorado had a good record, but it was a complete ass beating. Ben Mclamore had a big game as did Kevin Young. Mclamore if anything shot too much. The atmosphere was great as it was a packed house and it was loud as all get out. I was very surprised and happy about how rowdy it was because I have been to games where the students were on christmas break, where it was a very lackluster atmosphere. Jayhawks look good, not great. So that was good. This next part demonstrates my growth as a person and my work on being right with the world. After the game we were trying to get to my sisters car and I walked right out in front of traffic. A police Lady yelled at me to watch out. Now my 21 year old wanted for me to call her a Witch and explain to her how I pay her salary. The Truth is I messed up and she was trying to save my life. I told her thank you and thanks for her service. Military people EMS people etc all get the due thanks but cops only get yelled at. So what I learned is that it is ok to make mistakes. I run at a pretty high level these days as far as going out and being active, so me looking like an idiot is going happen. The key for me is just to admit mistakes and focus on the next thing. That is not easy to do because emotionally you feel all out of sorts, but what I can do is tell myself "What is the next right thing to do?" "Where can I be of service?" So the day went well and I got lots of Sporting KC stuff and a Royals T-Shirt that my mom got signed by Zack Grienke. My dad had it framed it looks pretty sweet in my apartment. So overall I feel good and I am thankful for the fun weekend.

Random Girl meetup. The other day I was walking and I saw this girl that was very attractive. She was probably a 7 or 8...so I go up to her and I go "Who are you texting?....you texting Obama?...Tell him to get his shit together!" So she laughed and I do what I call "Popping the eyes" were you let it be known with eye contact that you are Man who is here and confident. She starts giving me crap about everything, so we banter and she says "Sorry for treating you this way, it is probably why I am single" so I am like O.K. she likes me, I showed her that I am not a wuss and I will stand here all day and not put up with her insult B.S. She also said that she lived "close" to here. Didn't phase me, so I tried to get her to go to the restaurant I was going to but she busted my balls about how I was going the wrong way. So the conversation was dying out so I tried to give her a kiss goodbye and instead I got a hug, now this hug went on for a very long time. It was a very nice hug. I gave her my number and told her if she was interested to let me know. So that was a nice moment in my life and I asked my friend T if she thought I could have done anything better to get a second date or an instant date, we all agree though she kinda sounded like a hot mess, and I should accept the moment as a great moment and not feel bad about it. My main point here is that I want to get down on my blog fun and memorable moments in my life and this was a good one for me.

trash in and trash out.

One of my friends Steve sent me an email with things that were supposed to be challenging my mind. At this point in my.life I would rather focus on positive things and things that focus my actions on giving. My job and my life already exhaust me I don't to be debating this or that. It is thoughts and energy that could be directed on streamlining my clothes cleaning process. Right now my laundry situation is a bit out of control. I need to get some loads done on Sunday. I am watching Paul Pierce score 24 points on the Doug Collins coached 76ers. Come on Doug, Pierce is 56 years old. Your teams defense sucks pig dicks. I haven't wrote about skc for awhile. They don't have the fire power up top.to be top of the table, but they are still good. Julio Ceaser, Espinoza and Harrington are leaving the team... Matt beasler. is staying with SKC. He is defending player of the year and he has wrote more #1 hits than Neil Diamond. Kei Kamara Zusi Saad Teal Bunburry CJ Sapong Uri Spanish Guy Aurellian Collin Chance Meyers Nagamura Larry Olum should be back. MAYBE WITH THE GALAXY LOSING DONOVAN AND BECKHAM SKF CAN WIN IT ALL????

Same Stuff different day

I hear "Same stuff different day" sometimes. It is in a negative fashion sometimes. To me I think that saying describes greatness. Consistency in my life has been a real reason I have grown. I don't care what naysayers say, I don't care what I have to do, I don't care I am feeling. I have tasks to get done, and growth to be had. I will keep growing, pushing, and changing my life. It is weird how that solid foundation of work has made people attracted to me more. People will be like bla bla bla I can't do this this weekend and that. I will tell them cool..because I know in my mind I have goals of working to clean my apartment, listen to Anthony Robbins tapes, work on my nba2k12 character. I have plenty of things that I am driven to do and the outside world isn't going to stop me. Of course you got to be flexible, but in the main sense you really have to know who you are and what you need to do. Work is the key to success. Onto this weekend. I have the KU game on Saturday and I will probably just be working to become better in between there. I have to get coffee on Sunday, but everything else is up in the air. If I am stuck on what to do I usually go to the Plaza just because there is coffee and random stuff to do there.


Random stuff. Art fair people have to wear black, there is a perubian drink called a matte, David Glass is a cheap old fart, Kobe Bryant scores a ton of points, Harrington from SKC is going to Portland and Roger Espinoza is going to Wigan in the EPL.

Wednesday

Wednesday was pretty good. People always text stuff and try to get me off task. Now if it is Byrd or V-Foundation I will gladly exchange stats about Caron Butler and the L.A. Clippers, but if it is from people just being people. I got no time for that. One part of getting better and better is you have to not let other people get you off your main task. I did a good job not getting involved. I hid my phone. I said a quick prayer. "God direct my thinking" I then had to put aside my sick brain for a second. I know me...My brain loves drama and excitement. It craves wild ass texts and situations, but that is not what a person who is good at their job does. So I told myself. I don't care how boring or painful it is. I am going to get back to my boring task, because that is what an Adult Male does. So I went back to work and it was pretty painful and wasn't fun. I know from reading that is how you get the job done though. You focus in on small tasks over and over and over. Then you make it rain money!!! I told "The Elder Statesman" about the situation because I wanted to reinforce how important it is not to get caught up in a texting situation when you have to stay on your main purpose. My purpose is always the same "Be of service in whatever situation you are in" Speaking of being of service...I was in the car the other day and I had high anxiety...and I prayed to God "Help me be of service" The answer that came down was "Why don't you watch the road and not run into anyone, that might be of some service " So that just proves anywhere anytime you can always be of service and it provides you an activity to keep off of bad stuff like getting aids or Shawn Marion's Jump shot.

I am going to provide you this next information because the younger generation has to know this. Dating is dead...the new school is going to be you get an instant date. You walk around and if you find girl you see if she sends you signals and you sit down and get a 15 minute date then. Then you can get a day 2 later. If she is making solid eye contact and playing with her hair go for a kiss fast as possible. See if she likes you or not. If she pulls away laugh as hard as you can and keep moving forward. I have found that if you get a fast kiss then it is on, if she pulls away it's on, if she throws tabasco in your eyes. It's really on. This was a break through in my life because I am funny and random so I can't tell if a girl is laughing because she is into me or because I am funny. Now going for the kiss early sets the record straight. It's always on....Everyday in everyway I am getting better and better. Later.


Random things

Girls: Ray you dress like you just buried a dead body. How many bodies do yo think you could bury in a day?
Ray: Depends if they are kids...

accepting some boredom

One of the secrets to life is how to handle boredom. I struggle with doing the right things when I am bored. I understand that boredom is a chance to take correct action and be productive. I strive to always add to the stream of life and not take from it. Sometimes though you are just in a situation like riding in a car or something where you are just going to be bored. I take the time to focus in on the dreams I have and where I am going. Then I repeat those thoughts until I get tired of them. That way it keeps me focused and it doesn't allow my head to go to situations that are not based in reality. I try to also focus in on what can I do better. Even in the moment, better posture, a smile, whatever it maybe. Also sometimes a big stride for a successful life is just not making things worse. Life is a grind and not every moment is a trophy raising experience, but to raise some trophy's you have to put in hard work. Some of that hard work is dealing with boredom. Work is the key to success. Yesterday I did as much as I could and I found myself just staring at the clock at the end of the night. I did my best to focus on NBA games and the Mizzou games. They were really blasting me with excitement, but I tried my best to focus in. I know there are days like that where it isn't exciting, but I do my best to make them fun and not do something dumb by buying crap off of amazon that I don't need. I also try to amuse myself so I don't turn to food for entertainment. So all in all I am working hard and I am clearing out all I can do to have a fun and successful life. MIZZOU...CHRIS HUMPHRIES...OKC THUNDER....

Tuesday

I guess the Mission lighting festival went well. I didn't go but I heard there was a Rocket Powered Santa, Jesus, and fireworks. That sounds about right for the midwest. Surprised Larry The Cable guy didn't flip the switch yelling Git-R-Dun to kick the whole shindig off. Redskins won yesterday. RGIII is beasting. In my growing development I have discovered that if you have any doubt in your mind if you went as far as you could go, you could have cone further....period. One more task, one more conversation, the extra mile. I try not to beat myself up if I didn't go that far, but I like to know when I am pushing the limits or not. I want my conversations to get better. I want my work to get better. I want to be healthier. I want a better life. I also love that little bit extra at the end of your day when you think you can't do one more task, but you say...no way man...I ain't quitting. That is not what a person from St. Joseph does. That ain't then way a Griffon works. Then you go out and you get yourself some success.

Peace out Andy Reid

Vick was a bad signing, Andy Reid can't eat a proper diet let along manage a football team. Kick rocks Reid. Nice win for the Chiefs yesterday. They did their best and it turned out well for them. Jamaal Charles is the greatest running back for the Chiefs ever. Adrian Peterson is beasting. Andrew Luck is off the chain. Lakers are not good early on, and Greg Zurline is a griffon who is beasting for the Lions. I had a good weekend of watching football. The Ravens vs. Steelers game was a slugfest. During all the football watching I was able to get a load of laundry done. So that is good as well. Here comes Monday. I vow to stay focus on my goals. I vow to grow. I vow to go out and get me some success.

Fun week

This week was one of the more fun weeks I have had for awhile. KU game on Monday was off the chain and Friday and Saturday were fun as well. I played Video games around the plaza area for most of the weekend seeing the great lights and great people. With it being nice out it reminded me of New York. The Plaza park was packed and so was the plaza itself. I ran into Seth Sinovic and Chance Meyers at a local Disco. I didn't bug them but they looked in shape. Chance Meyers had a mustache. I didn't bug them because well they are 5 years younger than me and they are probably waiting for some gambling or lady action. Not guy with a hoodie on action. Mo West lost but they made giant strides to get better. They will be a good team as long as Jerry Partridge is there. This team had great weapons all around. Next year Raphael Spencer is going to get carries at RB and look out. He won't be as good as Michael Hill cause Michael was beasting all season, but Raphael will be good. I mean look at him. He has a kick ass name. As for as me growing as a person I think the thing to remember is that if you have a boring spot in your weekend try to say something over and over that is positive and that is about your goals. Then do some jumping jacks or stretch. You have to get positive momentum going. What is at rest stays at rest so if you are going to sit there like the worlds most boring person you tend to stay there. So it is my job to get up and start getting some positive vibes and get the blood pumping. It is my life and I want the most fun as possible. This next work week is going to be challenging as ususal, but as long as I am willing to accept the pain, frustration, and put forth the blood sweat and tears, I will get the job done. If at anytime I am not willing to do those things then I will fail. I am always my worst enemy because I want to quit and feel sorry for myself, but my job is to keep going, keep pushing, if quit for awhile it is get back up and move forward.