Birthday

I am 32 today. Yeah! Old balls.....Social Security....! I don't feel any different. The only thing I remember is when I was 29 I got into an tift with this lady at work. I was trying to come out of my partying days and into more of an adult phase and I was very fussy. I work by this lady now and I think we are cool. I have changed and been squeezed in a thousand directions since I was 29 all for the best. Tough times don't last but tough people do. Yesterday night was a bit off the chain. Jason and T and I were hanging out at the black dog. I felt like crap because it has been a long couple of days. We were just really in goof off mode as it felt like I was running on 2 hours of sleep. I am just glad we are not in jail and we are not making our lives worse. My thinking is ok, it is just that this is a rough patch all around. Christmas has always been sucky not so much because of the music or how busy places are, it is a combination of everything. Especially that I am always out of Paid Time off so I have to grin and do my best for the last weeks. I did go up to talk to a girl yesterday at the black dog, even at my worst I can still muster up the guts to walk over and call a girl "Batman" and ask where her "batbelt" is at. Man I am struggling just to write this I am going to try to for better thoughts later on tonight when I hopefully have more energy.