Working through a funk.

I often get into funks and my brain can lie to me. I get in self-pity and I also get into believing in shit that is not true. Luckily I have been through this and I know how to get to the other side. I always have gratitude on my mind. There are people in detox centers struggling with drugs, there are homeless people, there are white Jewish guys trying to dance. THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT HAS IT WORSE. I also love this country and that I am not in jail. Sometimes the growth that is out there is just not doing anything to make things worse. When I write out the way I want to be there is a goal of KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT and working hard. If I was to carve out my legacy hard work and not yapping so much would be apart of it. So my funks/depression do last very long. It was a couple days and I still managed to get some things done. I also didn't have to make amends. I rarely fly off the handle and if I do I am quick to make an amend. It really is amazing that I can get stuff done even when I am feeling crappy. I remember in college when a random slore would dump me I would go into days/weeks/months of being drunk and not being productive. Luckily with the help of God I seem to be handling my emotions better. Of course I can go back to being a wuss bag at anytime if I quit taking action and praying. The thoughts and actions of the St. Francis prayer is always one that has real life benefits with spiritual benefits. If I strive to love and not be loved it takes the focus on what I am feeling and puts the focus on action on the others. It helps me through the tough times. I can focus my attention by writing, talking, and listening to different stories than the B.S. that my mind plays. I actually have affirmations and gratitude lists that are anchored that my mind when left alone will kind of default to. All this stuff helps me from warping myself into a bad mood, or if I am in a bad mood...it helps get it back on track. I am glad my family talks to me. My aunt sent me some money the other day and I meet people in real life that their family hates them. So this has been all over the place but the message is always the same. Thoughts becomes things and if you aren't working on your thoughts you are probably screwed.


Redhair lady. I had a meetup with a girl on my birthday that seemed to go well. She hasn't texted me since then, and she may not want to see me again, but I am glad that I had fun. I guess I will go into a rant about the young pups out there. Young guys...get into the habit of using your phone to see girls, not just text them all the time. You will get friend zoned if all you do is txt dumb texts to each other. Also the only weapon guys really have is walking away V-Foundation always makes points, but he in-directly touched on the biggest thing guys can have in their favor is the ability to walk away.!!!!!! Woman or no woman we will be happy. "nexting" a girl for being off the chain is a way to grow and to keep moving forward to finding a special mate and not one that is going to make you buy 10 cats and have season tickets to the ballet.