Frustrated with some hope.

I have been frustrated with the way I have been feeling lately. I have decided to take action an go to the doctor on Monday to see if I need a change in medicine. My life is not life or death and I shouldn't be having panic attacks or just feeling down so much. I have been doing my best not to let it show in my work or the way I treat people, but I know I am not doing enough to see if there are better options out there to treat anxiety or depression. So I better set aside some money this week to pay the doctor. Kudos for me for taking massive action on the matter and I know now it is up to me to make myself happy no one will do it for yourself.

Work...work is good. I am lower to middle rankings. It has been messed up, but I keep praying and keep taking action trying to be laid back.

Andrea is good. She handles things with grace and class that many people wouldn't. She has worked hard to pause when angered or upset and be able to make better choices. Many people just act out like children. She is a miracle and a testament that your personality and your character can change if you work at it. Sometimes you revert to type and go back to the old way of acting, but you can always improve of patience and pausing to the point were you become better at it.

Patience....you have to be patient to fish.

I went swimming and sat in the hot tub today at 24-hour fitness I want to get my moneys worth.