This week

This week was productive. I felt a bit better about myself this week than I have. My jeans fit better and I have been able to get to the gym and work as hard as I can. I was able to stop myself from eating trash sometimes because I tell myself "I don't want to live like this, I am tired of my clothes not fitting" So I had some energy. On Friday my vacation mess up at work was nagging me very much so. When things nag at my brain I know how to handle it. I have to say. God I will do my job and you do yours, it is in your hands. So I will leave it up to God to settle what the heck is going on with my vacation time. I turned my attention on whom I can help in AA. I went out to eat with Matt The Engineer on Friday. It was good. He bought me a meal for helping him move. It was delicious. Saturday I just had it in my mind that I keep on doing things for other people I will start to move toward peace. Like I said my work was really on my nerves. Everytime work got on my nerves I just told myself "God I give this to you, I can't handle it right now" I knew everything was going to work out because I have faith that you do things for other people and it is all good. I played pinball on saturday and hung out. I decided to go out to eat at The Foundry. Karena was going out with Salon friends and so I didn't think I was going to hang out with her, she ended up strolling into the foundry were I was eating and sat down. Normally I don't think of prayers of working this way, but I was praying and doing an affirmation "Everyone who you love and who loves you is making their way into your life" Now I am firmly in the friend zone with Karena and I am o.k. with that and I was just glad to have someone to make me laugh and take some of the nagging feelings off me. I had tacos at the foundry they were healthy but not that good. They use fresh stuff and glutton free and not lard that Mi Rancheto uses. So it was o.k. Karena and her salon friends sat around and had a good time and I had a long night of laughing and just enjoying myself. Sunday I signed up to work 3 hours and I woke up feeling loved and not alone which is nice. This start of the year I have just been trying to make myself better in hopes of attracting better people and a better life. It was nice to have fun people around me. I worked today then played pinball and watched T.V. with Jason. I have long week tomorrow. I hope my vacation situation gets fixed. Also I have to sell stuff again at work which I am sure will be ok. I got put in a leadership class and I was able to make that class on Friday. Everything works out if I try to contribute and not try to take take take from everything. I had a good day today like I said. My jeans fit better, I had energy to work out and go to work, and I had energy to write this blog. I am glad that I am sober and I am able to grow as a person. I am glad for friends that come along at the right time. I am glad I have Bryce texting me. I don't get to really hang out with him, but I do hang out with other friends which is nice. I am grateful for my life and my health. I am grateful for my parents for always growing and being in a decent mood. I am grateful for my sister, toilets, water, diet coke, coffee, black dog. That is about it.