Thursday

This week I have felt a bit burned out. To cap it off today seemed to take forever for the chiefs to play. I went over to adams and we ate a bunch of food and had a great time. The Chiefs won and it was a really good time. I felt great and I had a great time. I do love having friends with nice houses and buffalo dip. I will now go through my chiefs list of who is good !WOOOO! and who sucks !SUCKS!

!WOOO! Houston-Hali-Berry-Charles-Avery-Poe-Derrick Johnson-Andy Reid.
!Sucks! Mcluster-Fisher-Hudson
!Meh! Alex Smith-Bowe-Tyson Jackson


I could probably write a book about my own burnout experiences, but basically when I focus for long periods of time for days-weeks at a time I get to a point where if I don't take time away and do something silly I do actual damage to my brain. I start doing stuff like forget my phone places...or roll up my windows...I also tend to get real salty with people. I am getting better with dealing with burnout. There was a time where I would call in sick days at a time at work because if I had to do one more hour of work I was going to lose my sanity. Now I can feel it coming on and I talk to a boss and try to get away and watch some beach videos or do breathing exercises for how long it takes. This week I really putting coming home and mentally relaxing to the front because I really needed some time away from work/guitar/random stuff. I am feeling better today after making sure I watched some beach meditation videos on youtube. Obviously mental health is very important to me because it is my understanding that ego-pride-greed sometimes push people to far mentally and without a break it can be dangerous to your sanity and you can do things like yell at people or wreck your car. So The good news is that I am doing more praying and meditation- bad news is I haven't got laundry done and I still haven't gotten to play some video games that are fun. Oddly enough there are some activities I do that are serious even though they should be fun. When I play guitar I really focus and lock in and try to get better. Football is obviously like a religion to me, also some video games can be serious and take focus. I strive more and more to add silly fun games in to give myself a mental break...or a silly movie can be good as well. Overall I have a better sense of what is healthy for me physically and mentally and I strive to have a balance of service to others and to feel good. I sometimes take pride when things aren't going well...to just say hello to people, be professional, and hold doors for people. Also donating and tipping people well is something that I do to really feel good about myself providing a positive vibe to this world. It is sometimes frustrating because I read so many success books, so many nerd books, and I seem like I am not successful with money. I just have to keep it simple and ask myself "Do I treat people well?" "Do people around me benifit?" I really strive to do well and have my experiences mean something to other people. I love to wake up also and I have one thing I did really well so I wake up feeling good about my life. Lots of times it just says. "Take positive action in your life and strive to be selfless"