Spiral of Death or spiral of awesome.

Andrea didn't drink the other day, she learned how to weather the storm. Then go to work the next day. I saw it with my own eyes how not drinking, getting your butt to work, learning to cope and learn can help you and help others. I was thinking about how being overweight sucks. You just are not attractive, so you don't want to work out, then you numb yourself with food or being a brat, and it is hard almost impossible to break that cycle. When you workout people respect you more, you respect yourself, you feel better, and that cycle just keeps you going. Most importantly a good routine can keep you out of the Spiral of Death. It is important to note when you do something good like not drinking, not eating crap food, or when you chose to workout over being lazy...you have to acknowledge the growth. You can see how you get better and it makes the people around you better. I was thinking yesterday that if I was 260 pounds I would get snide remarks from people. I was that big and I haven't had a snide remark about my weight FOR EVER. It is another reason to be grateful today. I also get texts and calls from Andrea which is nice because I remember being unsexy to the point where I got no attention from anyone. That was nice. So the next time I think about skipping a workout I have to imagine not getting text or calls from people, and I have to think about how my being lazy isn't inspiring to anyone, I also always want to be getting better and not worse.