Friday

There is never a good time to do anything once you are elite. It never feels like it is a good time to hit the gym, start a project, talk to a client, talk to a girl, break up with a client, break up with a girl, on and on and on. There is always some B.S. excuse your mind makes up. I am tired, the timing is not right, I am not feeling it, I wish the situation is easier. The fact is you have to get your ass into the gym and work. You have to get out with a client and talk, you have to get out and get some. Talk! grow!! take on some pain!!! damnit!! Do something!! That is my talk for today. I try to jump in and take advantage of a situation that is given and if the opportunities aren't there well change the conditions so there is an opportunity there. The time is always now to take action. Ok whew I feel better. Today I planned on having a fun day with my brain. I was going to take it back to the start and just work up some emotions that were simple. I have water/air/shelter....That is really where I need to start to feel good. You find out what is really important if you are underwater for too long. Suddenly the fact that you aren't making enough money goes way the hell down and your basic need to breath goes to #1. I really worked on Thanking God that I am alive and healthy that I can breath eat and hell to have good toilet paper. That right there generates positive emotions. I really wanted to focus on the great season Sporting KC had. They are in the Champions league for winning the US OPEN CUP. Chiefs are going to get #1 draft pick. KU is looking like a Sweet 16 team with another Big Twelve title a real possibility. Mizzou looks good in basketball, the Mavs are skating around like a bag of balls and doing stuff, the Comets are doing stuff. I really wanted to get down and think think think think about the good things in my life. There has been so much I can't even really get to it. The fact that I can put down information that I want to surround myself with is such a blessing. If I can read, write, and talk about the things that make me feel good, then I will feel good. My Quality of life will be ELITE So that is what I did today. I still worked out and I still grew. I just took some of that focus on BEING THE #1 PERSON OF ALL TIME and put it into growing in gratitude. I think it was a real eye opener when I started to realize I need to forgive myself (again) and forgive other people. I have forgiven myself for lots of stuff over the years, but it was time to forgive myself again. The main thing that I forgave myself for is the fact that it still seems like people are more productive around me. It is ok. The important thing is my burning desire to get better. I can only go out and get some until I am tired, then push myself a bit further, then fall on the ground and pick myself up and get some more. I am just not there yet to the point where I can be productive for 9 or 10 hours in a row. Frankly I don't know if that is something I want. I do know that I want to have a great lifestyle full of wealth and choices. It seems like the people who have choices also have the ability to work long hours with great focus. It is all good though. I am growng, willing to take on some pain, willing to put a smile on my face and be humble. I will get there. I have faith that the natural laws of life will work. Work hard fix your mistakes and success will come your way. This weekend I hope success comes Mo Wests way...they have to win this next game or they will be hitting cosmic bowling at King Hill lanes really early! Alright wrap up time. I grew 1% today in being thankful for the basics. I grew in forgiveness for myself and others. I was able to work up positive emotions and that felt good. Have a good Friday.