Thursday

Yesterday was pretty good. The thing I reinforced in my brain is that...my brain just wants me to survive. It doesn't care that I have hopes in dreams. If I have enough food and shelter it doesn't want to work harder and push and grow. It is my mission to I don't care what my brain tells me. I am working through this. I don't care how much time is left in the day. It doesn't matter, I have no sense of time, all I have is a sense of urgency to get tasks done and a sense of importance to do them correctly. I really try to keep focused on what I want in life. If trash comes into my brain I refocus on the task on hand, or gratitude, or breathing, or how awesome something is. I do have fun though, I was able to rest and watch some hoops yesterday. I haven't seen much of the NBA this year, but I am sure once football is over I will become obsessed basketball some more. Everything is pretty good, I am healthy and I really get excited about how much I can grow and push day in and day out. I really like to imagine what my legacy will be. I am sure it will be to grow and learn. Then apply what you learn and drop the stuff that doesn't work. I think it would be also don't make excuses period. Also don't listen to your brain, it wants you to quit. Listen to mp3's about your dreams, talk and write about what you want, you can control your thoughts if you write and really use energy to focus on the thoughts you want, so don't waste them. Also my legacy would also place importance on being easy on yourself. If you want to be good you cant waste energy on negative emotions. Sometimes you don't get what you want, and thank God things don't go as planned. Life would be boring that way.