sometimes i am surprised

Sometimes I am surprised about he non-pissed I get. I guess it is because I pushed so hard the last couple years that I have a deep knowledge about the UPS and downs on life. I went to Lawrence with K and the night seemed to be the biggest sad day ever. It snowed on my new shoes, people were rude, roads were slick. I wasn't mad at all. I understand I can only put my sails up to catch the winds of awesome, but sometimes my sails catch the winds of sucky night. It was a good night overall because we were out banging the guns. I saw my sister and Ben... We also saw V and Birdie. They were having a good time. I told Steve. I am going to break this DJ's neck. That was funny to me. Birdie had ice poured down his shirt and I am glad he took it as a joke. I've seen some busters end up dead in industrial city for actions like that. So anyway I focused on the fact we were out banging the guns and not playing some bullcrap game like candyland. So the day was good one and I didn't get pissed. That is progress.