eating johnsonville meatballs

Johnsonville not only makes good bratwursts, but their meatballs are really good. Tuesday was good. I hung out with my friend Andrea. Her dog hates me. It is a Lab mixed with a poodle. I am not going to name what it's official name is. I have felt pretty good day in and day out. I really try to take time to pray and thank God for everything I have. Especially food and air. I hate being without clean air. It really bites the big one. KU won another conference championship. I miss the games with KU VS MIZZOU. that was the best and most hated battle ever. Everything is good. I always talk about getting hooked. Bad people or bad thinking will lead you to be in a bad mood. Bad mood makes you less effective. I sometimes get on my own nerves. I got my paycheck but my credit card balance is a source of concern. I can only do what I can do I guess. I am trying to find a balance (Pun intended) of going out and eating and having a good time, and putting money towards that credit card. It can always be worse and I thank God that I have a job. I know that I am doing the best I can and there are many miracles in my life. I still haven't eaten much carbs at all. That is a miracle because I had bad issues with just eating so many chips pop and candy. I really feel like I have had more consistant energy all day because I am off the roller coaster of eating that much sugar. Jason is doing well. He and I are looking to make another months of rent for march. That is a miracle as well. Our front room looks so dope. My old apartment was crappy because I put no effort into it, but believe me our front room looks good enough that I really try to focus on how much better my life has gotten. My bank account in the last year has gone to crap, but my waistline has gone down, the beautiful woman in my life has gone up, and my overall happiness is way better. I really have deep level tools to use when my mood becomes bad. I really try to focus on the money I am making if I am working, I try to focus on the people I am helping, and I try to focus on the skills that I am cultivating or the skills that I am maintaining doing whatever it is I am doing. I am ready so much for Royals baseball and Sporting KC. That will help my happiness as well.

Sometimes I really look at other people and I really feel bad that they didn't put themselves through hitting on a bunch of girls and do comedy. I have deep level lessons of "Not caring what people think" "Not getting emotionally hooked" "Bouncing back from rejection" I am lucky that I got lots of my mental game or mental thinking to a good spot so I can just enjoy helping people, and I can enjoy my day making money and enjoy my health. My health has been decent throughout my sober time and that I am thankful.