Thursday

Thursday I was alittle bit annoyed. I am trying to figure out this credit card situation. I know there is not much I can do but be frugal as heck and keep working as much as possible. I just got a check and growl....I am just going to pray and hope for the best. I will have enough money for rent for this check...and next check on Friday I should have enough for the jeep. It is tough to have peace of mind without insurance so I paid that today and my work insurance will kick in soon. One thing I am grateful is my work. My work offers some relief from my own thoughts and my selfish ways. I can focus on work or prayer to really take a weight off my shoulders. I know things will be better and I am grateful I am moved into a seeming stable situation with Jason. As fearful I am right now about money, it was worse around Christmas with no job and such. It is really hard for me to work when I am in a bad mood. I always have to focus on what is important. I focus on the fact I am not drunk somewhere in a ditch or that I have a DUI or anything like that. I am healthy and I have a sense of humor. So anyway I know what a solution is when I get bothered by money, it is to focus on what I already have..jeep...tv....guitar....health...and not what I don't have. Who knows what the future will bring. Maybe I will win the lotto. Now that I have that off my chest it is time to relax and enjoy my Thursday night. Wednesdays and Mondays bring a big workload with duties at work and in AA. I want to remain sober and I want to learn more on how to deal with people. I really strive to treat people well because that is one of the only things I have going for me. I got complimented today with my patience. That is a big deal because I actively try to cultivate my skill of patience.