Friday

Friday I woke up. I prayed and I read. I read spiritual books. When I read the daily prayer I think it does something different than the just regular prayer of "OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME NOT EAT FUNYONS. I DON'T WANT TO BE FAT" I Vacuumed my room. I called the apt complex because my toilet isn't working. I am grateful today that I live in an apartment complex. I don't have the effort or skills to work on toilets. My first paycheck is in two weeks for my job. That is a bummer. I still need to file my taxes, but first I need money to have them filed. So anyway just looking at my money situation for the next couple weeks could be weird. I got my Jeep, insurance, and Rent paid for. So car and rent is what is the most important bills that I need to be paid. I am trying to cultivate gratitude every day for a roof over my head and beef jerky in my belly.

I went to 24 hour fitness today. I told the lady that works there. Thank you for the positive attitude. It has changed my life. I made good eye contact and stood up straight. I need to work on my customer skills so much and so often that I am taking every chance I get in everyday life to really make an effort to smile and be positive.

I have changed as a person. I used to hate positive people. Now I am just willing to work on being a positive person in the face of challenges and negative emotions.