New Years Eve

I woke up today. I was in a pretty bad mood. I try to really think about the fact that I live in America and that life is better than being a burn victim, a person with cancer, or a Browns fan. It doesn't really change my feelings that much. I have been working on my attitude all day. I have a horrible predisposition of just bitching and moaning in my mind. I was slightly productive. I paid rent. That is a miracle for a couple of ragtag retired party guys Jason and I. Anyway I am starting to feel better now. I just now a crap attitude isn't good and is exactly how you bring out the worst in people. Anyway I am going to try to just listen to music tonight and blog. I am listening to Metric, Slightly Stoopid, Sublime with Rome, and The Urge today.

Monday

Today I had a goal in mind to work all day on whatever...just be productive. I woke up and I went and worked out. I walked 3 miles and I did biceps. I over trained a bit because at 6 I just started feeling awful. So I will probably stick to around 2 miles a day and some lifting. Anymore than that my body just hurts and I ache...not a good ache either. I applied for jobs. I had an interview for a weekend job at the YMCA and that went well. So I should be able to get a few hours in at the YMCA and give back to the community a bit. They need my social security card. I called up my dad to get that. I watched the KU game with John T. Adam and Jason. They played well and Tharpe had a stand out game. I played grand theft auto san andres at night and that game is old as hell, but I never gave it an honest play because I was busy partying. It is still fun even though the fx are crap. I also played some Top Spin 4. My characters name in Top Spin 4 is Byrd Player 1. It is a pretty fun game.

Diet

Today I had some of those lean turkey sausages that Johnsonville makes. I always eye candy and want a boost, but I am like "I can hold out until the cravings passes" I am such a foodie. I have noticed a difference in some places. I can feel my collar bone sticking out and my legs are skinnier. I also get to talk to my friend matt about nutrition and losing weight or cutting. I told him I started going 20 grams a day on carbs, but eventually I just lost my appetite for meat. It started making me sick. I would go to the Hy-vee salad bar and hard boiled egg whites bacon and cheese. The workers would tell me that "those are toppings, not the main course" In final I think part of the ways that Low carbs help is it just makes you lose your appetite sometimes. I can't eat cookies and the stuff I can eat just doesn't sound good so I will just do something else.

Anyway I have seen a change since going low carb or lower carb. I eat lots more veggies and fruits. I have less energy because I am not smashing snickers bars, my legs are small. It is a challenge just to be happy with the progress I have seen. There is a perfectionist in me that just says...well if I can't be like the dude on the bowflex commercial I mine as well not try. That is a losing attitude for sure. It is about building character on the inside and outside.

Sunday

Sunday Jason and I watched football for most of the day. It was very cold out. A pizza man came to our door. It was not for us. I posted some random pictures online. I am going to post some random pictures of westport right now. wait I guess this is a football picture. My dad is chilling in the stands.


Kelly's then a picture looking down Pennsylvania and then a a picture of what used to be america's pub.

Saturday

Saturday I went to watch UFC with Matt the engineer. It was fun. The female fight was very entertaining. Sunday I woke and I went for a 2 mile walk and did incline bench press. I did tricep. Pull downs as well. Working while still being tired is something I need to work on.

Saturday

I played old school Grand Theft Auto. I went for a 2 mile walk. It was very beautiful out.

Friday

It was 50 degrees out. I was able to get a 2 mile walk. Probably more than that because it is longer from my new apartment complex

Stuff

A couple years back I decided to hit on every woman possible. I decided to get my emotions figured out so I don't have to fear rejection. I still fear rejection, but it doesn't stop me from taking action. Every once in awhile I get a chance to flex my experience. There was a lady in the library that I asked out. She said no and I was able to work through the emotions of the rejections. I also I am making it a point to write down on my blog that I am one of the only people I have ever known that has the balls to ask out ladies to their faces. It is like stepping up to a spotlight on a comedy show. Just have to go in and set the bar low and be happy that you stepped up.

Thursday

Thursday I woke up and walked a couple miles. I didn't lift today. I just made sure I made it to the gym to do some walking. I then went to the Library. You can rent art at the library here. That is weird. I then applied for some jobs. Played some video games. Went to black dog. Jasons car broke down he is trying to get that figured out. I keep on praying and working hard to find a job. I always pray for faith and try to keep a positive attitude. I still have to call my DMO because for some reason they didn't cover my last cleaning. I also have to call coventry because Obamacare hasn't sent me my letter for premiums yet. I get a bit grumpy at night because I am a bit tired and frustrated at the lack of action. I still get used to staying in or just going to black dog. I have to tell myself that quiet nights and staying out of trouble is good for Jason and I. If we keep doing that we and the people around us will have an easier life. I ate berries, eggs, ham, bacon, brocolli, and seeds today. This is day 20 or so without chips, crackers, cake, pies, jams, sugar. So that is good. I think the long term getting away from the bull crap cookies and rice crispy treats is good for me.

Don Jon

Jason and I just got done watching Don Jon. It just shows you how porn and Iphones are driving the sexes away from each other.

Atlas Genius

A nice change of pace. I was able to check out music by Atlas Genius. They sound good in studio. Guitar Sessions are a good way to find out and listen to music.

Random grades for music

Metric Youth without Youth 8/10

Atlas If So Genius 9/10

Christmas part 2

Thank you the elder statesmen for the picture of delicious meat. That is a great way to kick off the holidays. The one thing I wanted to get done this Holiday is get a jacket to wear to interviews. I have a sneaky feeling that people get all judgemental if you don't wear a bad ass dress coat. I was able to make a note and make sure I get a coat from my dads.

Christmas

Christmas went well. I got lots of things that I am thankful for. I did as best as I could on low-carb. I probably went over on the calories, but I didn't eat cake, cookies, pies, crackers, chips. I did eat roast, peas, and brocoli. I was able to go for a couple walks during the Holidays. I did my best and it is my job to be happy about it. I feel tired as hell right now and I might post more later when I get rested.

Monday

I made sure I worked my bench press today. 135 x14 150 x6 185 x2 the spotter over helped me I thought, but I wasn't going to try to get 185 again. Just mine as well take what the lifting Gods have given me. I put the effort to go to the gym and get in the bench and gave it a good run. Can't be obsessed with a new max to the point where hurt myself. I did standing flys and triceps and walked a bit today as well. I ate a salad from hy-vee which was hard boiled eggs with the yoke popped out of them ham chicken cheese broccoli. I need more fiber in the form of broccoli.

Saw a big ass deer today

I saw a big buck today. Huge rack. It was quite an experience. I have never seen one that big before. It was off of Lackman and I slowed down and it stood straight up like on the video game "big buck Hunter" it was cartoon-like big. I was very in awe of it. It ran away.

Friday and most of the weekend

Friday and most of the weekend I was around sugar bullcrap and I avoided eating it. I really don't have cravings, but I just want to feel something different other than bla. there is a deep connection to having a sugar high when I was younger even today. I know I used to use food to change my state of mind. I just have to get through some hours when I feel bla and I get the reward of writing on the blog that I didn't eat sugar or cookies. Long term health and confidence that I can avoid eating bullcrap one day at a time is the reward.

Sunday

So I moved this weekend. It was a pain in the ass. Like like really bad. We couldn't get the couch to fit. We got a new one. I moved all day for a billion hours. I finally got my computer and my laptop set up to work right now. The Chiefs sucked and also the roads the sucked. I am listening to Hollywood Ending by The Urge. That is a good thing. So I feel good overall, but that is because my soundbar and my subwolfer are thumping The Urge. Also Jason has the place looking smooth. My room looks like crap. That is what happens though when you have all my computer and guitar stuff. Pearl Jams Future days is a solid song as well. I probably need to listen to newer bands than those old farts from the 90's


Sometimes I think I have crappy luck, but when I got youtube and every song at my disposal I can't bitch too much.

This was day 17 of low carb. I didn't lift weights today because my arms and legs were sore from moving. I struggled to think of something that didn't seem gross because I have eaten chicken and eggs for 75 percent of my diet. I went to hy-vee salad bar and had chicken/crab/Ham/Broccoli/some beef/eggs again. It filled me up and provided me variety. I had chicken for dinner.

Friday and Saturday

Friday Jason and I had our time honored tradition of "Buy weird shit off of craigslist" We went to black dog. There is a board game called "GO". It is for nerds. I talked to John behind the counter for awhile and it was nice. Sometimes the workers there get sick of our faces and probably get sick of us tipping a quarter. So it was nice to chat with that person. Today we are moving. I have been praying for lots of things. Mostly just to keep the faith that the move will go well and I will find a decent job. On the surface it seems like I got screwed. I remember moving down to Lenexa 9 years ago and I thought I was getting screwed because I had to pay for my own place without a room mate. I realize now life was doing me a favor by making me survive on my own. I guess that is the trick for me of life is taking every situation and try to handle it with class and learn from it. Barry' Grasses music list is out for 2013!

Just when I think I can't like Roger Eberts Blogs any more.

He goes and marries a big black woman named Chaz. Who knew this fat grumpy white guy liked some soul with his women.



Thumbs up indeed

bench.

135 x12 155 x8 175 2x 180 x2

Thursday

Thursday I applied at Allied Data Systems and Cerner. I was able to execute applying for those jobs. Points for me. I met up with Bryce at Mcdonald's to shoot the breeze. He has a small Crabtree like beard. It is pretty sweet. We talked about Suits, work, life, people past and present named Max. I was able to scope out the menu to see what would be low carb. Chicken cheese salad would probably be ok. Mcdonalds for all the shit they get for being healthy, has added something ok to eat. Mcdonalds also has wi-fi and decent coffee for 1.09. I texted my sister to see if she needed me to buy anything for Cortland for christmas and she said nope. I started listen to Roger Eberts autobiography on tape. I was sad that it wasn't him reading it, but he couldn't eat speak or talk for a couple years before his death because of jaw cancer. He has a crisp memory for sure. He couldn't talk at the end but it strengthened his writing. I think he wrote a blog the day before his death actually. I always like the fat critic because he drank a ton and he was fat. He was a bit of an asshole and I can relate to that.

Anyway this has been what I have been eating as of late. 20 grams of carbs in the steam bag of broccoli. I try to stay below 50 but I am not too nazi-ish about it. I eat those greens just to keep me regular as well.

Meals and WTF?

Here is a staple of what I have been eating Followed by a what the fuck? Because I am not sure why chicken gets a D minus. It is high in fat, which you need, no carbs, and plenty of food. I guess it gets a bad grade because it is high in fat, but your body need fat. Whatever I am not going to get pissed about some dumb website.

Lifting

Upright rows...4 sets...Watched heat beat the Pacers. Now watching 3:10 to Yuma.

Applied at Sprint.

Applied for some job at sprint. It was not fun going through another test, but oh well. Did my best gave myself credit and moved on.

Followed up with GE today

I followed up with GE today to see if there was something else I could do to get the job there. I pressed out of my comfort zone pushing further there than I normally would. Lots of times I just say..whatever it wasn't supposed to be, but being old and grizzled I have learned sometimes you have to just push your way into getting jobs. I was nervous talking to people because I rarely push hard to get a job, and when I say rarely I mean this was the first time haha. So that was a new one. Good on me for putting forth effort.

Late night walk 2 miles

Took advantage of decent weather.

This was the situation at black dog.

Cute girl 7 walks in with fashion glasses

"Are you near sided or are those just for fashion?"

Girl: I am near sided but not by much.

Ray: That is good I had a friend that wore glasses for fashion and she went blind.

Girl: Because of the glasses?!!

Ray: Naaa she stared at the sun......alot

Tuesday

Felt like crap most of today. Didn't work out much did some leg presses. Jason wanted to go pick out a new couch for our new place. So we did. We also got to see what the new place looked like. He liked it, which is good. He seemed to be excited. I took care of business, no contacts from job leads yet. Eat veggies on low carb diet btw, they won't kill you. You also have to still have to burn more calories than you take in. I think this is a fact that I am missing (as I slowly eat another piece of bacon)

leg presses 210 x8

walked a mile.leg presses 130 150 170

Monday

I had a job actually go to the second step with me today! Yay. I did my thing. Called power and light to transfer service. Transferred gas services..although weirdly enough it said wait 3 business days for confirmation. I got set up for time warner cable to come over and transfer service. They will be over 2-4 on Saturday. I went for a walk outside. It was ok. I am a bit sore but it was nice. I am glad we have random days that is nice out. Tonight is a meeting then probably coffee. I bought a shower head and again I screwed up drip pans or my stove. I am the worst shopper ever for drip pans. I am going to re-read and listen to Eckhart Tolle's a new world. The Library system in JoCo is off the chain. You can hold stuff online or have them transfer books for you. Seriously awesome.

bench press 175 x3

day 10 of low carb

Day 10 of low carb. It isn't that hard. I have been used to turning down food and other stuff for years. The hardest thing to do is to make sure you have some turkey or chicken around ahead of the time before you are hungry so I don't pull over and eat chips. Like I said it is early in the game. The changes are that I feel a bit leaner and I feel good that I am able to actually execute a diet. Also I am stronger in the gym because the amount of protein.

Chiefs win

Went over to Adams. Jason was there. Kelly--whatever her name was there as well. It was fun. I have fun friends. I am glad that I have people that want to hang with me. That means I offer some sort of value. Big week this weekend preparing to room. Need to work hard and be productive.

Catching up on the Penguins

Thanks to my HDMI chord. Watching some streaming penguins games vs Devils. Geno Malkin is good.

Saturday

Woke up and worked out. Watched Archer. Went on a cleaning binge. Sold some of my old ass x-box games. Apparently that old ass x-box games can be worth money. Cleaning binge part 2. Jason and Adam came over or the last KU watch party at my old place, went to black dog, talked to chicks, came home and went to bed.

lat pulldowns

105 x15 120 x10 135 x 4 135 x 4.

Walked on the treadmill for 3 miles. Did bench press with dumbbells 40 50 60 x10 60 is my pr but I could do more I.have.troube.transferong.the dumb bells.to bench position.

Thursday

Thursday I was really in the mood to play with my racing wheel. I tried to get the wheel to play with my laptop and on the screen of my HDTV it never quite worked correctly. It was better than just sitting there with a craving to play a racing game with a wheel. When I get a new job I am going to try to get a good wheel for my xbox 360. I hope the broncos lose tonight.

Should we chant...

Should the cauldron chant "SKC AIN'T NOTHING TO FUCK WITH"

Inspirational quote

squats

60lbs x10 60lbs x10 squats. 60 pounds is pathetic, but I know I can work on.it.

Wednesday

Wednesday I worked out. I went to Wal-Mart to get some pans that go under the hot grill things on the top of the stove? I don't know what they are called and I went to wal-mart twice today and still need to get one more of the drip pan dealies. I also got a 6 foot HDMI cord which was too small. I got a big ass one and now I can blog on my big screen and I can also watch youtube clips. This is somewhat significant because the best sound I can get out of any speakers is my soundbar and my subwoolfer. So I can watch or stream videos through my laptop. I can also watch a bunch of highlights on demand streamed right to my TV. In my best Yakaf Smirnoff voice.

"What a country!"

Diet

I have seen some difference in the weight room and around my boob area thanks to not eating mike and ikes and eating more Turkey-Chicken-Pork Skins (CARBS) Seeds Nuts. Basically not eating white rice, noodles, cake, pies. Anyway I thought this was a nice find. Some of the other dinners like this have carbs in it but this has 0 carbs. It is my food of the week.

lat pull downs

105 x15 120x11. 135 x4 135x4

Curls 50 x10 55x6 60x4

Total number lifted

I guess I need to have the total amount of weight lifted so two 30 pound dumbells are 60 pounds how many times is X so 30 pound dumbells shoulder pressed at 10 times is 60x10


Walked for warmup then
shoulder press 15x 60 15x 70 100 lbs 4x Delt machine 70 x10 90x 4 90x 4 upright rows 60 x15 70 x10 80 x2

BroScienceLife

BroScienceLife is a must follow for a weight lifter it is very tongue in cheek, but many things said in jest are true.

shoulder press

15x 30 15x35 50 lbs 4x felt machine 70 x10 90x 4 90x 4 upright rows 30 x15 35 x10 40 x2

Monday

Yesterday I met up with Raymond and then hung out with Jason at black dog. I checked out nhl 2014 from the library. Only in JoCo would you have brand new video games to check out.

Tuesday I got dressed went to Bryce's dads funeral. Everyone looked clean and had suits on. Pretty good showing from roughneck north-side boys. I drove back because I was not feeling well. I applying for jobs today.

Damnit

Cashews and peanuts are pretty high in carbs and starch and I have been noming on them for a couple days. I guess the results are not to get addicted to them and try to eat almonds and macadimeans instead. So learning is good right? You want the most out of your low carb diet avoid peanuts and cashews.

G.E.

I applied at GE today, and even though I was qualified I didn't pass the entrance exam. A bit frustrating, but it is for the best I am sure.

Work on patience

I have had the chance to practice patience over the years. It has served me well and sometimes the impact of the amount of practice is felt. I was going to Hy-vee to get chicken and I stood at the deli part and I was confused where to stand so I went to the counter and waited in line. I was a bit salty about waiting in line because it was leg day and I am always pissed on leg day. Anyway I get up there and the lady says I have to go by where the chicken is at and wait. Now I was confused why I had to go over and stand by the chicken because it was 10 feet away and why she just couldn't get the chicken, and I could feel that she was a bit harsh in her tone, but whatever. The mid-west is very nice and any hint of rudeness stands out...So I go down there and I am like "That lady has a tough job, it's a rough day for everyone just be patient and enjoy Sunday. Its chiefs day. No one can be mad on chiefs day." So she came down there and I was pretty bouncy just feeling good and she changed her attitude and I think because I calmed down she gave me the freshest and the best looking chicken out of the bunch. The chicken was delicious and nourishing enough to get me through another chiefs victory.

Saturday and Sunday.

I had a great birthday day and night. My parents came down and gave me gifts of awesome at Johnny's Tavern. Sporting KC won. I avoided birthday cake and ate chicken. It was a great night. Ended the night hanging out at black dog. Sunday I woke up and got a bucket of Hy-vee chicken and summer sausage watched the chiefs win. I found out that egg yokes have 57% of your daily allowance of cholesterol so although I am cynical about how bad studies on eggs are it will make me more aware of maybe buying egg whites and not eating the yoke out of hard boiled eggs.

on Sunday I walked a bit then I did leg presses which totally sucked, but I can see some gains in the amount of weight I am lifting. So that felt goood.

Diet

Chicken Wings Chicken cheese Veggies almonds cashews 2 chicken sausages and some sliced chicken. I think I stayed another day under my carb limit. I did eat a ton though. I worked my back biceps and walked a bit today.

MLS CUP CHAMPIONS

Sporting Kansas City are the Champions of the MLS. They get a birth in the champions league as well.

Brutal Draw for the USMNT

Ooof...if you are going to Brazil pack lightly.

Thursday Night

Thursday night I went to black dog. I am reading a book about roller derby chicks. They are hot. Bad attitudes, tats, possible meth addiction. I wish they had links to their myspace pages in this book. I played some video games. I played some old school Grand Theft Auto and I played some Golf. It was a nice night.

Wednesday night

Wednesday Jason and I hung out at black dog. I then went to a meeting that night. It was a bit boring but we talked about boring routines. How funny it is that I hate boring routines but I also hate change and I kind of hate excitement and drama.

So I have been playing around with my diet for poops and giggles and I really went low carb just to see what would happen. Now I have gone low carb before but I remember the frustration of being full but still not satisfied. When you are sober, not on drugs, not having sex, food can be the last final outlet of pleasure. So this time I am still not boning chicks, or drinking, or smoking herb, but I decided to give it a shot because my theory is that by going low carb, you are putting down that cookie and not eating mike and ikes, that alone will help you shed some weight. So the first day was tough, there wasn't much brain fog. I am used to some brain fog and I know it goes away. I think the real thing is you have to write about your diet at the end of the day and really give yourself credit if you do well. There are people at Wal-Mart who look like shit because they can't even come close to eating a decent diet. So anyway I gave myself credit and I am on day 3. It does give you more physical strength because you are taking in eggs instead of Twizzlers.

Wow LOL

I found a job that sounds like something I do anyway. Dealing with Sports and concert tickets. Oh NO it need me to fax things in? Well I had to drive around and I found out that Hen House is able to fax things in. So points for me for getting off my ass and getting some stuff done. I had to transfer my resume to the computer with a printer and *gasp* write an original cover letter. Also the weather has been awesome and now it is not awesome. Nothing like going out and being like uggggh this is cold. Character building I suppose.

Monday

Monday. I mailed my cobra payment in. I cancelled my cobra effective December 31st. I called coventry to see when my new health insurance premium is going to come in. I talked to all sorts of people that I have negative thoughts about. I was able in the moment to imagine what the person on the other line goes through. I just told myself to breathe. I called my work and discussed various situations. They were nice. Whenever I talk to customer service lines I rarely get the problem solved by the first person. So it is always fun to see how the first sentence out of my mouth makes no sense describing the problem. I worked out yesterday. I met with Raymond. His Thanksgiving went well. We talked about addiction to candy crush. I went to black dog for a bit. Went home and played on the internet and went to sleep.

Sunday

Sunday I woke up and went to the gym and did bench press. I am getting used to lifting again. It really sucks and I think the main thing that sucks is you lift then you have this time in between lifts where I am trying to catch my breathe and just wait for the next lift, and it is an annoying boring time. I know I want to get fit so I have to put up with some crap to get there.

I cleaned the apartment a bit and I got a list of stuff I need to get done this week. I need to pay my cobra, pay rent, get a shower head, clean the bathtub, apply for jobs, still get some working out in, and do all this and try to enjoy it. I know one thing. I will have a better week than Paul Walker.


The Chiefs sucked. Mizzou was awesome. Sporting KC plays in the Championship next week and I caught a bit of the Mo West basketball game on the Radio.


On Saturday The Birdman asked me to hang out for awhile. It was great to see him. I also watched and finished up The Wire. There was a part in there that talked about a man's funeral and how his family is there, and also friends that were as close as family. I thought about The Birdman andThe Elder statesman how they are truly family.

I had a great Thanksgiving and I am ready to get back to work. I had a funny moment on the way to the gym the other day. I thought "Am I ever going to get a break? Am I going to allow myself a full day off?" I then answered my own question. When I have an awesome body and I have a zillion dollars and I have a good career set up, yes I will give myself a break. Until then I will keep on grinding. Now of course sometimes I have to take a break for my mental health, but if I am healthy I am going to be working on myself and getting better.

seclark storyboard

I am getting better at taking an idea in comedy an making a plan to execute it. My friend seclark is a bit of a character. I decided to make a story about him through M.S. Paint. The hardest part was getting out on paper the idea and when I would have time to create the story. The idea popped in my mind in the morning and I was able to get to it at night. That is pretty good turnaround for a comedy idea.

Wednesday Thanksgiving and Friday.

Wednesday night I watched James Bond "Skyfall" it was pretty good. It had the bad guy off of No Country for Old Men. So I enjoyed that. I went to sleep. I woke up thanksgiving went to the gym and did some shoulders and walked. I then got dressed up for Thanksgiving which was at my sisters house. I drove over to Lobrence and gave my nephew Cortland his gift and walked my sisters boyfriends talk. The Turkey was very good. I think baked turkey is the best. It could have used some hot sauce, but that of course is the southern black man in me talking. I tried to watch NFL games but they weren't very interesting to me. The night game was a good one and I watched a bit of Missouri basketball but that didn't hold my attention. Jason and I drove around Lenexa on Thanksgiving night to try to find a coffee place. We ended up finding some babes and they were ok, but mostly just hoooors just looking for attention. It was good night. Friday I woke up and did back and some biceps. I generally felt like crap in the gym today. Probably too much salt and other crap, but I got through my lifting.

Change in philosophy

Spent enough time in the gym there are different angles to it. Lots of people want to do cardio to burn calories and eventually muscle. I always lean towards...if you are going to spend energy (calories) that energy is best served building muscles or keeping muscles you have to keep the time that you rest (which is alot of time if you work at a desk) burning the most calories possible, but then again what do I know. I am still pretty soft. Everyday it feels good to say....you know? I don't know shit...lets try something different for awhile and see what happens.


Mark and I were able to do some spit balling yesterday for some jokes. I got 10 "Likes" for the joke that we wrote. Felt pretty good and I am always trying to write as many jokes as possible to hone my craft...homie.

Went for a walk after work.

Nuff said.

leg day

I worked out my legs today and went for a walk. I read a bit of the art of seduction by Robert Greene. Right now in the book Cleopatra is showing some leg and getting guys to hand over their kingdoms for the chance at the puss. Pretty interesting book. Today I am going to try to get MLS finals tickets.

Sunday

Sunday I went over to Adams to watch the Chiefs game. The Chiefs lost but it was a great game to watch. Defense has sucked for awhile lately. Plenty of football to be played this year. I brought over cookies and Wendy's chili. I had a good time.

We got'em

Woke up Saturday and worked out. Then cleaned and just hung around all day. Waiting for the SKC game. I drove to the stadium early because I had nothing to do. I played with my phone for awhile. I relaxed. I walked to ABryants. It was very cold and I knew I was in for a wild night. My dad met me for food, it was very good. Beef on bun is the best thing to get there. I chatted up the nice man cutting my meat. I don't think it helped him to give me more, but he gave me some ideas of small chit chat. I asked him if he had plans for christmas and he said he is visiting his mom. I made sure my dad and I had a table to watch the NDame game. We watched them play and ate bbq. Then Matt and Monica met us to eat. Sporting KC has the best intro I have seen. They turned off all the lights. Tech Nine was there. On a sidenote I had been begging tech nine and SKC to have him out there. Tech Nine is alternative rap and roll and he goes great with the alternative sport that is Footy. The game started out with Houston scoring which let me to believe that we were once again going to loose, but not so fast my friend. Sapong scored a goal and then Dwyer had a sinful goal that was awesome. Besler was only one that stood out that played bad. I heard on the post game they thought he played "UP TO TASK" I guess that when you have the assignment for being the #1 Back you are going to look like crap. Everyone else played great.
Zusi was on fire. He was pretty much having his way just doing all sorts of moves. He put clown shoes on Houston all night. SKC won and I stayed as long as I could to watch the ceremonies.

Collin A+
Dwyer A
Fielhaber A
URI-A+
Chance A
Sinovic A
Sapong A
Nielson A-
Nags A
Besler A
Zusi A+

Ab work out.

One of the biggest changes in my life happened last year was when I got a pass to a gym. It made me work a bit harder and under better conditions it was easier to push myself. It also was a productive place to go when I was bored. Instead of sitting around eating and being bored I could go people watch, girl watch, or witness some crazy ass people do weird things. Anyway my point is I learned that there are ab workouts that I have noticed helped me have better posture during the day. I always hat ab workouts because I have a gut and it is never fun to sit there and witness your flab flex in and out. The point of this rambling is that I want to Log on the internet that I have developed a new skill of trying new things at the gym. This is going to increase me standing up straight, and standing up straight will help me be awesome.

Sporting Kansas City November 23rd

Today is a cold day. I expect it to really wear me out. It has been very long and difficult season. It comes down to one game. I expect Dom Dwyer to play Striker up top. My dad is coming down to the game and I really am just going to soak it in. I went to all but a few games and they are truly the best Footy Club in all of the land.

Friday and Saturday

I went to work on Friday. Listened to some business MP3s. I then came home pretty wiped out from the week. I watched boardwalk empire and then just channel surfed until I went to bed. I woke up and then I went to work out. I then went to buy some stuff at Hy-Vee. I then applied for a job for an Underwriting Position and a different adjusting job at All-State.

friday

My ability to make myself do something I should do. When I should do it. Whether I feel like it or not determine my success.

Thursday

I woke up and walked and worked out my.biceps. Felt good but a little bit tough mentally to get through my workout. I have to remember the time I put in helps me stay mentally and physically string. Prevents me from getting soft. Pacers won in OT yesterday.

Must make a note today.

I feel good today. Exercise, Chicken, and sleep put me in a good mood this morning. Updating the linkin and resume.

My Job is not working out.

I was hoping that things would turn around at work as far as business goes. I have worked hard to learn the system and have done everything they asked of me, but they are not going to hire me on as a permanent fixture which was no surprise because they were not busy. So I have been gathering my stuff up and trying to look for new work all while trying to be honest with everyone. I asked Jason this and it was quite funny.

Ray:So I will be looking for new work next year, if we sign a lease do you trust me to get a new job?
Jason: Do you trust me to keep my job?
Ray: I thought that as well, I guess this will be an adventure.

So I am up early this morning getting my resume together and I am working out, I have really nothing else to focus on other than just keep working on getting better in all area's of my life.

After I worked out today I thought about talking to the "Hired Gun" hot girl that works at 24 hour fitness. Yesterday I made it a point to talk to her, but today I just walked out like a bauce maybe I will talk to her again tomorrow.

david and goliath

Starting the Malcom gladwell's book. It is going to be good. Finished Nick offermans book paddle your own canoe.

million dollar mouth piece.

My ability to talk to people has gone down due to me NGAF about it as of late. I want to give myself credit for talking to the lady that works at 24 hour fitness. We kept it short but I did learn about her.

chiefs and mo west dumpster fire.

Crap weekend for Mo west and the chiefs. I had fun with my dad and my friends. Jason made chili and it was off the chain. Sporting plays Saturday. I am ready to win the cup.

Monday

I was able to wake up and go to the gym. That was a miracle effort.

Saturday

Woke up on Saturday and went for a walk. I went back to St. Joseph. My dad bought my mom and I red lobster. It was very good and clean. That place has cleaned itself up. We then watched Mo West get killed. It was a fun game to watch. This lady in the back was shouting dirty words all game. It was a fun season and my dad and I saw every home game. I came home and hung up my laundry. That was the biggest thing I did yesterday was get some laundry done. I then just played on the internet, played some video games and called it a night.

weekend teaser.

Northwest vs. Mo West. Nothing really to say further. Chiefs Broncos...and Nascar wraps up this weekend. Going to be great entertainment.

thursday night and friday morning.

Thursday night I watched Argo and boardwalk empire. Friday morning I went to 24 hour fitness and worked out. I grew.my character in grit, toughness and stick-to-itiveness. Mental toughness and physical toughness are both things I need to actively work on so I don't soft. I am thankful to be healthy and alive today. Thank God it is Friday.

thursday

I love video games. They are behind my love for long walks so I don't play much anymore. I am interested in xbone but I don't need to own one. I am always interested in the newest gaming systems. I especially love fanboy nerds getting pissed at dumb things like frames per second. The Lakers suck this year btw. When the f is black mamba coming back?

Wednesday and thurs morning

Yesterday after work I went to a meeting and I played video games. I then went to bed at a decent hour. Today I woke up and walked a couple miles. Ot felt good. No pain no gain. Haha.

paddle your own canoe

Great book so far. Cutting nuts off of a pig on a farm was disturbing section.

wednesday

I worked out this morning. I will trade annoying time on the treadmill for character building. Yesterday I hung out with Jason and watched some hoops. Today so am working because deadbeat parents need me to buy their kids toys for Christmas.

People Skills

I have always sucked with my buddies girlfriends. It is because I am jealous and my ego can be somewhat big. I always feeings of jealousy that the my guy friends have girlfriends, or jealousy because the woman get attention from people. Ok I will just be honest. My Ego can get Really big when it wants attention. For the last couple years I have talked and prayed to really see people for who they are. I talked to Raymond and the late Jamie Findly about how I always have emotions with people that I can't set aside when interacting with people. I had a problem for the longest time just being a jerk to people. (Sometimes I still am a Jerk to people...but hey I am human) I have had several interactions as of late with my buddies girlfriends or wives that I think shows spiritual progress. Just like shooting a basketball is a skill that can be cultivated I really believe handling people or showing social intelligence is a skill that can be grown. It took some work but I am happy that that interactions with people go better today than they did a decade ago. It is important to me for many reasons, but most importantly because I am going to come across some 25 year old guy who keeps fighting everyone and everything like I used to, and I am going to teach him just I have been taught. You can really work on being patient with yourself and others and see good results. I like to have a vision for myself practicing being a good person for a long time and being some sort of a spiritual teacher to young people who constantly try to go against the flow of life.


Also I talked to this lady the other day who played in a band for the first time at Black Dog. I knew lots about recording studios, guitars, bass, basically anything and everything about being in a band. The hard work that I put in over the summer playing in a band came in useful and I think the lady could use a couple of my nuggets of information to help her band along and not do stupid stuff that can be avoided. I am satisfied when the grind, the work, the experience, helps someone else in the journey.

Tuesday night

Tuesday I came home and ate chili from wendy's I went over to Johnny Mexico's to watch KU, but the game was on late so I left before it even came on. I was pretty grumpy anyways. I better get used to being around people and handling them because I will be living with some soon. I can't wait to read Nick Offerman's book Paddle your own canoe.

dbowe arrested

That sucks that dbowe was arrested. It did provide me joke material for today. The metal band "The Sword" is what I am listening to today.

Tuesday

I woke up and went to the gym. I walked 3 miles. I listened to the strokes and the misfits. It was a good character building experience. I need to get used to the cold. I will be out in it when Skc kicks Houston's butt in the conference finals. I have my mind on the KU vs. Duke game tonight. Andrew Wiggins is going to score 20. That is my bold prediction.

Monday

I was able to walk this morning. There was something crazy going on in Lenexa yesterday night. Lots of sirens. I tried to get online to the police scanner but fell back asleep. Duke vs. KU tomorrow. Going to be a barn burner.

Vulcan or terminator....or rare outlier

On Bill Simmons podcast he talks about two times of championship athletes. Terminator...a person who is a butthole jerk who steps on the throats of the opposing team. Sometimes even their own team mates. Or a Vulcan which is a person who has no feelings and is very robotic. Since tennis is one of the most mental games there is it is fun to try to put tennis champions in either category. Sometimes there is the outlier of a person so gifted they are just nice guys who still are able to crush people...like Lebron James. I will start the blog off with Terminators in tennis

Jimmy Connors
John McEnroe
Rafael Nadal
Jokivitch.

Terminators in basketball

Michael Jordan
Reggie Miller
Kobe Bryant
Shaq
The entire 80's pistons.

Saturday night

Saturday consisted of me going to 24 hour fitness. I put in about 4 miles on the treadmill. I didn't feel great about it or anything. That leads me to believe the fact that in fat peoples minds there is no correlation between hard work on the treadmill or working out and a good positive feeling. I worked out pretty hard and I felt a meh sensation. I do have a small feeling of "Hey duke!" great job! Not as much as I would hope for. I think if I was to teach a class about working out I would really have people think about what makes them feel good about working out. Health, productivity, doing two things at once. Sometimes I watch basketball while I walk on the treadmill. That is being productive. The end game here is anchoring good feelings with positive habits. I eat well I make sure I give myself credit for eating well. I work out. I make sure I give myself credit for working out.


Saturday was a tie for Sporting KC. This is good. They needed to tread water until they come home and get rested. One game away from playing in the MLS Cup. It is a step in the right direction and I think they can get to the cup. Then if they get there they will have home field. Clean sheet and a shutout means credit to Nielsen-Besler-Collin.


Penguins lost to Blues yesterday and there was awkward moments at black dog.

Better SKC matchup.

This week had a bit of ups and downs. I am looking for a new place since I can't stay under budget at my own place. So I have been working on that. I have been working on work, and working on watching Sporting KC go after the cup. On Wednesday I went to work then met up with Raymond then it was time for hot soccer action. I was meeting my friend Matt at the stadium and he was taking his girlfriend. I was worried because girlfriends and cold weather go together like girlfriends and bad weather. So we watched the game and it was intense. Uri Rossel had a big game as well as everyone else. The play of the the game goes to Seth Sinovic. New England took out Umbango who is a stud striker for their team. He goes off the pitch and SKC scores. That means New England was screwed the rest of the game going forward on offense. Jimmy Nielsen had a big save towards the end and Benny Feilhaber came up with a key interception and pass to Taca Bieler who poked the ball home from 15 feet out for the SKC win. It was a wild night to say the least. Besler and Collin also had huge game. Colin had the first goal to really open up the game. A shout out to Sporting KC's fans the cauldron. They had a sign that said "We are out to get you" it had pac-man on it. IT was awesome. Also my friend Matt brought a huge "Beef on Bun" in which is the meat sandwhich from Arther Bryants. That sandwhich is off the chain. This weekend SKC plays Houston (again) Mizzou plays Kentucky in football..the chiefs are on a bye week.

Friday

Wednesday was the Sporting KC playoff game. It was an epic win. Loud crowd and decent weather. They have a shot at the cup if they don't play like ass pony's against Houston.


Wiggins hasn't shown much at KU yet. Ducks fall to Stanford. 76ers are the surprise of the NBA. Chiefs are perfect and Christmas is almost here. Hallelujah and pass the tylonal.

Weekend

Friday I spoke at an AA meeting sharing my story. It went well. It was my third year of doing this, so I was used to the whole thing. Felt good to get used to speaking in front of people. Saturday I went to watch Mo West lose. My mom had her gal bladder taking out so it was nice to see her. She was in good spirits just a bit sick. I drove back and watched Sporting KC lose. The defense wasn't good and the offense wasn't good. It could be the final game of the season on Wednesday. The whole season has been "Meh" but I had fun non the less. The Chiefs won. They are getting lucky breaks but taken advantage of them.

Wednesday

Woke up. I was less sick, but decided not to go to the gym. Went for a mild walk. Made it through work. Felt better. Halloween tomorrow. I like that moment where you were sick for awhile, then you are not sick. It is magical.

tuesday

No surprise that I am sick. Everyone is sick everywhere. It is not as bad as it could be. I didn't have to miss work, just some cold medicine and some COWBOY UP kind of macho man power that one would expect from a man born from the place where The Pony Express started and Jesse James ended.

Red Monday

Red Monday is here. I wore red all day, cause the chiefs are awesome! I woke up today and went to 24 hour fitness. It was a tougher workout than I expected. I really try to exchange some discomfort for some calories being burned, but today I really wasn't feeling it. I still walked for about 40 minutes, but I didn't run. I have been running more lately because I noticed that my workouts are pretty dang easy and for mental health and physical you are supposed to push yourself somewhat. Work went ok. My friend Mark at work must have been feeling crappy because he didn't talk too much. After work I went to a meeting, then jason, Traci, and I went to black dog. We had a good time. I made Traci feel bad because she didn't want to go to black dog, she wanted to watch the voice. I told her she is a bad friend for choosing a reality singing program over friends. She came out and we all had a good laugh. It is important for me to not take myself too seriously and have a good laugh everyday. I get very serious in my own head sometimes...like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. Looking at a packed arrowhead made it clear I am just one dude...a worker among workers.

Sports Weekend.

This week was pretty good. I have a friend named Mark at work who has made work not so sucky. On Saturday Mo West laid an egg and Pitt State played well. Sunday my parents and I went to the Chiefs game and it was beautiful out. The Chiefs won because they are awesome! I am a lucky dude to have so much sports and awesome in my life. George Brett even banged the drum at the start of the game. It looked awesome!


Sporting KC came up short in the supporters club shield which was a bummer, but I think SKC has a shot to do well in the playoffs because they have so much experience.

SKC Healthcare and that is about it.

I am finishing out the year which means I have to pay my own premiums from my old company. It is expensive, but I am going to pay it out until I am either able to get coverage from work, or if I can't get it through work I signed up for Coventry. So anyway there is always the fear that something dramatic will happen and I won't be covered, but that is why you are supposed to study hard in high school and college and get a good job, not steal cookies and sleep through Doctor Lossons classes. Digression. I was caught sleeping by Dr. Losson in High School and in college. Double word score! I went to SKC tonight. They played a Hondourus team. I will update later on.

Sports.

Mizzou is awesome-Missouri Western is awesome- Sporting KC is in the playoffs and has a shot at the supporters shield...the chiefs are off the chain. Dale Jr finished second today....Penguins are playing awesome...it's all good.

Week to Remember.

This week had many interesting things happen to me. I had good luck, but as the saying goes...The Harder I work....the luckier I get. On Tuesday a higher up in my work comes over to speak to me. I of course was like....well they are laying me off because we are not as busy as they thought. Instead of canning me, they asked me to work more hours which is good with the Holidays coming up and I am paid hourly. So that was good. I knew it would cut into my guitar and video game time, but I need some cash to pay rent and put funyons on the table. On Wednesday I picked up my tuxedo for Kris Von Germans wedding. On thursday I got a haircut, on Friday I got my teeth cleaned and I went to the wedding rehersal. Saturday a long day. I woke up and had to get stuff together for the wedding. Jason and I applied for a new apartment in my apartment complex. We didn't get accepted yet but we are trying. I don't make enough money to live by myself and living with Jason seems like an easy thing to do since he is trying to move out of his parents place. We went to the chili cook-off and it had good chili. My friend Reid was housing us before the wedding on saturday and the wedding was across the street. Jason is critical of my looks and the way I handle myself, but for this situation it was good because I don't want my actions to take away for the special day that Kris and Sarah had. I said some prayers and I really thought about the way I wanted to act. It was a nice honor to be in the wedding. The pictures came out well and the ceremony went well. We had a trolly and I spilled black dog coffee on my tux but it didn't really matter. The Reception was at Uptown Theater. Food was good. I was fed probably three times. A funny situation was that a Metal Band "HammerWeen" was playing at Uptown theater so there was all these crazy looking kids and then people with tuxes on. Anyway the reception was really fun. The girl I paired up with was very cute and very nice to me. This was a bonus for me because I have been bummed because girls could NGAF about me as of late. So having a charming lady next to me the night was great and I was just thankful. It seems for a month before the wedding things have just been a struggle to get through. Band sucks, chicks are not giving me attention, work is ok nothing great. I tried to have a good attitude and write out a gratitude list as much as I could. So now my luck for the time being has been good and I just have to thank God for the good times. Sunday was the chiefs game and you knew the chiefs were going to be awesome. Chiefs and Chopper baby. So anyway...in summery. Got my stuff taken care of Teeth, hair, tux. Wedding was great, chiefs were great, Jeep was great. Life is good.

Weird day

Weird day for sure today. I woke up and I decided to head to 24 hour fitness. Now I have been enjoying walking outside because it is nice out, but I want to make sure I go to 24 hour fitness to do some of the fun stuff there. I decide to do bench press, it sucks, but whatever. I do some triceps...that sucks....sometime lifting is fun, today wasn't one of those days. I get in the hot tub...it was alright. I am like what the hell, why am I in such a bad mood. It is Sunday it is game day. I know sometimes I have things going on in my mind that are sub conscience or even deeper. My only guess is that there is always this nagging feeling that no matter how much I go to the gym, or how much I walk, it is never going to be enough. I know that even if I had a perfect body, perfect girl, perfect everything...that stuff only stays good for awhile. I get my juice by giving back or helping people. I went to Hy-Vee to buy some food for the Chiefs game and I gave some money to the guys asking for money outside there. It was actually knights of columbus that was asking and I got a tootsie roll pop. I went and cooked in the park some meat on a grill and even that was alittle bit crappy. I was like...man what is going to get my mood going better. It was nice out and I did stop and enjoy good weather and a beautiful tree. I went to Adams and I had good food and the chiefs rolled. It was alright and I came home and I could tell I enjoyed the chiefs game. I didn't come out of my bad mood until later on in the night when I told Adam. "I think I lie to myself and say that if I had my own family I would work harder or make better choices, but I think even if I had a family I would still have days like today where I just can't change my mood." He agreed and I felt like that was a nice step because I think everyone is always trying to sell you something to make you feel complete, but it is a lie. Like in the movie Fight Club....YOU ARE ENOUGH...YOU AREN'T YOUR ****ing KAKHIES. I know that from a head to heart level, that who you are isn't what you own or how people react to you. Anyway after I talked to Adam I lightened up and I felt better. I also had massive amounts of black dog coffee, so that probably helped as well.

Saturday

Saturday I woke up and went for a walk. I then went back to sleep. I then woke up and drank some orange drink. Then I went to St. Joseph. My dad and I watched Mizzou for a bit then we headed to 54th street. I ate a delicious club sandwhich and my dad had the super nachos. His nachos were off the chain and my Turkey contraption was also off the chain. We then had gold club seats to the Mo West game. Mo West beat some team from Oklahoma by a bunch. Oklahoma is def...not "OK" I then headed back to Lenexa where I went for a walk. It was beautiful out. Tomorrow the Chiefs are going to play the Raiders. They will beat that ass to win another game..

BANK
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Friday and the weekend.

A look at the weekend. Tonight USA soccer plays against the Bob Sled team. It won't be close...because the U.S.A. ain't nothing to funk with. Saturday is homecoming for M.W.S.U and Sunday the Chiefs will beat holy heck out of L.A. Raiders. Go Team Sports.

Sporting KC wrapping up their year-Nascar-Pittsburgh Penguins.

Sporting KC tied their sloppy game yesterday 0-0. It was pretty difficult to watch because both teams couldn't move the ball. Sporting KC is close to the Supporters Shield. That is the best team in the Regular Season and a trip in Championship League play. Pittsburgh Penguins are off to a fast start. Crosby is healthy and the team looks very balanced. Fluery is playing well in net after a disaster meltdown last year in the playoffs.

I have been going to Black Dog, watching sports, drinking diet cola, and working. That is my life. The weather has been great.

The Weekend.

The weekend went as well as I could have hoped. Two NASCAR RACES. Jeep didn't have an oil leak...got the recall on my jeep taken care of. Grilling/Nascar/chiefs win....picnic...black dog. All good things in my life. Life takes lots of work and lots of patience. Patience, work, sacrifice, and giving back.....that was what this weekend was about to me. I was also blessed with great weather. I like it nice and cool when I am spending all day outside.

Saturday.

Wow did Iowa State get screwed on Thursday. I caught some of the penguins. They won. I am at the jeep dealership right now getting work done on the 4x4. I was glad I woke up and felt good enough to go for a walk and get the jeep taken care of. The government is a bunch of crooks. Go #88 Mo West and of course chiefs.

Thursday

Thursday I woke up and went to the Gym. I wanted to see with my own eyes people working out to try to inspire me. I got through my workout. I went to work and I was of service. I then drove down to black and gold. I didn't want to go because our band isn't good nor focused, but I feel the need to get out of my apartment to work with people in the hopes that I can not be so selfish with my time. I pickup Albert and he is on the phone with 911. I guess he had a weird reaction with anti-depressants. We go and play at black and gold and it was ok, we don't know any songs (still), but I have come to just try to enjoy the company of people. Ryan found out that he is going to be in a new band, which is great because he is an elite guitar player. Albert was doing his thing. We wrapped it up early and there was a bad vibe because Ryan seemed annoyed that we still suck. I was just glad to be there, and Albert seemed to be out of it. I doubt we play anymore because it is pretty pointless, but it was fun while it lasted. I saw ashley there who is a girl I like that works at b and g. I was like "what up girl?" she was polite, but gave me no attention. I packed my stuff up and went onmy way.

Wednesday

Wednesday was a long day. I went for a very long walk. Work seemed to take awhile. I try not to eat until after work as eating saps my energy. So that probably made it seem like it took longer. I went to black dog at night. It was good. I have some very funny friends and it is easy to forget about all the work you did during the day when you are just kicking it on an OCT. night. Kris came over for a bit and we watched big bang theory. It is wedding pretty soon, good luck to him. Hockey opens up tonight with The Penguins versus the Devils. Go Pens Go. Blues have Nashville tonight. Go you blues. Wil Meyers struck out 3 times yesterday haha.

Tuesday

On Tuesday I went to work. I went for a walk. I watched baseball and some surfing movie. I also played on the internet. I finished my day by watching Manchester United.

Monday

Monday was pretty good. I went to work, but before I went to work I called in some issues with my apartment. I figured that they would be over after I left for work, nope they were there. So I took a shower with some dude fixing my garbage churner up thing. I then went to work. After work I went for a walk and went to a meeting. Then I came home and they didn't fix my fridge, they replaced it. That made me gitty because my old Fridge was a P.O.S. This one was all new. So that was enjoyable. I am making moves to move in with Jason at the start of the year. I have my doubts that this will go smoothly, but I will keep taking action. Royals finished up the year on Sunday. It was a good year and they were fun to watch. Best pitching and defense by any team I can remember. Holland was elite and Shields ate innings. Santana had a slider nastier than a mid-80's issue of Hustler. Overall I feel good and I am looking forward to football and nachos.

Breaking bad

Breaking Bad was off the chain tonight. Finished up as well as a show can.

Sunday

Chiefs win...Royals win...and life is great. Sporting KC played good on Friday, couldn't catch a break. I worked out about an hour each day Saturday and Sunday. I actually felt pretty good and stretched myself out physically and mentally. Went on the stair machine that makes actual steps. It was hell for 10 minutes, but I finished it begging for mercy at the end. I think something clicks when you do something that sucks like the stair machine. It's like after that waiting in line at hy-vee doesn't seem so bad. It's like well...at least it isn't that damn stair machine.


I always try to work up a feeling of gratitude. Today was no different. I love being American. I love being in Johnson County and not worrying about being shot. I got nice clothes, good relationships, friends that keep me on my toes, and a Library with everything I need. I was glad to see my sister yesterday. I don't actively try to be a good brother, but it is nice to have a working relationship with my family. I come across family's that are completely screwed up and sometimes I have to acknowledge that I can talk to my family. That puts things in perspective.

Wednesday

I woke up early and went for a walk outside. It is so nice I am trying to get out and do as much outside as possible.

Tuesday

Tuesday was ok. The main thing I had going for me is I went for 2 mile walk. I haven't been working out as much lately. I still try to eat well. Eating well really does help me get to work, gives me energy to pray, gives me energy to give back. So that is that. Royals won yesterday. It is probably too little too late for them, but they have had an awesome season anyways.

Sunday and a Royal Grand Slam.

Sunday started out with Manchester United getting bombed by Manchester City. I then went for a drive over to the K. It was busy as hell so I took a right and drove around some parkways in Kansas City. It was a beautiful day and it was fun to drive this day. I then went to watch some people I know play softball. I came back and watched the Royals win on a glorious grandslam by Justin Maxwell. I had pretty good day. I am hoping I am relaxed and refreshed tomorrow for work. Last week I really struggled to keep putting together working days. Albert called me today, but didn't want to play music. My band really played lots of hours, but now we are less than inspired. I almost bought the new grand theft auto today, but really decided to finish Mass Effect 2. Wow what a game and what an ending to a game.

Royals almost out of it and Friday and Saturday rehash.

I went out to the Royals game yesterday. It was fun even though the Royals lost. There was a ton of people out. Sporting KC won as well. Two great goals by C.J. Sapong. We then went out to the Mizzou bar Harpos and watched Mizzou win. It was a fun night. I went to the plaza art fair and Jason sang opera at them and I yelled at people. It was fun being awesome.

Thursday

This week I have felt a bit burned out. To cap it off today seemed to take forever for the chiefs to play. I went over to adams and we ate a bunch of food and had a great time. The Chiefs won and it was a really good time. I felt great and I had a great time. I do love having friends with nice houses and buffalo dip. I will now go through my chiefs list of who is good !WOOOO! and who sucks !SUCKS!

!WOOO! Houston-Hali-Berry-Charles-Avery-Poe-Derrick Johnson-Andy Reid.
!Sucks! Mcluster-Fisher-Hudson
!Meh! Alex Smith-Bowe-Tyson Jackson


I could probably write a book about my own burnout experiences, but basically when I focus for long periods of time for days-weeks at a time I get to a point where if I don't take time away and do something silly I do actual damage to my brain. I start doing stuff like forget my phone places...or roll up my windows...I also tend to get real salty with people. I am getting better with dealing with burnout. There was a time where I would call in sick days at a time at work because if I had to do one more hour of work I was going to lose my sanity. Now I can feel it coming on and I talk to a boss and try to get away and watch some beach videos or do breathing exercises for how long it takes. This week I really putting coming home and mentally relaxing to the front because I really needed some time away from work/guitar/random stuff. I am feeling better today after making sure I watched some beach meditation videos on youtube. Obviously mental health is very important to me because it is my understanding that ego-pride-greed sometimes push people to far mentally and without a break it can be dangerous to your sanity and you can do things like yell at people or wreck your car. So The good news is that I am doing more praying and meditation- bad news is I haven't got laundry done and I still haven't gotten to play some video games that are fun. Oddly enough there are some activities I do that are serious even though they should be fun. When I play guitar I really focus and lock in and try to get better. Football is obviously like a religion to me, also some video games can be serious and take focus. I strive more and more to add silly fun games in to give myself a mental break...or a silly movie can be good as well. Overall I have a better sense of what is healthy for me physically and mentally and I strive to have a balance of service to others and to feel good. I sometimes take pride when things aren't going well...to just say hello to people, be professional, and hold doors for people. Also donating and tipping people well is something that I do to really feel good about myself providing a positive vibe to this world. It is sometimes frustrating because I read so many success books, so many nerd books, and I seem like I am not successful with money. I just have to keep it simple and ask myself "Do I treat people well?" "Do people around me benifit?" I really strive to do well and have my experiences mean something to other people. I love to wake up also and I have one thing I did really well so I wake up feeling good about my life. Lots of times it just says. "Take positive action in your life and strive to be selfless"

Monday

Monday my Dad, My mom, and my uncle Mike went out to the Royals game. They won in awesome fashion. Been a good sports run with The Chiefs, MO WEST, and the Royals all playing well. Jamie Carrol sucks.

Saturday

Saturday I woke up. I went for a walk of two miles. I went and ate lunch with my dad at outback steakhouse in the legends. I drove back to St. Joseph to hang out and go to the Missouri Western game that night. I went to the game and Missouri Western beat Missouri S and T by 60 points. I drove back to Lenexa. Hung out at a closed black dog for awhile, then called it a night. The day went by quickly. The Royals won a great game. Now it is onto Sunday.

Friday

Felt run down most of the day. Drank a ton of pop and got my crap together enough to work hard. After work went out with some guys and ladies for a bit. Pretty chill night. It was a beautiful night out tonight.

Thursday

Thursday I went to work. Worked very hard to create value to the company I work for. Then I went and drug all my music equipment down to westport. Albert wasn't there and it was just Ryan and I. We sounded crappy because we haven't played for a week. It was good just making sure we played and got together. That is the most important thing is we consistantly get together and just play. We worked through the opening weirdness and I had fun. I recorded it on mp3 and it sounds pretty lame, but atleast I got something on mp3 and atleast I was able to play something. It is better than playing video games all night and having nothing to show for it.

Looking forward to seeing my parents this weekend. Royals, Sporting KC, Missouri Western, and The Chiefs are all in action.

Royals

The Royals are two games out of the playoff race. I will be honest though...every game from here on out is a playoff game. Bad Boys what you going to do when the Royals come for you?

I went for a walk today and lifted weights. Went to black dog with Jason. All is good.

USA WINS

Looks like the USA is going to the WORLD CUP.

Royals and USA

Yesterday's loss was so awful. I am just going to leave it for Rany J to break it down. USA SOCCER plays tonight. They need to win to punch their ticket to the world cup. Besler is not playing because of the worst call of all time. Google it if you are interested. Nothing really going on tonight. Just going to watch the Royals and USA soccer. I am sitting in my red chair right now. It feels glorious.

Monday

Wow was Monday crappy. I did what I always do and suck it up. Being an adult is doing work even when you feel crappy. My dad's birthday was today. He is 59 years old and he has been an awesome dad. What an asset it has been for my parents to send me to college and to a private high school. I would probably be all wacked out on crank if I went to a public school. I made it through the day then I went to black dog. I went up to my friend who is a girl and went up to her man friend and started a conversation. I won't fill in the conversation, but I want to make sure I put down this down. Nadal won the US OPEN in tennis. Chiefs won yesterday and breaking bad is awesome.

Saturday Night

Saturday was boring through the day. I thought my dad's birthday party was on Saturday, but it wasn't. I then thought Albert wanted to play guitar, but he forgot about us playing. I don't know what is up with my bandmates lately. They have been flaking, I also got interest from a punk band. So I will continue to make strides to elevate my bass playing. I moved through those random events and got settled in. There wasn't any football that was real interesting. I cleaned a bit and I watched some football plays here and there. My friend Engineer Matt texted me, but he didn't want to get off the couch. I eventually drove around and went to dollar general and got some junk food for the chiefs game. I then got fed up with being in the apartment and took off to westport to watch the sporting kc game. Once in Westport I had issues getting into the mood of watching Sporting KC. The field looked crappy and the play was sloppy. Sporting KC eventually went on to win 3-0. The Royals won as well. After that I met up with Bryce and Besands bacholor party.

I was chatting with "The Birdman" He goes and gets a drink and this Bachlorette party comes up to me and asks me if I have a condom. Now I know I have a condom in a random spot in my wallet, but the last time I checked it was broken and gross. I didn't really hesitate and I thought this was as good as time as any to unload this opened condom. So without missing a beat I tell this girl "Sure..here you go!" and I give her this nasty opened condom. She freaks out a bit and goes "OH SICK IS THIS USED AAAHHHHH" I pretty much laughed at it and it was sweet the way it worked out. She eventually calmed down and the rest of the bachlorette party was forced to calm down or else face the fact that a random guy with a random opened condom threatened their entire night.


I talked to Besand, RJ, Lossen, Chung, and Moe. It was a pretty fun. I talked to lots of people. I talked to this really cute girl Kenna who I have seen out before and she didn't like me the first time I talked to her, but she thinks I am friends with this guy Ryan, which I have no idea who Ryan is. I just went with it and talked to her for awhile. I talked to lots of people. I think this really helps me get used to being around people on Monday when I work. If I am not around people for awhile then I go to work I tend to be shell shocked. I do love to be alone though. I thought it was interesting that even when I was having a good time I started the conversation about hours of work put in on a project and my level of focus. Byrdman talked about how he took the act 4 times to get the outcome I wanted. That kind of effort was a bit foreign to say the least to me when I was his age. I think about all the time how success really does start at a young age. If you want get into special programs and get the best teaching and best education and special chances at life, you have to make the grades early. You have to have the means to get there. Some people who are poor will never even get a chance to make middle class just because they can't afford good education. It is called the Matthew effect or like I just simply call it "The Rich get Richer."

Random Nascar note. Dale Jr made the chase.

Bass practice log

I practiced my warm up routine and About a girl...Push Me back...and a new bass line today. I saved my bass line to the folder on my laptop.

USA sucked and so did The Royals

Friday during the day I really worked hard to focus and try to get my mental dexterity up. I can tell now how crappy my mental focus is during long periods of work or trying to pay attention. I think I can work my brain like a muscle and really try to stay on tasks even though they might not feel good. I really can see now it isn't always about the work in front of you. If I can build my mental focus I can play guitar for longer and I can work longer and make more money. It will be a goal of mine to be able to focus long periods of time on whatever I am doing so I can keep growing my brain power.

I am really studying Malcom Glidewell's book outliers. I can see now the B.S. that is people saying "Oh I rose from nothing to be successful. People who are successful take advantage of so many breaks and they make their own breaks as well. I really caught a break going to Leblond. You could be the dumbest person in that school and still have a pretty good shot at making middle class. Thanks mom and dad for those sacrifices! I also caught a break being too dumb to realize how hard it is to move away. I am glad I got away from St. Joseph where you have to sink or swim. I learned so many lessons the hard way. Obviously I caught a huge break finding Raymond. I needed a dude I could relate too and it took his calmness to get me to realize that praying really is the way to cope with life. So is meditation, but I always strive to get hours of praying in a week. I really had to see that if I continue to only focus on myself then I will never be happy. Man is supposed to help other people. I think it is in my DNA for sure to think of other people and try to make sure everyone is fed. I also think that people...no matter how annoying or ugly...deserve someone to talk to.


10,000 rule is a huge one. I can see now if you can get to 10,000 hours of focus and stressful direction, you could really be a master at your craft. You have to really be honest with yourself and change and grow. Hopefully Moostakas gets to 10,000 hours of hitting.

Segway into the Royals. They were crappy tonight. U.S.A. Soccer was also crappy. That was a bummer. Jason and I had free tickets to the Royals game and we watched them get killed, we went out and also saw USA get killed. I talked to a bunch of ladies. I made it a point to go up to the hottest girl I saw and talk to her. She didn't like me, but the point was to keep my courage strong and to realize that what people think of you don't matter. I always strive to be friendly with people and to talk to people and always try to grow my skills with people. I think long periods of being with people and working with them provides great value to society.

I am starting to feel better about myself and the things I am trying to do. Lots of times I am too tired to feel good about myself, but I take notes into my mp3 player about the people I help and the work I put in. I noticed tonight that I really have good information and I really put in long hours with people. I was called stupid and fat lots in my life, but when I listen to mp3's of myself talk about helping people and being able to execute tasks...I can say that I sound like a smart and sharp dude. I mean I really got called stupid and dumb lots in my life I got called smart or sneaky smart by a couple people a couple years ago, but now listening to the mp3 I am like...wow this is good and in depth. I really think you are who you surround yourself with. There are so many mental layers in the mind and growth is so slow that it is hard to tell what you are getting done with your life, but I can say that writing about goals...taking good notes...and asking tough questions... are good steps into executing your life goals. I have tons of life goals, one of which is to be a respected musician. People are starting to want to play more because I am professional. I also have a decent ear for what sucks and what doesn't.

I am not sure why MP3 is showing up as a mis-spelled word. That is weird. I realize that my blog is not so much tales as it is about me hammering home basic ideas that help me to get up and provide value to society. I guess Iam good with that.

The Strokes

Comedown machine.

Thursday

Thursday. Thursday I went to work. I tried to work on being of focus for longer. I tried to not let what psychologists call "the monkey mind" take over. The monkey mind is where one thought leads you to another thought and gets you off focus. It was a productive day. I was very burned out after it was over. I just wanted to get home and lay down as I was mentally drained. I was able to get home and execute laying down. I then spent the next 4 hours watching football then taking breaks to wash clothes. I got two loads done. The Griffons won on a late score. The Griffons MIAA game was very sloppy but down the stretch was a very good game to watch. I will never understand why late in the game UCM had 4th and 2 . If they go for it they can end it. Instead they kick the ball back to the griffons and they lose the game. UCM had terrible penalties. I would guess the coach says "We have to have faith in our defense" well your defense is going to need a stop either way. The Griffons have never been terrible at football, and it is cool to really see them doing well. St. Joseph is lucky to have them good job Griffs! I made sure to ask Byrdman about his Mo Bears. I know how he loves his Bears and how he spent many days at Remmingtons watching the MO Bears.

I see the Urge has a new album coming out. They also have some show dates. I got to listen to a bit of the newest strokes album yesterday. That seemed interesting. Planning on going to The Royals game tonight and outback steakhouse on saturday.

Kei Kamara leaving

Kei Kamara leaves Sporting Kansas City to go to an English Championship team. The champions league is below English Primer league. So it was a sad day as he is second in the league in goals. Soccer is a business and I think they were selling high. I wish he was there for the stretch run, but I never thought he would come back from overseas anyways. Royals lost yesterday which sucks. They need to win every game here on out to have a chance.

Black Dog Wednesday

The mosquito's were horrible tonight. Plus there were a bunch of nerds talking about Harry Potter. NERDS! I heard the Beatles played at a strip club for 7 days a week for 8 hours a day that's why they are so good......I guess thats why my band likes strip clubs so much.

Wednesday

Wednesday I woke up and went for a walk. I learned how important it is to not multi-task. I learned how if you multi-task that your IQ goes lower than if you are smoking weed. I am trying to apply what I learn from Anthony Robbins and some other guys. I really try to focus longer and longer and not be so ADD. Checking your phone and distracting yourself leaves yourself un-productive. I know if I keep focusing I can really grow that skill. There is lots of stuff that I learn, but I just can't execute it. All I can do though each day is try. I went out with Jason today to Black Dog. Mattie and Maggie was there. Matti is off the chain looks wise, but she doesn't seem interested which it is cool.


-Focus on one thing at a time and get it done. GSD Get stuff done
-Stop multi-tasking and telling yourself that you are good at it. It is a proven fact that humans do shitty with this
-Cultivate skill and if I am aware put down the cell phone. When I go out to black dog I try to still work on skills like eye contact or wit or humor. I can't do that if I am sitting in the corner playing candy crush.

Gut check time!

Gut check time this morning! Was I going to get up and do work, or be a wuss bag in my own head that I was working. I got up and got my ass moving and went to work. Made sure I was productive I got more things done than I expected.

Small chunking....Small chunking is when you make sure you give yourself credit for doing small things. You have to keep yourself feeling good at your small victories.

I was able to eat some vegetables yesterday which is good. I still make some good choices about food. I strive to eat better every day, but I have to have some balance between enjoying my food and eating well. There is a balance there, but I am always trying to get healthier and healthier. With that health I can do more like work all day then get home and watch motivational videos and cat videos at night. Maybe even motivational cat videos.


Yikes. I am watching video about distraction. It is very sad the way that people lose focus and are unable to build it back up. Texting and social media and myself being not focus has cost me the skill of being focused. I have really practiced on being focused in the last couple years. Trying to get through 90 minutes of work before a break and I know my phone and sports can wait. I know if I cultivate my focus I can be more successful as well. I also know that no one wants to apply this idea of "work on one thing then check your texts and emails later in the day" because it isn't very fun. Humans love to be distracted by cat youtube videos.

Labor Day Monday

Albert and Ryan wanted to play guitar today. I went down and brought some pop for the boys. We played for a bit. I made sure to execute getting together and spending some quality time with friends on Labor Day. I also made it a point to get Albert's video uploaded. He sure likes his videos and it is the least I can do since he has Ryan and I over all the time to hang out and play guitar.

Sunday Morning

Thinking about last night at black dog. There was a lady sitting at black dog, she was cute. So I go up to here and go in "Grab Bag" style. Going in grab bag is not having a plan our outcome in mind when I talk to people. She was using a calculator that was similar to ones that I used back in College. So I commented on her calculator. She was luke warm towards me, I was glad I just was able to execute talking to this lady without thinking too much. So Jasen walks in and we talk for awhile and joke around. Jason notices the girl, but doesn't say anything. Then another guy comes up to this girl and talks to this lady with the calculator. The guy leaves, jason goes to the girl "That is a silly way to talk to a lady, opening by talking to a calculator" I bust up laughing because the girl sees me and I can read her mind she is about ready to say "That is what that guy told me as well" So I beat her to the punch. "That means I beat her to what she is going to say" I say "Sugar...I just needed a way to talk to you, so it was either your star wars shirt, or your calculator. So then Jason and I turn to each other and say.

Calculator.

I am downloading zune software to both my desktop PC and my laptop. Now I can sync Shinedown to my phone and zuneHD on two devices.

Hit the key points

Played guitar and drums on Saturday with Ryan. Played guitar and drums with Albert on Sunday. Went to guitar and spent some quality time with Albert. Spent some quality time with Kurtis. Went to black dog with Jason and Adam. Had some laughs. Went to to watch my favorite cover band in the world "THE STOLEN WINNABAGOS" I had a good time. It is very nice out tonight. I formatted both of my computers and they are working great. I don't miss any of the gigs of music on here because I don't really listen to music much through my laptop. Royals win. 5.5 out of the wildcard spot.


I went out with Kurtis and had a great time for his birthday on Saturday. I wanted to make sure I spent some quality time with him because it is his birthday. Treating friends is pretty important if I can realize how important it is. Lots of time I am wrapped up in myself. I saw Kurtis wanted to have people out through text and I made sure to cut out some time so we can go out and chat. He is a good guy and he is doing amazing things with computer games and if he has the work ethic and borderline unhealthy obsession and focus he could go far.


I have been obsessed with this idea of hard work and focus, because I think that most of us are average and it is just hard work and focus at doing one thing well that gets people to a higher level. I see people who are awesome at programming computers and I know they have been doing it since they are six years old. I am hoping I can get lots better at bass guitar if I keep on making it a priority and work at it. I have already been asked to be in two bands, so that makes me feel good that I don't suck too bad. Also I a girl told me yesterday that I was good with talking to girls and that was cool as well because I am a natural introvert and it has been a process for me to be able to go up to people sober and start normal conversations.

Friday

Friday I felt pretty good most of the day. Everyone was ready for a three day weekend. Work went by fast and I actually got things done because, well that is what I do. At night I went out with some friends. I was actively trying to keep my chops up as far as conversation. I have been not doing well around people lately. Not feeling very social. As a result I had this thing in my head that I need to get out and talk to some people. Too much facebook, twitter, texting, etc can really kill your social chops. So I went out and tried to talk to many people as possible. It went well and I felt good about getting back out and being silly with people. Tonight my friend K is having people out, so I wanted to make sure I was outside my head for that.

Saturday was productive. Two Loads of laundry, put my drums away, swept, hair cut, cleaned out my closet. Went and bought some toilet paper. Damn this blog is excited as hell isn't it? I am thinking about doing a video blog and posting it to the internet soon about some random stuff. I haven't done a video blog for awhile.

Randoms..

St. Joseph is known for the psychiatric hospital.

Thursday

Thursday is my superbowl because I get to play guitar all night. I downloaded some bass instructional video and it taught many important lessons. The most important is that instructional videos are really dumb. I got out of work late and headed down to black and gold. We had a new drummer who looks a bit like Daniel Tosh. His name is Cole and I was alittle bummed that I couldn't play drums a bit, but this guy picked up what we were trying to do right away. There is still some huge holes in our musical game. One of the dudes just shreds metal, other dude is alternative/folk, and I don't really know what either of them are playing because we don't have a set list. I will say though from what I recorded on my mp3 player it sounded pretty good at times, which that is a big positive that we can get a drummer who we have never met and manage to play something that sounds pretty good. Overall I am happy that it sounded good on mp3 but alittle bummed that we don't have like a list of songs to play right when we get in. I guess that is me just trying to control people places and things and also an example where I just have to be patient. Things will work out and I should just try to have fun. It is after all just a garage band I really dig this girl that works at the black and gold. Her name is Ashley and I try to troll her most of the time (Troll means just be over the top to get a reaction not totally serious) So I will do various stuff to her like yell "WHAT UP GRRRRRRL" in the dumbest fashion possible. Now many people have many approaches into getting a girl, but after 10,000 hours of practice I like to be over the top and energetic and something will come along that we have in common. She put on a record....a real record of Johnny Cash, and I showed her my Johnny Cash shirt that I had and I also told her about the one time I sang harmany with him on boy named sue.....wait...maybe I am getting myself confused with Kris Kristofferson again. That happens all the time. Anyway Ashley looked good yesterday and I kept it low key because I was tired, she laughed at a couple of my jokes. "I told her that I am jobless because I have a felony, when she inquired what did I get arrested for...I told her FOR BEING TOO DANG AWESOME!"

Sidenote sometimes saying TOO DANG "Insert whatever here" is very funny.

She laughed she looked good and the band played on. Later I was hoping she would come out to talk to me but this guy with tats was on her. The band also had a couple guys watching us all night. I wish we would have played better for them, but like I said earlier I ask God to give me patience and see the big picture.

After the night was over I came home and just ate some pulled pork and relaxed. I am in the process of putting our jam sesh on mp3 so I can study it today. Mine as well listen to my friends play music over some random butt rock band from 01'


How about those Royals and Sporting KC? The Zues...The Zues...The Zues is on fire.

Wednesday

Wednesday went pretty much as normal. I made lots of phone calls. I guess our band is supposed to try out a new drummer tomorrow. I am sure that will be zany as normal. Jason and I went to black dog. We had some laughs. I promised myself not to let dumb stuff ruin my day. I talked to a girl who loves comic books. Salvy Perez hit a couple homeruns and yesterday Soony Saad scored two goals in a Champions league game. Go Soony! I tuned up my bass drums and I printed off a bass book, so I am looking forward to studying that. I really want to get 10,000 hours in on guitar, so I can be considered a master at it. Today I was actually prety happy all day. I hope there is one day that I don't feel sleepy mid day. I always feel sleepy and I have to chug mountain dew to stay awake. That is really the only thing that hinders my enjoyment of my life is being tired, mentally tired, physically sick, or physically sore. I need to pick up my apartment tomorrow. There is crap all over the place. Unfortunately I am barely keeping my eyes awake writing this so it will have to wait until tomorrow.

Tuesday

Tuesday was good. Sporting KC won. I met up with Ryan and Albert to play guitar. That was fun. I ended the night with Jason and Taylor at black dog. I have been practicing patience and working on my work ethic as of late. I am always working on something. I hope some of the younger kids I talk to follow my advice, if they well that is their road to go down. I have so much to say, but I am pretty tired. I just like to point out no matter what your beliefs in religion are if you pray really hard, over time you develop lots more peace and happiness. Sometimes I will be mad about something or frustrated and I can really let go of the small bullcrap things way better than I could back in the day. I know most of my frustration comes out of fear. Fear of not getting what I want or fear what people think of me. Once I realize what is really going on I can work on thinking about something else or letting it go. Thinking about other peoples needs always helps as well. I will sometimes pray for someone else for as long as I can (10 minutes or so) it really eases my own inner frustrations. My frustrations aren't even that bad, they are ususally linked to the Royals hitters or I am not as rich as I want to be. I guess I will go over my day once again woke up, Prayed, went to work, came home called Ryan, called Albert, worked my way into getting a jam session going. Jammed, then went to black dog and hung out. I have to say I am getting better at doing stuff in a timely fashion. When I get home from work there are certain things I want to make sure I do. Practice guitar, watch a youtube video that makes me laugh, write on a piece of paper things that make me happy. I always make it a point in my mind to set aside time to do things I really love. Chores and bills need to be paid as well, but I realize now how much more life is enjoyable when you set boundries for yourself and say...this is the time to work...this is time for yourself to laugh and smile....this is the time you work on guitar. Speaking of boundries I noticed a big boundry tonight is that I really can't work late. I am at the point in my life where I set a hard boundry. that I don't work beyond a certain point. I really need my time to watch the royals or play guitar or go to a meeting or go to black dog. When I was younger I was such a people pleaser I would make myself mad and sick working so late. So that was kind of cool that I really asked God for direction and the answer that I got is "Ray you aren't going to be happy missing the things you hold dear" things like playing guitar, dressing up like Nachos and throwing cheese on people. Wait...what?

The Royals and Random stuff

The Royals were off the chain today. Billy Butler was doing work. He is batting .350 since the all-star break.

I have been listening to Malcom Gladwell lots lately. The more I listen the more his stuff rings true. Especially how to learn you have to be in an intense learning envirnment. I also think talent is overated. You have to have good direction and 10,000 hours at a craft to be a master at things. It is a lesson that you have to be really patient at your talents. Really hammer on them to let them grow.

Monday

Monday was a pain in the morning, but got better afternoon. I met with Raymond for awhile. He is doing well. I played bass and watched some music videos. I watched a video about Malcom Gladwell. I really understand how lucky I am to grow up in America. I have had advantages that most people haven't had. It is my job to really work at my skills for 10,000 hours so I can be a master at what I do.

Some Deep Thinking.

I like to think and journal. I like to think what effect my actions have. My thinking plays a large part in how fun my life in and how much growth I have as a person. One thing I have to always remember is how most the things are now about other people. Having kids really help people be unselfish but I really strive to think how to make my Team at work better, how to make the day the most fun for the people around me, and this is a huge step in my life. I am always going to have my days where I throw a pity party. My pity party is because I have high expectations from the work I put in and the results that come out of it. It is unrealistic. So I always strive to get to the basics. Help other people, think of other people, also be thankful. I am forever thankful that I can pretty much queue up any song ever on youtube. What a blessing that is.

I am making a youtube playlist along with a new mp3 playlist so I am here to remind myself I have a pinback/Deathcabforcuitie playlist on youtube and a spoon/depeche mode playlist on Winamp

John's Wedding

Ok here we go. John got married. That was somewhat strange, but like a dorm room needs a Bob Marley Legend poster, John needs a good woman to tell him what to do. The Elder Statesman showed up with Melody, which was super awesome. I get along with The Elder Statesman so much, I should have asked Mr. Konz to join us for some study hall. The Elder Statesman was a senior when I was a freshman and we had some study hall or academic advisement class together. Anyway all I know is that Johnny Mac would give The elder statesman the business for not popping more 3's during varsity basketball. The elder statesman passes the ball. That is his game. Not doing 360's with bagging shorts like And 1 mixed tape tour. My mom held the baby herbster which...who saw that coming. If someone would have told me on Friday that my mom would hold baby herbster, I would have never guessed a situation where that would take place. I had a good time and got out of the reception fast enough to watch Nascar. It was glorious. I had a good time and my parents got out of the house. My parents work pretty hard eating right and working out, so it is nice of them to get out and strut their stuff in public. Saturday and Sunday both had plenty of English Premier Soccer on. It was glorious. Sunday night Jason had some people over to watch breaking bad. It was a pretty rad get together and he had good food. I ate well all weekend. I have had some good luck with meats and parties lately. Life is going well and it is back to hard work tomorrow. I am just finishing up reloading my computer. It was sucking a bag of D's so I had to reformat it. I am in the process of making a new playlist chalk full of Depeche Mode, Spoon, and Daft Punk.

Vinnie, Bryce, R.J. Dustin Gossett, and Rolla guys did a good job. I was pretty proud of everyone. I knew my mom would like seeing my friends and the actual Catholic wedding. My mom was spinning yarn about her wedding day all day on Saturday. That was cool, because I like hearing stories about back in the day. I know that weddings are woman's superbowl, so I made sure I went to a wedding and made sure my mom went so she could get out and do stuff.

There were a bunch of hot girls at the wedding, I really didn't think about much about them because I was tired. I have tons of thoughts about things but I won't share them right now. I used to have the biggest pity party for myself because I didn't have myself a lady, but right now I am really cool with being single and making sure I watch football, soccer, breaking bad, and Ray Donovan. With everything in this world comes good and bad. I am sure married guys out there wish they could just kick it and hang out and watch sports all they want, and I know single guys want a lady friend, but let me tell you...grass ain't always greener. So for now I am going to kick it and watch Manchester United and Sporting KC do work and just focus on what I have, not what I don't have.