Thursday

Yesterday work went good. I was able to finish the day. I am around 80 which is bonus. If you are in the top 75% of the workforce and you hit all your numbers you get to have some extra money. I have been listening to lots of Mos Def lately. Brooklyn Hip Hop is in the house. One thing that has helped me at work is I lift small amounts of weights while at work. Burning calories. Staying lose helps me breath and not get mad at people are some of the benefits of doing this. People make fun of me but I don't care it helps me keep my butt in my chair and focus which helps me work more. More work equals more money. I would rather look stupid and hustle and make money than look cool and be broke.

gratitude list

I am grateful for the internet. I am grateful I have money to eat and give back. I am grateful for my sister and parents. I am grateful for my cell phone.

2/25

I started to have 10 percent taken out of my paycheck for my 401k. If it is in my bank account. I was able talk to Karin at the gym. I spoke loud and clear and I am meeting and networking with men and woman at various places. I made 3 videos today. I am ranked 8th at work which is still bonus but barely. I think K I will get a small bonus, but it is in Jesus hands. I played some video games today and watched Manchester United go up 3-on Lacieter. The big wins today was upping my controbution to my 401k and talk g to Karin. I have to set up the game so I can win each day and as long as I improving in the area's of networking and investing I will give myself a pat on the back. A girl named Tasha at work said I inspire her because I lift weights on my breaks. I have inspired lots of people with my message of grind and hustle and that makes me feel good. I love to show people that if you raise your standards everyday you can have an awesome life. You have to take massive action though.

Large Gratitude List

Monday. I am grateful I have a job that is close to the apartment. I am glad I got a raise and a bonus last month. I am grateful my job allows me to send e-mails out to spread some positive vibes. I am grateful my mom and dad keep going out and grinding day in and day out to get better. I am grateful for my roomate Jason. We made it through a year and he has grown up so much. The sky is the limit for him. I am grateful for football and lifting weights. Both of those helped me not be such a sissy all of the time.

Annece

I have been complaining to myself about how many girls I talk to but I never see them again. Annece and Pressly were both at the gym. Girls around me help me work out more. Thank God that I put in the work to talk to people. Now I have workout buddies. Thank God my back hurt today as well. It helped me to get moving and get to the gym. My I button doesn't work on my laptop anymore. My dad is going to have to buy me a tough book now. Today is work and then probably playing video games.

gratitude lst.

grateful for my parents
grateful for my health
grateful for computers
grateful for nascar
grateful for my job and my jeep
grateful for anthony robbons tapes.

hanging out at black dog.

Hanging out at black dog. I probably should work out a bit today. I have a RPM idea to get in shame..the results is to lose weight and get in shape. The purpose is to be a better more attractive person. and then the M stands for Massive action. I try to take action and work out and lift whenever I can. I am at black dog. I feel pretty good. I actually introduced myself to people. It is important for me to always get out of my shell. I met a person named becky and a person named Rachael.

Friday and the weekend

The weekend started well. I worked all day on Friday. It was a good day at work. I went to Lawrence in terrible weather to watch the reggae band John Wayne and the Pain. It was good. A beatbox artist Heat Box was really good. Saturday I woke up did some working out then just chilled all day. I watched the KU game. I tried to stir up some friends. Nothing was going on so I just texted Karena most the night and played NBA 2k15. Sunday I woke and went for a walk. I went to St. Joseph. I about ran out of gas. I didn't and then I ate some bananas and now my dad is cooking chicken for me.

Stuff that makes me feel good

I noticed it wasn't the bonus so much that made me feel better. It was the fact I have found ways to help more people every day and stream line the process while feeling good for myself. I know that nurses always have to treat people well even though the people they help are always bleeding and kicking and punching them. I try to take that attitude to work. I know that people are going to be disrespectful to me and things aren't going to go my way, but if I hustle, grind, and try to be cool to people I will be successful. Jason is doing good. Always be raising your standards. I took a video of my bonus and I took time to really appreciate what goes into getting a bonus at work. You can't miss any work, you have to be awesome with your stats, and you can't use the restroom exept on your breaks. I took time to really look at how much work goes into getting a bonus and how lucky you have to be. You can't have your car break down or miss work. I am grateful for a car that works, health, not going to the bathroom. I am grateful for all that stuff.

Blog Update

It has been a busy week. I have made a video blog almost everyday. I got a dollar raise. I also got a bonus. It is a tribute to my hustle and grind. I met with Raymond yesterday. He is doing well. He moved his sisters stuff down in new mexico. I am proud of him for always getting better. Nascar is this weekend. Also I am moving forward in planning on concerts to go to. I have been committed to helping people at work. I have found stretches and music that help me work longer hours even when people aren't doing well to treat me well. I have sent out e-mails each day with little updates on things that I have learned from listening to Tony Robbins tapes. That is about it.

Sunday

Sunday is here and I am hanging out at black dog. I woke up at 5 am today and just screwed around and went to the gym. I put my instagram videos on chiefs planet. I am waiting for my refund check so I can pay my dad for my plane ticket to spring training. As of today it is 43 days until spring training. I watched some videos on being bored and I have some new ways I think to stimulate my brain when I am bored. More productive that going to the casino or driving my jeep off road or something stupid. I bought a white board and I am studying Anthony Robbins get the edge cd's. It describes in detail how you get yourself to motivated to change. I really try to get sick of myself being chubby as a way to take massive action. I am enjoying life the best I can. I am glad I have internet and black dog so I find ways to challenge myself. I am sitting by my friend ashton right now. She seems like a nice lady.

I had growth this week by not taking Jason getting on me about the goo on the fridge. I try never to take anything personally and always use it to take my relationship to the next level. I was proud that I was able to not take it too personal and we enjoyed some KU time together. He is getting married and I am proud of him. Maybe more positive enforcement from me would be good for me to give him. I haven't talked to Bryce that much as late. I know he is hustling with the kids and such eventually we will hang some more that is unless he starts to reproduce more.

Ray at work cracks me up. Ray and Elex keep things interesting. I found different ways to stretch and lift and change my voice at work to keep things interesting.

Creating videos. Charting progress and enjoying everyday having small break throughs give me the most joy I think in life. My fifa team had to forfiet some games because we didn't have a full team. So annoying since I programmed my computer to fill out the team sheet for me.


My goals are still the same 100,000 dollars. I am going to get there by being a public speaker, motivator speaker, or personal coach of some sort. I want to expand my knowledge and get lean in the gym. I know with constant constant action anything is possible. You also have to have energy. You have to have energy to work long hours that is for sure.

Saturday and Sunday

Sunday I woke up and did some lifting of the weights. Saturday I worked. It was Valentines Day. I ate food and played fifa 2015

Friday

Friday I worked. I did this weird thing with my arm that gave me enough to do that I didn't get twitchy during work. I made instagram movies this morning and I continued making videos for chiefsplanet.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HcLWcC5KDd8&feature=youtu.be

Thursday

Thursday I went bowling. I video taped it. I looked a bit dumpy. I walked for 4 miles today. I ate some goodcents. I will get into better shape by summer. I have to give myself credit. I look at my videos and I take action to change the way I look and I feel. I made a couple videos today. two for chiefsplanet. One video of me bowling and one for instagram outside. I made sure I took in account how I was able to push through and get 4 miles of walking in. I just imagined girls attracted to me, and I imagined how good I will feel meeting my goals.


I met a girl at hy-vee who was on crutches. She had a boyfriend, but it was good networking because she managed a salon. I was able to get all her information and I think made her laugh.

I met with Raymond today. It is tax season for him and he explains in detail how fear can ruin his day, he knows he does his part and the rest will work out. He gets better everyday and I strive to be like him, my dad, and some other random dudes.

Wednesday

I played video games today. I worked on my serve in tennis. It was very cold. I went to work and it was o.k. I came home and the apartment was goo free for the second day in a row. My mom won money awesome. I should get my money back from the state and federal government decently soon. I watch Manchester United. I made a video for chiefs planet. I also made a video for instagram. Instagram and youtube has entertained me. I always wanted to make T.V. shows even if it was just for me. I read lots of things on sober recovery. I post more there to give back what I know. I don't know too much but I know I can at-least tell people how to be sober 4 years.

Wednesday

Yesterday Jason told me that I left goo on the top of the fridge and I almost broke his vacuum. I didn't take it personally and I told him I appreciated the coaching. I am lucky to have him since he dresses well and doesn't leave goo on the top of the fridge. This week has been o.k. I was able to bully myself into cleaning my car and going to an AA meeting yesterday. I am still trying to make money and raise my standards each day. I worked on my tennis game a bit yesterday and a bit today. I will get better so when the weather is nice out I am not embarrassing.

Tuesday

I am 80th in my company this month so far. That is kind of poopy but there is lots of time to go. That is also still in the bonus. I went to work today and I found out I had a half of day scheduled. I came home and bullied myself into cleaning my car, cleaning and washing my sheets, making chicken, and asking a girl out at aldi's. I also practiced my service in tennis. Overall grade for today was a B. Yesterday I got my taxes done. Go me.

Saturday

Saturday night I went down to Karena's studio. She tooked pictures of me. I felt good being apart of the art scene for once. It was nice to be creative. That is where the juices and my passion really come out. I felt good today. I was pissed that I looked fat in my pictures and that I have man boobs. I know being skinnier is a process. I have to use my mind to tell a good story, I have to use my body to feel good, I have to make my mind focus on a vision and I have to tell a story over and over to keep myself happy.

The Weekend

This last week was pretty sad. I did good at work. Last time I checked I actually rose to 13th for the month of January. It has just been a bummer of late trying to get people to hang out and to laugh. Everything seems to be going towards the depressing side. On the good side it is a good chance for me to really act and smile and be as enthusastic as possible. My job is truly a gift from God. I had a meeting for team captains and I have been accepted to the CEP program which is just the fancy way of saying a leadership program. So I keep going forward. I still have the goal of making 100,000 although I haven't wanted to work lately so that is putting a damper on that goal. I know if I stick close to God and help others my needs will be filled. Just not my wants. I really listen to Tony Robbins and that helps me either take action when my emotions are crap or change the way I look at things. Like I was saying this week was tough but I can look at it as a challenge and a new way of using my body and mind to be positive. On Friday especially I reached out and I was like man I need help being positive and moving forward. I acted from that moment on and I survived the day. On Thursday I met up with Raymond and he is doing well. He has his raquet ball equipment and he said he is going to start playing raquetball haha. Hope he doesn't get hurt. My parents are on a cruise and boy have they earned some r and r. Hope they are having fun right now!

1 year anniverery

Today marks the one years that I have worked at my new job. I strive to make more money and learn more. I didn't miss any work this year which is good. I try to prepare for the stuff that may go wrong. I have been feeling a bit down. I try to reach out and keep moving forward though. I worked out when I didn't want to today. I took myself to the buffet at argosy. I lost about 40 bucks but I had fun. I am glad I am sober today. 4 years ago on January I took 4 days off from work and drank all day the last two times. I remember the last day just being so sick and tired. My down days this time don't involve drinking, they just involve donuts and driving around waiting for the day to be over. I asked this girl out a couple days back Anna. She said she had a boyfriend. I was a bit mad, but I am grateful I have the guts to ask girls out.

Superbowl Sunday

Today I woke up in an bad mood. I have a cold and I am sore. I drove around a bit. I made a couple instagram videos. I tried to listen to Tony Robbins tape. I picked up a new tony robbins tape that I am trying to brain wash myself with. It is about being clear with a vision for yourself and taking actions towards those. I want a billion dollars more ladies in my life and to give back more. Pretty simple.

I was the #1 person on my team this month and I was #30 overall in the company. I will take pride and satisfaction with the results and the fruits of my hard work. I don't really feel anything towards that. I do feel good that I asked my buddy travis...who is a guru of social media how do I make instigram videos. From there I have had lots of fun making videos about work, working out, and motivation. I am grateful to live in a time where you don't need to be famous to make videos and get them out to people. My parents are going on vacation. Hope they have a great time. I am blessed to be sober, blessed with a good family, blessed with jason and sarah.

I found a decent way to talk to woman at the gym. I asked what their routine is and then chop it up from there. I am blessed and grateful I have the guts to talk to anyone not only pretty woman. I am blessed that I cultivated my self-confidence to the point that I am not afraid of what people think and I can use this skill to help others get over their fears.