09/28/20

I have been having steady mood swings lately. Most of the time I wake up and I feel 7 or 8 out of 10 which is great for me. The Chiefs are looking awesome and sporting looks like shit but they are still like 2nd or 3rd in their division so anything is possible. I have been doing a good job not messaging girls that don't want to be with me and guys who don't do anything for me instead on focusing on family and friends that have a consistant relationship with me. That is supposed to give me self-esteem and I can't really feel that but at-least I don't feel bad.

Sporting KC last week and this year

Sporting kc this year has been ok. They have a problem with dominating the game but not winning. Last week Von Fossen and I went to the game. We wore masks. SKC won.

09/17

I fucked up at work today throwing 5 bags too many on 2 batches. I felt pretty decent about it. I think the prozac is helping my mood from bottoming out. I went to a pathologyst on tuesday which was ok. I was just covering my bases that my councilor wanted me to see a psycologist and a pathologist you get some more info on what I go through. Seems to be ok. I know it is going to cost about 2 grand jwhen it is over. That is ok though if it brings my mood up alittle bit