10/19/2017

yEST Yesterday I slapped into a rack at work. There wasn't any damage but I was shook up. I am pretty sick of work and life in general. I want to retire someday and I want an g-body cutlass surpssurpreme so I will go back to work tomorrow. I just have to make sure I try my best so it will at-least save me from regretting something. Shit has always been fucked up but I can't really remember a time that I was regretful. The Sporting KC game was fun on Sunday. I ate lots of BBQ. It ended in a 0-0 but I had the fun. I had a good day Wednesday. Work is fucked but I had a good time playing Project Cars 2. My wheel for xbox one and ps4 is good. I wrecked the shit out of my truck in iracing and my safety rating probably went down, but that is ok. I spent a shitload of money on wheel, tv and good headphones. It was nice to play and enjoy playing.

Thursday

Thursday I went to AA and I gave 4 dollars. They need to keep the lights and heat on. I won 4 dollars on the lottery show me cash. Penguins lost yesterday in overtime to the blues. Fuck the blues and fuck st. louis...The rapper nelly is pretty good though. My boss is off the next two days which feels like a breather. Everyone has been in a bit of a better mood at work which is nice. I am saving my money for ufc this weekend. I have no idea who is fighting but eating doritos and watching people choke each other out is what I am here.

Tuesday

Tuesday I woke up in a pretty shitty mood. I think 3 out of 10 would be how I felt. I didn't go work out because that sounded shitty at the time. I played video games. I like to imagine that I am one man team. We race the 32' coupe legends car. I raced a dirt track and took second. There was only 2 people racing though haha. I went to work and the main this is I fucked up on the piece list. I grabbed 8905 instead of 8906 a easy mistake to make. I thought I had made all the mistakes. The good news is I canceled those and I fixed it. Back in the day shit was just left for brad to deal with. Brad is the 3rd shift production guy and he is a whale of a good worker. People didn't bitch me out and I just worked my way through the day. I did long piece lists which makes it feel like I didn't do shit. I am supposed to build batches and everyone grades each other on how many batches you get done and when I only get 2 or 3 it fucking sucks. I am ok with it. Tomorrow I am just going to learn from my mistakes. I have to re up my stratera which will help me focus more. I take two medcines. 1 welbutrin for depressin and stratera for ADD and Stratera is fucking expensive as fuck. As long as I take my medicine and work as hard as I can I guess I can't really control people places or things or outcomes. I am also needing to get back to doing something for an hour that I am not in the mood to do. I have just been slacking on doing the things that need to be done when I am not in the mood. As an adult and a vision for myself. I want to wake up and make my bed have nice tighty shit clean care good work at work then come home eat well and work out and sleep and then have some fun playing video games. Unfortunately or fortunately I have depression which zaps my mood and energy and interest and fucks everything up. I got hope though if I just do a little at the time I can get better overall. I pray for the people in vegas as well. I am so spoiled with everything at my figer tips. Movies, games, hot and cold water. Internet books sports. Hockey. I can eat what food I want. The list goes on and on and sometimes I have to think about how much freedom I have. Check myself before I wreck myself.

Monday People killed in vegas

I woke up way too early today only to find out about some idiot shooting people at a country concert. Fucking sickning. I went back to sleep. I really felt like shit then blood all over the news, then Tom Petty died, then Robert Yates died. Just a shitty day and my own real goal...a goal that I attained is not get injured at work and make it through work. I went walking after work. Finally I felt a bit better. Yuck. I felt probably 3 out of 10 today. I also kept on thinking about a Shiny Cutless Olds. There is a guy with a red one here that I want. So maybe in a couple years.

Bowling

Last week my dad had a monster week bowling and this week I had a monster week bowling. I moved right and threw hard and extended out over the foul line. I don't like throw hard but I found a ok balance between throwing hard and not having my arm fall off.

08/23/2017

Wrapping up the summer. It was hot as fuck in the warehouse but thank Jesus it hasn't been bad the last couple weeks. Sporting KC is in the Open Cup final again. Royals had a big walk off win yesterday Because Hosmer went Beastmode. Chiefs are coming up and I got a new computer that I can run iracing with. I am lucky a guy built a computer for me saving me about 500 bucks.

Sunday

It has been hot as fuck at work and everyone has been pissy. I went to an indycar race last week and that was fun. Something to scratch off my bucket list. I got through some of the book millionare mindset.

4th of july

Happy 4th of July. The last week was a tough one at work. It was just a grind to make it through. At about the halfway point of my last shift before the break I was trying to make a plan for the weekend. I don't want to spend money because I want to invest it, I want to stay out of trouble, I want to read and listen to audiobooks. I didn't read much but I tried. I didn't go to a sporting kc game or do anything that cost a bunch of money. I went for walks and they for the most part felt amazing. I went to planet fitness to get my dads 17 dollars worth out of it. So overall it was good. I had some bad mood periods but I listened to music and I have a vision where and what I want my life to be. So when I start feeling shitty I at-least run through the lie I want to live. My nephew cortland played alot of video games on my new tv and my new Xbox one. That felt good because I want to get my 200 dollars worth out of it and I want to get my 200 dollars out of it. I watched him play Overwatch which looked great on dads giant TV. I put a new processor in my computer and it ran good. It still is old though. Surfing the internet and doing regular things it works great but RFACTOR didn't run great on it. Other older games ran good though Grand Prix Legends and Nascar 2003. So I learned alot about computers working on it. That is about it. I will try to write more as it comes to me.

06/21/2017

I was able to have a vacation day today. I won 200 dollars at the boat and I gave that to my dad to get ahead on the bills. I hung out with the dogs and tried to chill with the Royals. Salvy hit an awesome grandslam Work is going pretty good. Each day I get less clumsy and I tighten up my work game. XBOX really pissed me off today. They double charged me and I had to do a shit ton of work. I am a blessed man though. I have every video a man would ever want. Back to work tomorrow. I got plenty of people to play xbox with and playstation 4 now with.

06/04/2017

This week was pretty good. Kyle was off of work on Friday so I pushed as hard as I could at work. I got 11 batches and
2 piece lists which was a bit sad because I went my fastest. The piece lists were big and I did them right so that is good. I went to the Royals game with the family on Saturday. The Royals played awesome and we had great seats. It was a good time. Sunday I was in a bit of a down mood but still went to the gym made a friend and worked out. I always try to work out as much as I can. I try to take care of my money, my body, my car, and my tires, and my gas and my gas money. TIRES AND GAS ARE EXPENSIVE. Also I need to try to keep my mileage down on my car since I put 30000 ! on it last year. Tomorrow I have a dentist appointment. I have insurance through metlife which I am grateful for.

Memorial Day weekend 2017

I had a delicious steak yesterday. My work hooked me up. Today I am listening to a self-discipline self help tape. I sat in my new racing chair today. I went for a walk. I tried not to burn gas and burn on my tires on my car. I try my best to take care of my mind, body, and car.

May 7th

So yes I just fucked around with video games not really playing much. One thing I did notice is that even though Grand Prix legends is 20 years old someone added a file that let you see the tire temps. I get so impatient I can't even make it two laps without pressing exit and chosing different car or different game. On the bright side my years of fifa made it easy to pick up that game from the Library and score easy. It is nice not to suck at somethings. Lots of times on Sunday 3-6 is this emotional distress of boredom plus lack of interest. Luckily today it wasn't bad it was beautiful out so I went for a walk.

05/07/17

Nothing that much to report. Work seems to be doing o.k. My main beef is just doing the right thing over and over even though there are no bonus or rewards above and beyond my paycheck. I invested money with Edward Jones and that promptly lost 12 bucks. fuck trump. I have been playing and messing around with the game Rfactor. Rfactor is this crappy racing game that you can modify. I have been downloading and tweaking grafix cars tracks and downloading all types of cars across 3 different computers. When it comes to actually drive that isn't fun. the fun is collecting all the tracks

put backs

I found out the secret to push backs is to push the pallet in and go way down on the tilt.

Thursday

I sit here throwing the cat off of me for the 5th time, cats don't respect personal space. Today was worth blogger about because I was able to go through a piece list and pull pieces from a bin all the way down my list. I do this slow ass way to do the pieces by getting the pieces and bags as the list goes on but I know to get faster I need to get everything out of the piece cart then go to the bags.

Weekend

On Friday I did 7 batches. No accident. I got steady growth going on. I tried most of the weekend to get the GTP mod going for computer. For some reason I have more fun installing games than I do actually playing them. I went down to Matt's to watch UFC and the fights were all great except for Woodly vs. Stephen Wonder Boy Thompson. That one sucked.

Last Couple of days

I have done better the last couple days in building batches. The batches don't look like complete shit which is nice. I did some bitch work yesterday to free up manpower to smash out some batches. I got nominated for a 25 dollar gift card for my team player attitude. Ugh. I have been journaling my food and not really cutting any food out. It looks like this candy bar snack pack and tv dinners.

Weekend

I had a pretty good weekend. On Saturday I watched the Penguins win in an outdoor game. I bowled alright. On Sunday I watched the Daytona 500 and I spent 6 hours trying to get Nascar 2003 to run on PC. I got it to work and it is old but it is FUN.

02/22/17

Damn I haven't blogged for a month! That is crazy. Today at work I had two rooms printed off 2 and 3. They weren't running but they were way behind. So I did 2 pretty fast 5 batches, well the 3rd shift supervisor complains to my co worker why am I not working on the room that is running. I explained what I was doing, but I told them I would jump on the room that is running right away. So I made a mistake misreading the right thing to do. Everyone dog piled on me the rest of the night calling me dumb and stupid and random stuff. I have thick skin, but I want to make sure I know next time yeah do the ones that the room is running so I won't do this again. Also 901 is a secret number to find partial bags in random areas. Everything else is pretty good. I have up and down moods but like today, people were calling me names but it didn't really hurt my feelings much. Hopefully that trend continues as I mature into someone who just works hard and doesn't give af.

01/19/2017

It has been awhile since I have blogged. I have been working 10 hour days and that has left me little time to formulate thoughts. I came to work after holiday break and things were easier. My batch numbers haven't gone way up but they have gone up a bit and the stress has come down a bit since I am getting used to the same things over and over. There are so many small things like under standing the run list inside and out and being able to see the run list and runs inside the run list as an example. If you had Transfer orders that looked like this 5001 5015 5016 5017 5018 4123 4124 4125 you would know the first one is an odd ball the next three are going to be the same materials in a run then it switches to another run of 3 batches of the same material. This helps if you are trying to spread out runs to different people. It also helps plan the night. Working the computer has gotten easier as well. So overall I hope I don't get fired because every day I show a bit more progress. Today was pretty fun because our safety director asked me to come up during a meeting and demonstrate stuff. Since I was a trainer it was simple as hell to know transitions and questions and things to bring home. I really need to be on a stage or a trainer somewhere because I have a knack of seeing inside the game of the dynamics of speakers and trainers. It means something to me when I have the balls to sit right square in front and participate. So much of my life I just wanted a paycheck I understand now I can make trainers be at ease if I participate and I also have to make sure I am not an over participater. Chiefs lost I may go into a blog about that later. Alex Smith and Andy Reid are just good enough to get to the playoffs and let you down. It was a good season though.

1/14/2017

I didn't get to blog much this week because we are working 10 hour shifts which leaves not much energy for much else. I did a good job of taking this pallet off of paletizer. The paletizer is millions of dollars and Gary one of the main guys at my work asked me to take this pallet off of it. the entry is narrow and there are sensors that are 100,000 dollars on right and left and it has long lamps going vertically like a garage light. He said ..."Whatever you do don't hit that glass" I was like welp lets do this. It was a bit ugly but I am not used to working in front of Gary and certainly was not familiar with this piece of equipment or the entrance. So good job for me to just go for it and not wuss out.

Saturday 01/08/2017

Saturday was pretty normal. We bowled and I have bowled like shit all year. Just need to not worry about it and do the best I can. I was making spares, but I can't get anything to carry. Standing straight up at-least had me release the ball pretty much the same everytime. At the end of the games I was slowing the ball speed down and it was going left. Sunday I made some videos and listened to Run The Jewels. I listened to the book think and grow rich on the youtube.

01/06/2016

Yesterday I smashed out 1 and a half piece lists and 12 batches. I felt pretty good. I had some episodes were I was annoyed and frustrated, but you got to be a man and push through those times. If I didn't use self-control or self-discipline everyday I would be broke. So when I felt annoyed I just told myself RAY THIS IS A CHANCE TO BE STRONGER LIKE DR.DRE-THE ROCK-JAY-Z!!! So when I have that vision in mind I am successful and I can smash out batches. We worked overtime yesterday and it was pretty fun. We had cherry mashes at work which was fun as well. Overall I am showing real progress on the fork-lift and I couldn't be more thrilled.

01/05/2016

Yesterday I got some products from the back side of a rack- I was able to flip out products...meaning if I need 600 KG's and I roll up to a pallet that has a 1000 KG' I need to throw off 400 KG's and take the 600 that is in that bay and flip the tags and put the pallet with 400 back saving time and work. I also work on backing in on bays so I am not turning blind side to a bay. It seems like I am doing better with my calculations. Lets say I need 476.28 KG that is 21 bags. I go to the piece area and get two bags that are 5.5 and .02 kg. So 476.8 - 5.5 -.02 Now I need 470.76 KG's So I am still going to need 21 bags. There is a bin out there with 6 bags (if I get to 6 bags I can't remember the Kg's off my head per 22.68 bag...I do have these memberized 22.68 1 bag 2 45.36 3 bags 68.04 4 bags 90.27 5 bags 113.4) ok so I go to clear out that 6 bag bin 136.08 is now transfered into the room. I am not done I ned to get the rest of the KG's 470.76-136.08. I know now I need 15 bags 15 X 22.68 so I transfer from 02/04/3/1/ 340.2 kg's and grab this bags. Look at my pallet I have 5 + 15 I have 20 bags all together and that is 5 tie 4 rows high. Good to go check and make sure I transfered everything to the room one last time. Turn the key and off to the next item.

01/04/2017

Today I went to planet fitness. I worked. I did 2 piece lists that were large like 3000 kg's and 7 batches. I had a wild hair because a guy I know seems to make lots of money and drives umm an outlandish sportscar. So I sent him a message over facebook and he wanted me to set a time with his secretary to interview with him. I wasn't really scared I just was like if he expects me to work right away I can't do that. LOL cart before the horse though. I probably should be freaking out because I may chicken out on the interview if it is tomorrow, but if things seem like they are plausable and it seems like I can learn from people and provide value, I would be all for making a leap of faith if it ment a chance at actually having some things I dream about (G-Wagon!) One thing that I have to really pat myself on my back for is I was sitting here thinking about work and I remembered my password was still jacked up. Instead of waiting to go to work. I was like. I need to get that done NOW. Take action NOW so it will save you some stress. I went to work and as luck would have it I was able to get it fixed. I want to always ALWAYS act if I can do something in the moment that may suck, but that will save me stress in the long run.

01/03/2017

I had a week off and I didn't do well with my diet. I got addicted to a sugar rush because I felt down most days. I did well compared to people who drink/do drugs/cut themselves. So that is good. I went to planet fitness today. I am studying DBT which is a new theropy. I love cars and that is one thing I need to think about more if I want to improve my mood. I go back to work and I don't know if I am off probation and good to go or fired. I am not really scared one way or another because I would like to move back to KC. I don't know what the universe has in store for me!

Happy New Years

This new year I am doing better than I usually do. I haven't had episodes of anxiety for awhile. I really wanted nba2k17 madden 17 and I wasn't planning on this but I updated my copy of mlb the show. NBA was on sale for 29 bucks. Madden was 20 bucks! and MLB was 10 bucks. So I spent 60 bucks on video games. Hopefully I get some enjoyment out of it. I already played a game with jason so that is good.